the anti climaticism of graduating

[SEAN!]

i thought id be happy but im just really bored and kind of stressed out over figuring out what im gonna do with myself. which is strange because i know what i want to do i just dont know if i want to start it now or fuck around for a few months or year before i get serious, and if i decide to fuck aorund the fact of the matter is i dont really have the money to do it nor do i have the inclination to travel for long periods of time.


all i know is im bored as hell because of the lack of structure, graduating from ubc dosnt seem like much of an accomplishment and the transitionary period im in really blows.

[MC Hammered]

Welcome to the last decade of my life.

[Akeel]

at least now you're done :)

[mugsy]

i donno if i can relate but im feeling pretty down about not going back to school this year. it just wasnt finacailly right for me, and taking a year off will help me grow more as an artist - but fuck i feel so disorientated and almost like im wasting a year. i have to find full time work as my summer full time job turns into part time with the change of the season. im trying to apply to teach my own programs and all this other jazz but i just dont know. its exciting but kinda scarey.
sometimes it feels like i dont have enough time to do what i want to do within my life and that every moment that im not educating myself through school and structure im wasting - other moments reality sinks in that im learning with everything i do in my everyday.

i think i just really love to learn. plus i may not be the neatest of kids but im very organized. i keep a planner and a calendar and both are color coded. i need structure.
im hoping to be able to take this time before i attend school to acheive a career that would be my almost forever job to take the jobs and work that i enjoy. ones that dont neccesarily pay the best, but i can get by with and enjoy waking up for. my career will be something i love and adore, but for now jumping from job to job is scarey, but i think it could also be fun. i think the lack of structure will probably fuck me up a little, but sometimes a little craziness is neccessary.

so i donno sean, maybe take this time to do jobs that you wouldnt neccessarily keep forever, but wouldnt mind doing. make some cash, do what you want and work a job that doesnt really matter that much in the future sense. relax and enjoy your youth.

[miss.myra]

Originally Posted by Akeel

at least now you're done :)

yeah! congrats seanu :)

[FeelGood]

I found I did the same thing as soon as I graduated.

Looked at schools, but from just finishing 12 years of school, I didn't really have any interest in university/college just yet, so I went out and got myself a job figuring it would only last a few months and I'd be back in school.

Boy was I wrong. Now its been almost 2 years, and I still dont know what I want to do with myself, and im kicking myself in the ass for not going back to school right away.

Of well as each day passes, I find something new about myself and Im hoping sometime very soon, ill get my act together and get my education.

As for now, I work fulltime, I pay the bills, and I dont mind life.

So far, so good. As long as the bills get paid, and the roof over my head doesnt leak, I think ill do just fine.

[dj_soo]

same thing happened with me - got disillusioned with my major somewhere around 3rd year, but decided to finish anyway instead of taking extra time to change majors, got my degree... and drifted for a couple years working odd jobs and just being bored.

Eventually got a shit job in an industry I enjoyed but had nothing to do with my major and after 4 years of working at that sweatshop known as EA, I've found myself with a pretty cushy job in videogames that pays well and is somewhat fun to boot.

Only took me uh... 6 years after college graduation :-\

[lithe]

i'd always planned on going to law school after i got my BA, in order to prevent feeling like "what the fuck do i do now", but somewhere between writing my term papers and studying for the lsat, i realized i really, really don't want to go back to school right away. i've postponed my "wtf do i do now" by traveling for 6 months (t-6 1/2 weeks), but still... scary scary scary. :(

[dj_soo]

^ honestly, I always thought it was best for people to take time off from school to really figure out what they want in life - especially for post-grad. I still have this tiny inkling of returning to grad-school someday just to take a purely academic Masters or PhD or something, but my post undergrad break has lasted 7 years already :-\

[SEAN!]

Originally Posted by mofo-x

^ honestly, I always thought it was best for people to take time off from school to really figure out what they want in life - especially for post-grad. I still have this tiny inkling of returning to grad-school someday just to take a purely academic Masters or PhD or something, but my post undergrad break has lasted 7 years already :-\

i hated almost every minute of school/my major but since i did a minor in economics i found that i have a passion for economics and finance so atleast i have some direction for a potential career path other then the vague heading of "buisness"

But as with you, i figure that going into graduate studies when you dont know what you want to do for a career or dont really know 'who you are' could potentially be a huge waste, and may even be a symptom of escapism or fear of transition in some cases. the fact of the matter is that many people in their early twenties completely change in what they like and the person they think they are. People who were in engineering and commerce might decide that instead of working in an office they rather travel around in a VW bus selling hand made macromay hammocks and going to shambhala or soemthing haha.

[Grapes]

all i know is im bored as hell because of the lack of structure, graduating from ubc dosnt seem like much of an accomplishment and the transitionary period im in really blows.

Ahahahaha..... well said, sir.

The only thing that really worked for me with my grad is that I already KNEW I was going to find the whole thing anti-climactic, so I basically came in there with that attitude. Whole thing was a wank, I should have kicked Martha Piper in the junk.

[(val)Liam]

Originally Posted by SEAN!

i thought id be happy but im just really bored and kind of stressed out over figuring out what im gonna do with myself. which is strange because i know what i want to do i just dont know if i want to start it now or fuck around for a few months or year before i get serious, and if i decide to fuck aorund the fact of the matter is i dont really have the money to do it nor do i have the inclination to travel for long periods of time.


all i know is im bored as hell because of the lack of structure, graduating from ubc dosnt seem like much of an accomplishment and the transitionary period im in really blows.

a few months to a year will turn into three... I'm in that rut right now and I'm trying to dig myself out of it... if you have an idea of what you want to do, might as well go for it while you have the momentum...

[SEAN!]

welp. got a job and been there for a week...feel alot better about things now.


i think it was just all the free time allowed me to brood and worry about things.