ATTENTION UP: well well well!

[Automatik]

This is one of my few and far apart chances to post, some reason form and kaos . com doesn't like my shit computer anymore, right now im at a crew party havin' a blast...

What's been up with Justin?

WELL! Im in a wonderful relationship... This person, Alex, who I am with, is my saviour... Showing me sides of life I never thought existed... Helping me rebuild the life I slowly killed off because of depression, and a broken heart. Albeit I am not in love, and can not really feel any emotions besides hurt pain and sorrow, Alex is the key to rebirth for me.

As was posted before, I needed a place to live, due to being kicked out for smoking two joints that fateful sunday night... Well... It seems now, my parents regret that "get out" statement they made two months ago. Now I have joyfully found a place to live. I will be moving into my own apartment with two girls I don't even know, both under 18, I think they are like 16 and 17, one is a punk, and one is a metal head.... They both have boyfriends, my room is inbetween theirs, they both like to fuck, and they admittedly FUCK LOUD... oh joy... Well it's cool, they're both barstars, and they tend to party most of the nights of the week... Should be interesting... I move in tomorrow morning, aka July 1st.

Along with Alex, came two amazing kids, Cam and Nikki, both now my tight personal circle of friends, infact im at nikki's house right now... They are also my saviours... the perfect friends... their heads are on straight, they all have jobs, lives, futures, they are all my life now... the four of us.... It's amazing.

Drugs... well, that's been going not bad... I still do Meth frequently, but I do E now more so frequently... Alex is going to try and help me mack drugs the smallest part of my life... I hope to start attending some sort of drug councelling after I move out, as reinforcement. Because right now, drugs are probably the biggest part of my life, which needs to be fixed.

Family, well my family ain't the greatest... my dad is leaving to marry is Cyber chick girlfriend, Tammy, Who lives in Oregon, sometime soon... He leaves behind me, his mom, and my sister, it's going to be very tuff... He's giving up his career at Budget of almost 30 years, probably to become a trucker... me and my dad don't have the greatest relationship, but still, it's going to be tuff losing another chunk of my dads side of the family... the only part of my family I actually love and can stand, well im left with my aunt too. My grandma is the only one in my family, I would do ANYTHING for, even die, if so needed.... But alas, I feel her time is sadly coming, her soul weakens every day, and so does her body.... To lose her, would destroy me 100%, especially now, at this point in my life.

Well, I just wanted to say, I love you all. And due to the fact that im moving, and my computer doesn't like f&k. My post shall be even fewer and far apart.

I will try to keep in contact with all those who wish too... my e-mail is: [email protected] or [email protected]
My pager is: 1-888-568-2110, it's numeric, and if you page me, I will call you back and give you my phone number, once we get the phone connected.

Dj form - Next time your in Victoria, give me a fucking page!!!! We'll hook up and get a crew together and do something memorable. AND I STILL WANT MY CD YOU GEEK ;)

Lots of love,

~justin

CONTACT INFO IS IN MY TAG!

[~lazee_grrl~]

Justin...whoa...was wondring where u've been...but yeah..i'm really glad to know that ur life is getting back on track since the last time u posted it didnt' sound all that good..yeah...sorry to hear about ur dad goin tho...having family go always sucks!..but u'll be fine..with ur new friends and all..it all sounds good...good luck with ur new roomies...hehe..(earplugs??)..and with ur trying to cut down on drugs...i'll email u but i must say i suck at mailing....and if i'm ever in victoria..i'll page u!!>...:Lazee:..

[Erica]

Hey hun...I haven't talked to you for a while. *squishy hugs* I'm so glad to hear about Alex hun!! Through your relationship, I hope that the many sides of pain that you endure are able to heal to their fullest extent.

As for the drugs, I'm really proud of you for planning to go to drug councelling and getting help. Although kicking it will be up to you, the guidance will help lead you in the right direction, as long as you are willing to follow it.

Sounds like you have an adventure ahead of you, moving in with those two girls. *hehe* All I'll say to that is good luck!

Come back and post whenever you get the chance, and update us on how you're doing. *hugs* I'll definitely e-mail you soon and we'll keep in touch through that. Take care sweetie!!

Luv Erica :AZN:

[acidic_liquid]

*hugs* YAAAY I'm happy that you finally have a great relationship. I hope he treats you amazingly well, which is what you deserve. I wish you the best of luck.

I'm happy that you're getting help/ drug councelling. If I was there, I'd have taken a more active role in helping you. I'm proud of ya for doing that. I wish you the best of luck. I know that you CAN kick it; it's in your power. And with Alex's support, and other friends, your strength is multiplied.

YAY for your new home. I'm sorry I couldn't help much at all :/ I don't know anyone there in Victoria. And posting on here didn't help much at all either. But I'm glad that things are settled now. Hope you're happy in your new home. I hope that you can sleep with all the "noise" around there lol. You could always bring Alex in and make your own noise LOL .

I'm sorry to hear that your family isn't so great. But remember that your blood family isn't your only family. Look around and see all the people that care for you. They, to an extent, are your family too. You're NEVER alone. Remember that even all the way here in Vancouver you have friends. I also hope that your grandma would be there for you, like you'd be there for her. I'm sure she'll fight to make sure she can help you. But also brace yourself for life's wicked twists and turns.

I've never met you. And right now I don't think I ever will :/ But I still consider you a friend. I'll definitely email you, or ICQ(even though you're never around there) , maybe even page you.

*hugs* I wish you all the luck hun.
MUAH.

Be strong.
:027:

[wundergirl]

I THOUGHT YOU WERE LIVING IN A BOX SOMEWHERE!!!!!!

I'm so glad everything turned out for you in the whole roommate thing and everything....hadn't heard from you and was frankly a little worried:027:
The whole family situation sounds pretty shitty hun...actually hitting pretty close to homes as well, so if you need an understanding ear to listen, or you want someone who's been throught it to tell you it's gonna be cool....then get me on icq - i'm always on.
All of that said, congrats on the Alex thing. Everyone needs someone uplifting and positive to brighten up their life, and you're lucky that you have it.



dood, seriously icq me
*hugz*