confused self expression.....

[starburst]

i don't know if this is considered a poem........... it doesn't really have a point.....more like rambled thoughts......


this feeling comes over me
like a violent storm
my tears are nothing compared to
what i hold inside me....
if i let this storm out will i explode?
sometimes i feel that its what
holds me together, that if i let it out
all that is me will go with it....
do i know life anyother way?
how do i cope?
how do i deal with this hurricane?
i'm frightened by it
i'm frightened that i won't recognize my own self
frightened to truely see what i've become....
i know already that i'm not what i want
i'm not fullfilling my dreams...
following my own thoughts
but really, what are my own thoughts?
what are your own thoughts?
does anybody really know?
society has made a path for us to follow
although we rebel and try to take our own paths
we're still going in the same direction..........

[~lazee_grrl~]

amanda...luv the poem...
and it an be a poem if u want it to be cuz a poem is like an expression of ur thoughts..ur thoughts sumwut remind me of mine...its so hard to figure stuff like that out..there's never a real answer..thinking is evil...hope ur not as confustrated later..~..:384:

[Breezy]

I like your poem, it sounds similar to the way I’ve been feeling... I can totally relate to what you said, especially the part:
~i'm frightened that i won't recognize my own self
frightened to truly see what i've become....~
I know I'm not following the path I want to follow, and I’m sorta afraid what I’ll become if I keep it up... but then I guess you can't really set down who you want to be, because then you'll only be setting yourself up for disappointment...
And this storm you hold inside of you, that if you let it out you will fall apart... I know the feeling... but sometimes [if the feeling doesn’t go away] it is good to talk to someone. I hope you’re in better spirits soon~!
~but really, what are my own thoughts?
what are your own thoughts?
does anybody really know?~
this just reminded me of a part from a poem "truth of life" I wrote a while ago:

In this world but what is there?
We all drift,
we all are lost.
The worlds inside our own heads are muddled,
incomplete and deluded.
The world out side is but a spinning passing dream,
some times pleasant but usually dark,
smoky,
swirling.
All is but darkness or blinding light.
And what is there to do to keep sane?
I am alone,
in this rotating nonsensical life
I am lost,
but what is new,
aren’t you?
If you claim no,
You show but your denial of truth,
and then all you live is but a lie.
And so you become but a lie.
Truth is what I strive to know,
but such is my curse,
for truth of life is darker than life should be.~*

I was confusing myself with this one, but what I mean to say is that life is confusing as hell and no one really has it all together, if they say they do then they haven’t had to deal with any trials that live gives us, and they’re not really experiencing life. I think every one is lost and confused... so to answer your question: deep down no one really knows their own thoughts... k, I’m just rambling.. gonna shut up now~ But I agree with jen, too much thinking IS evil! And cheer up, your a good poet~! :)
*hugz*
~breezy

[starburst]

thanks guys!
that makes me feel so much better, knowing that other people can relate....
i know thinking too much is definately evil...very evil...=oP

and Breezy, thank you for your thoughts!
and your poem is really good...i like the last line best.....it's nice to know that somebody shares the same thoughts..=o)

xoxoxo:027: