So I Find Out Tomorrow ...

[All!e]

So tomorrow [monday 8] I find out what the plan for the next year of my life will be.

Will it be one more round of chemo [or possibly more], living this hell I do now - of constant sickness, hair loss, weight fluctuation, mood swings ... or will it finally end and something new begin?


I'm scared to go to bed because I don't want to find out that I have to have more chemo, but today is the worst day [ http://www.fnk.ca/board/showthread.p...threadid=38836 ] and I just want it to end.


Will the next attempt of treatment have "better" side effects, or "worse" ... so many things running through my mind - I can't take it.


I hope I don't have to have more chemo, I just want life back. It's sucking the life out of me.


* Allie :282:

[MistressSpankME]

God, I really hope you get the good news we are ALL hoping for . Either way you know you have people to support you through the hell. And I know that's been said a million times, and that it sure as hell doesn't erase anything you have , are or will go through; but thats the best thing I can offer..

[sweet~kandy]

Awww Allie I hope everythingworks out for the best, you know im here for you :) Smile sweetie

[Kraig]

I am sure I speak for everyone on F&K when I say our thoughts and prayers are with you today.

Keep us posted!

[Goat]

^ ditto

best of luck Allie.

[Chino]

That sucks. I hope it goes good for you! :kimmie:

[.muffy.]

Best of luck allie
you have an amazing spirit and I know that only good things are in store for you...wow I sound like a fortune cookie

:)

["jawayo"1]

allly.....yur strong..yull make it.....

[BlueLude]

Crossin my fingers for good news! Best of luck.

[Erica]

Rooting for you sweetheart. Definitely hoping for some good news. Let us know! We're all here for you. <3

[All!e]

So I have to have chemo again ...

I don't get to start my MIGB therapy until feb and guess what day ... the 13 - so if that's the plan ... and if it works out, I wont get to go to kiss :(

I'm really starting to get upset about all this ... not to mention if I follow the "plan" for the MIBG I will also be going in May which is when my friend's wedding is ...


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I'm going to go eat lots of junk food and eat myself into a happy place.

shit .. no wonder i've put on a good 15-20 lbs ...

* allie

[hardstylin]

yaya good luck girl chemo is a horrible thing to deal with, i hope ur all done with it.

[Kraig]

Well All!e... I am sorry to hear that you have to go through more treatments. Although I haven't had to go through them myself, my Mother did.

I can only imagine at how frustrated you are in having to go through another round... On the flip side, although it does come with some side-effects and will have you miss out on some events, at least you have a plan... A plan to irradicate things for good. Some people aren't given that option!

[All!e]

oh my god!

Ok I just got a call from my doctor and someone just cancelled out of their treatments in Edmonton - So I now get to go in Jan around the 15th!


I still have to have chemo ... and have a nifty needle stick out of me for a week ... but hey this should be the last time for at least 6 months.

Now I better go to the gym and work off all the junk I just ate ...


* Allie

[Kraig]

Now ya see! -- Everything happens for a reason. That is awesome news!

[All!e]

Yes yes it is ...


I just realized I'll still have my needle at mikey's birthday ... lol oh well. Wait .. no I wont. Wow I'm slow.

* allie

[Lady Dame]

thinki in pinki allie.

[All!e]

*sigh*

[Sue Bitch]

you goinh to be at the hospital after 330 cause i am working :c-tard: give you an awsome drink on me if you come

[All!e]

im only there in the moring sue!