my life changing experience-my progress as an actress

pinkpanther · #1 (**permalink**) May 19, 04

im not realli sure if this is the right place for this thread but fuck it..so today i had a sort of life changing experience on stage, for the first time in my life, i WAS my charecter, i was so in the world that wen the lights went on, nikohl was gone, n i was just madge owens (thats my charector) i can hardly explain it, or remember it even, it was like i was in a trance, n it was so real, and for the first time in my life i was able to cry on stage without pushing it, its like, i knew wut i was feeling, so the words just flowed out right. it was amazing, wen i was off stage i just meditated n saw like where my charector was at that moment, i was talking to myself having conversations that she wud have with ppl during the time she was off stage, it was amazing, i felt so....vulnerable, and open, with nothin to hide, like i was thrown on stage with no preporation and just lived it...sorry if my spellin sucks, im a bit exited haha, have ne other actors on this board ever experienced this? or ne thin like it in ne way, share ur comments

Iokua · #2 (**permalink**) May 21, 04

It starts like that but eventually you can control it...kinda. The same thing happened to me. I'd never cried for this scene but I was supposed to, so the last show I let myself open up and it just all came out. I kinda scared myself in that I couldn't control how I was saying things...I don't think the audience understood anything I was saying but the message still went across.
-josh

pinkpanther · #3 (**permalink**) May 21, 04

well i dunno, my director said it was a "magnificent" performance, n i think i cud get to that state again n as u said control it better this time, wasnt it like unreal? i didnt think that it was even possible, its like i thought i knew about acting and theatre but i knew nothing till that moment, i learned more in that one night than in all my training, well, all my training prepared me for that moment and ya, it was great

Iokua · #4 (**permalink**) May 22, 04

Well there you go :)

pinkpanther · #5 (**permalink**) May 30, 04

just did my last show and it was..amazing, our whole casts besst performance, its all over, thats fukin wierd, wut will i do with myself now? 3 months without ne drama its gonna be fukin wierd man, well...here goes.........