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without a hope
like freshly cut roses
turned over a new leaf like a red drop on freshly fallen snow your eyes smile at me you want to sway me swimming in a pool of insecurity im still your friend like two early graves wrapping my arms around familiar emptyness all too familiar, too relative Its all me your emotions are too abstract for me and sometimes we have to let free what we adore the clouds always find me, the rain always falls on my face the sun might rize on your horizon, but the moon always falls when i look through my shattered looking glass and see your face in place of my own reflection |
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but that face is one and the same
can't you see me? i can't see you, looking through this piece of broken glass, in search of an answer, as it must be, for i am you, and you are me. it's always nearer than we think, we reach to far, to the greatest of heights - never imagining that what could be accomplished - lies in the stars of a moonlight night so take these thoughtless wants and needs and.. throw them away! as if you could throw no farther, to the wind.. and as she opens her mouth to kiss you - let her steal what's left of your soul. [vacant] |
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i cried too many tears
while pipe dreams fell and hopes lowered the bar washed down like jagged edges curled fingertips and salted sorrow take me to a place where expression lies easily where i can breath again these lungs sink like lead and fill with dread while each and every one of you slip away from me and change into something you were not easily forgotten it seems. maybe im just washed down like shards of pain just out of sight like this whole facade swirling down a rusted drain in tune with rusted eyes |
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and the water
it rips my throat apart as i try to choke these words out "its only being lonely that hurts" they could never touch me again sit against the other side of the other wall of the other room on the other side of my fragile planet and i could be whole or sane [ patterns emerge ] why do i always want to be like someone else? why do i always want to BE someone else? health runs rampant with his little knives and i'm shaking in my shoes so wonder why i can't take you to those pots of gold we used to speak of and break mirrors under the sun so that we could send ourselves to the stars - reduced to a mess. in synchronization with the tap plugs being pulled out - pulled down the drain ...... and filtered out [ you can be my coffee drainer ] until it all becomes so ridiculously abstract that i don't even know where i'm coming from anymore. can you teach me how to smile? |
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I cant teach myself how to smile
i have to go over the steps and re learn, how to feel happiness again how to flush it all away like false hopes falling on puddles I turn myself out like closed eyes shut out the world behind closed doors and broken floors walking upon crushed dreams I cant smile until i've defeated the word lonely until i've overcome the extremities thrown in my face [im going to bed] and dream the world away because in sleep i find solace emotions turn quicker than pages |
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i'm not going to bed,
but i'm going to sleep for as long as i can... maybe it will grab me from my dreams and rip something out that i don't even need. i feel like i can't make make a difference and it keeps on repeating itself, same old every day night after night i want to be somewhere [ someone, something ] else until i just want the nails through my heart to dissolve and leave me with nothing. |
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