looking for answers

[junglequeen]

I’m looking for answers in the wrong places
My knees ache from praying to a God who loves me but doesn’t know what Im doing
Running from parents who never wanted me or cared to understand what I stood for
or wouldnt stand for
And a house that has no warmth.

The sharp sting of liquor burns my throat and opens deeper a void I cannot fill
While this last cigarette chokes me and fills my heart with a yearning for something I have yet to know.

Every word I confess floats me further from a place where I can stand grounded
This life that I was given by mistake blinds me until I see nowhere to turn
I’m chasing my fears hoping one will eat me alive so I can escape this damp emptiness

Waking to find nothing has changed
No miracle to save me
No future worth getting dressed for
No love to light my candle, no faith to keep it alive.

[Ragga_Wh0re]

:(*hugz*

[mojo]

cheer up dirty raver lifeguard
now dammit!