remembering home

[Ragga_Wh0re]

I dont know what to think anymore,where to go,to who or what do I turn to?
All that I want to hear and see think and feel,isnt happening here.
I remember when it used to,I remember when I choosed too.

Suddenly half hearted decisions are all that arise on my horizon.
Yesterday,today,and tomorrow constantly bleed together...
like water colors on a wooden canvas.
Im left again with this beautiful mess.

Never have I seen such complete chaos...
to the point where I didnt even wanna venture out of my house at night...forget night even day light.

I guess it`d all be worth while in the end, if i had something more to show than this slowly fading after glow.

A keepsake box filled with hangovers,and random pieces of paper that held some particular significance at one point in time in my daily grind.
This is the legacy Ill leave behind...

And just as confused as the next person,Ill tilt my head so I can see the world a little bit clearer...but it never works cuz I get dizzy and fall down.
As soon as I fix my eyes on this blurred vision...im blind.