missing you....sorry ppl..this one is gona be sad

gratia · #1 (**permalink**) Jul 07, 05

i totally just found an old friend on here.... :( fucking wierd. he is gone now.....sooo jaded. i miss him though. i think what i really miss is the old him....when we could hang out and not get into a big fight or some sketchy skitso convo that ended with both of us in tears. i miss the carefree days....skipping school and eating cornflakes at my house. fuck...why do i even remember that....this is messed up. i dunno why i can't just let go of the past. i keep wishing it could have been different. that if it were different maybe we wouldn't be so distant now. and i hate that blast from the past that creeps up and haunts you. why can't i just move forward???? and now i am jaded..wishing things could change...or that they would have stayed the same...not sure which... maybe both. i only hope he comes back from oblivion soon. even if i never see him straight....just to know he made to that place where everythings ok. this year....i drink to messe. (somebody hold me please....before i fall apart)

gratia · #2 (**permalink**) Jul 07, 05

also...thanks for the good times we had boy......here's to a newday!!! cheers!

BongMan · #3 (**permalink**) Jul 07, 05

That rings so true though I remember when I was in highschool doin the same shit. We use to have probably one of the largest group of kids who would get together on weekends or at nights. But times change people change move away and shit happens. I have slowly watched the circle of old friends dwindle from the 60's down to a group of about 14 close friends. Just the way life works I suppose and remember the past you choose to remember will always be more fun the the present you live in.