When no one understands.......

[BabyK]

Everyone thinks im so stable and a happy person, ppl think if sumthing happens ill be able to deal with it and that within a day or 2 ill be just fine! No one listens and when i try to explain ppl think im over exaggerating........ i have sooooo much bottled up inside me from when i was younger that now im at the point where I just snap...........
My parents cant understand why i've moved out for the next little while and when i explain, they tell me its not that bad! they dont understand! they rnt the one watching them fight all the time or watching my dad drink his life away, watching my mom bitch at and about everything! watching them spend all the $$ we dont have then complain about being broke, they dont have to listen to each one turning me against the other or visit a friggen nursing home so often that im friends w/ most of the residents who dont have alzheimers like my grandma!

IT DRIVES ME CRAZY BECAUSE THE LIST OF SHIT GOES ON!

I cant talk to anyone about it and i wish that they'd stop trying to get me to take anti-depressants, i dont need pills to get happy thank you very much!!!!

I JUST WISH THE WHOLE WORLD WOULD LEAVE ME ALONE AND JUST LET ME BE!!!!! STOP NAGGING AND BUTTING IN WHERE ITS NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS!!
:016: <---- me v.s. life in general.......

P.S.

Please do not reply to this if its one of those pointless replies that has nothing to do with anything im talking about.......everyone knows the type of replies im talking about, dont try to reply just to boost up the number of posts under your name cuz thats just hurting......... please feel free to leave any relavent advice....

-THX:057:

[cLinK]

Originally posted by BabyK
Everyone thinks im so stable and a happy person, ppl think if sumthing happens ill be able to deal with it and that within a day or 2 ill be just fine! No one listens and when i try to explain ppl think im over exaggerating........ i have sooooo much bottled up inside me from when i was younger that now im at the point where I just snap...........

i understand that completely. Everyone i knew thought i was this strong person, that i could deal with anything, that nothing was ever wrong with me.

and when i tried to explain myself, they didn't believe me, or thought it wasn't that big of a deal

that led me to keep everything inside. it somehow got to the point where i had no emotions, i was like a robot. i felt no happiness, no sadness... like a numbness. but i still managed to be "bright happy colleen" on the outside.

eventually, i snapped ((at something really dumb)) and i cried... and cried... and cried.... i cried probably 2 years worth of tears. and i decided it was time i needed to tell someone.

so i went to a psychologist, and she helped me work things through. then she tried to give me drugs. i took them for like, 2 days and felt retarded, so i stopped.

but i'm off topic now...

basically, my advice for you is to talk to someone you trust. and if you don't know anyone you trust, or want to talk to, go see a psychologist. it may sound dumb, but even one session can help

if you want the name of a good one, message me :)

i hope i helped a little bit

love colleen :Clink:

[BabyK]

clink- thx for the reply......... i took these pills before that just made me feel retarded too, and all i could do was puke, nothing especially not a pill has ever made me so sick........
thats exactly what im going thru..... wow, SOMEONE understands!...... i have no energy to even cry..... im just totally numbed........ pls icq me 18987017 or mssg me w/ the name & # of your councellor

[powerpuffys*]

We've known each other for quite a while now.. and you know I'm here for you.. I will listen that's because I'm a good listener and I'm also here to help you.. Call me silly.. Fuck you know sometimes my parents are like that too.. they just wont leave me alone..I know what I'm fucken doing so just let me be.. They make me soo upset and angry sometimes that I can't control my emotions that I have to depend on antidepressants and that's stupid and unhealthy because you take "pills" to make you "happy" not yourself... I remember taking that shit.. it's horrible..And Kristin I do understand what's going on in your life.. mine is very similar to yours.. and please don't fucken take antidepressants because they are addicting..


I love you Kristin..

[Breezy]

Hey hun, I gotta say that a lot of people have gone through what your going through now, even tho it seems as if no one out there can understand how ur feeling... of course different things bothering them and whatnot.. but even I have been in ur situation.. a while back I had soooo much shit going on.. and it just kept on getting worse... it was a really low point in my life, but I’d still try n get on and act all happy, keeping it all tucked inside... till eventually just any little thing would make me snap, and people would ask what was wrong.. but I couldn’t explain cuz it wuz so much that had pilled up, and when I did try to explain they wouldn’t understand and it would really frustrate me... but newho, to the point... I felt I couldn’t talk to anyone, so I went to a psychologist and eventually she helped... like it’s no miracle worker, but I still recommend it... she made me look at things in a different way and try to forget about the past, and we had those bitching sessions when each of my parents come in! hehe... those were great, cuz they weren’t allowed to get mad at anything I said to them... mmm... ya, and they wont make you take anti-depressants... you become dependant on them and it’s just a temporary solution... but things will get better in time... and if u just wanna talk to someone whoz been through it, feel free to icq me~ 40304533... I hope u start feeling better :)
*hugz*
~breezy

[~snow*white~]

i hope your feeling better. =)
i know what you're goin through cuz it's kinda what i'm goin through right now too. it seems that theres no one that you can talk to about it cuz yeah they prob think that you are over exaggerating. and your parents aren't there for you to talk to either. pls don't take any drugs cuz i don't think it's goin to make these problems go away. my advice is to talk to someone that will listen and give you the feedback that you need or goin to go see a therapist about it.
i hope this helped somewhat......if you can't talk to someone, then maybe writing whatever you're thinking down on paper.

i just hope everything is going to be looking up soon for you! you can icq meeh if you want to just talk

[BabyK]

aWWWWW....... you guys r all awesome =o) thank you! :027:

[Serotonin]

is damaging to your emotions.
I've come close to snapping completely many times .That's why i'm leaving.
Even good friends aren't any help when they don't understand you.

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