when i was little and now i am not

[Jingles]

it's funny how life is never what you think it will be. When I was in grade 4 i thought for sure by the time I reached my early twenties I would be married. twenties sounded so old, and comparativley it was at the time
I thought in my pre teens that by 25 I would be married and would have kids at 28.
I was sure that somewhere in my early twenties I would be starting into a career I would love and would be making decent money, i would have a shiney car -
I am mid twenties now and I have a game plan for a career, I am no where near married ..I feel way to young to be a mom and am astounded when people ask me if i have kids of my own, or if I am married

i get asked that question a lot by customers - about my husband and kids.....i look at them like they are normal for asking but in my head I feel they are crazy - i'm 24 , hello?

I know plenty of people my age who are married who are haivng kids with their spouses and some who are working jobs they will work the rest of their lives....
that's it then - they've started the lives they will live til the end.....and me I'm in the midst of kaos trying to create my life, trying to find myself
getting all gaaaa over boys ... I mean I'm still chasing boys and they are picking out china patterns....
it's so strange

nothing is as I thought it would be
you know?

[Ragga_Wh0re]

/\i totallllllllly know what ur talking about. When I was a lil girl I thought id be so good and wholesome and lookie me now!Im thankful for everything i went through tho and glad that my life didnt turn out as I once thought it would.

[Xtafen]

I wouldn't have ever thought that I would be a hooker when I grew up :smoke1:

[Jingles]

^ that's part of what I meant in posting this. You'd never know by looking at a sweet 6 year old girl that one day - someone would have the nerve to call her 'slut'
that'd she'd do drugs
that'd she may rob a bank - kill her neighbor

(well i guess in some kids you might think so)
I look at my Sparks sometimes and I wonder what challenges they will face, and who they will become
if you ask them now they are all going to be princesses and moviestars and vetrinarians (and none of them want to get married yet, they think boys are gross)

Many years ago i was that little girl...and many years from now I will look back and go....fuck, I had no clue then either :)

[Chet]

I'm a little princess
just like I wanted :kimmie:

[vesperstina]

i've been thinking about this off and on again for awhile.
it comes up in my mind like wow, i thought i would be dead by now, omg i'm so old. it's funny to think back on it all now. children's worlds are so so in the moment, so surrounded by what's going on at that very second that by the inconceivable time that they think is 25, it's a very long time from that moment. today, finally you're at that time that you thought, and played around with the idea of being at, and in all actuality you're not there. but what was it but a dream anyway. i think it's those goals and perceveirance that makes you get there.

anyway.

i really like daydreaming about being there.
and when me/you finally get to that place it will be that much more rewarding. but by then we'll have entirely new dreams and aspirations.

<bow>

stina.

[krisamata]

i totally thought i would have a family by now, and be a teacher.


well that hasnt happened, i havent had a relationship longer then three months and i work at staples

i always wanted to travel.

i havent really gone anywhere.

i also have been thinknig about this a lot lately. and its somewhat depressing, i feel like i've done nothing with my life lately.

i feel like i've dissapointed the little child inside of me, the little girl that thought she would have it all by now.

but it's also very motivating because now im gonna please that little girl, and the older one, i'm gonna start doing stuff i've always wanted to do.

it's weird how things work out though.

[SomeGuy]

Life is such a funny thing, no matter how much you know or you think you know, in truth you know nothing.. Jingles, your 24 and people ask if your married? I think you'd have to be nuts to settle down so early in life, I don't wanna even think about marriage till I'm in late 20's early 30's.. life is meant to be lived and I plan on enjoying it to the fullest, then I'll get married, settle down and mature..

[Akeel]

i'm totally not where I thought I'd be either, i hit a few snags but i'm pretty content with where I'm at right now ;)...for the moment

[crackjoy]

lol, i thot'd i'd be married by 20 latest, have a couple kids and live out the rest of my life.

now i'm not even sure if i want to get married, much less find someone to spend teh rest of my life with.