feeling so alone.

zarlon · #1 (**permalink**) Dec 11, 04

i really need some kind of companionship, i'm starting to get obsessed with shopping and makeup and all kinds of consumerism, this isn't normal for me, i'm not quite sure what the fuck is happening here.

anyone have any ideas, i'm really at a loss here. and no this is not for sympathy, i just need to find a solution.

i guess geting out more would help but i feel like i'm bothering people by asking them to do things sometimes, like my company isn't wanted. anyways.

this is getting a little personal so i'm going to stop right here.

hope some of y'all can identify :(

TheCooker · #2 (**permalink**) Dec 11, 04

Would you call it Christmas Blues?

zarlon · #3 (**permalink**) Dec 11, 04

no it's been going on for a while maybe months.

stabmyhead · #4 (**permalink**) Dec 11, 04

I wish our schedules didn't conflict so much. I am so caught up in school and work that I never have time for much else. I think since you have been working a lot (and with such odd hours), you tend to spend a lot of time by yourself... and when you get bored, you probably go shopping.

I am done my final on Monday... we'll see how my schedule is like. At least you have flow to spend, being broke sucks ass :( I haven't gone out in so long...

cyclic · #5 (**permalink**) Dec 11, 04

it sucks going through that kind of thing .. i suffer bouts of depression time to time also ...

its hard to say what brings it on .. but the whole xmas season and the lead up to it is tough for single People ..

TheCooker · #6 (**permalink**) Dec 11, 04

So you go out and buy things, because you have no one to do things with?

You could always go for a run, or get a gym membership! I use the gym at my work periodically. Makes you feel good. But hell I dunno! What do you think?

zarlon · #7 (**permalink**) Dec 11, 04

no gym, because i smoke to much and can't seem to quit - my cardio is shit.

leslie yeah i work 7 days in a row from t he 14th to the 20th, but all but one of my shifts are 7-3s (well i have one 8-6 as well) so we should get together at some point. i keep on going into mexx to see if your working.

i dunno i think i am facing major insecurity for some reason? so fucked :(

cyclic: i am not single, heh

cyclic · #8 (**permalink**) Dec 11, 04

still is a depressing time of the year for allot of people ..

TheCooker · #9 (**permalink**) Dec 11, 04

^have you tried this?
I've tried it three times and still smoke!
But who know's it might work!

zarlon · #10 (**permalink**) Dec 11, 04

^ fuuuck that shit!

i remember a friend of mine taking zyban, and he got soooo weird. that's an SSRI right? or an SDRI.. i can't remember

TheCooker · #11 (**permalink**) Dec 11, 04

Yes but I don't know which one! I had really crazy dreams, I can remember one, I was being chased by cigarettes, they wanted to kill me...truly weird!

zarlon · #12 (**permalink**) Dec 11, 04

OK probably SDRI at least thats what im thinking... you had cigarette dreams? damn i'm having a cigarette dream of my own right now... which will be actualized in approximately 30 minutes (break time!)

the cancer sticks do want to kill you they will squeeze your last breath from your dying body!

TheCooker · #13 (**permalink**) Dec 11, 04

I consider them my health sticks...even though yes they are killing me...one day I won't do anything bad....one day!

zarlon · #14 (**permalink**) Dec 11, 04

fuckin rights guy. the smoke i will have shortly will ease my anxiety!

~*faeryfly*~ · #15 (**permalink**) Dec 11, 04

I feel very similar, I live in the wack & all my favorite ppl don't, this sucks :(

But chin up girl, just try to keep in touch with good friends, & do stuff that you truly enjoy, the smallest things can be so fufilling :)

IntakE · #16 (**permalink**) Dec 11, 04

Quote:

Originally Posted by zarlon

i guess geting out more would help but i feel like i'm bothering people by asking them to do things sometimes, like my company isn't wanted. anyways.

Why would you feel like your bothering then?
if there your friend you deffinatly should not feel that way
they obviously would be willing to spend time with you
dont be scared well not scared bothered by calling them Im sure they love hangingout with you so they dotn care at all.

Liqwid · #17 (**permalink**) Dec 11, 04

Eat yer feelings claire!

~D

zarlon · #18 (**permalink**) Dec 11, 04

mm, intake i dont think you understand this situation its not so much the fact that they dont like hanging out with me cause i know they do its just the fact that i am actually feeling this way.

because regardless of the fact that i know the truth it does not change my feelings at all and that is kind of unusual.

Liqwid · #19 (**permalink**) Dec 11, 04

claire i am kidding...

i love you...u've always been a sweet heart to me...and i haven't seen u in a while....

let me know if u wanna go for sushi or a drink sometime?

~Dalyn

miss.myra · #20 (**permalink**) Dec 11, 04

The solution is simple, but not easy to obtain.

You need to find peace within yourself .

It's so easy to use external sources to distract us, but in the long run it will only make you more unhappy.

How to do this is something I can't tell you to do, and I can tell you people struggle with it their whole lives.

I honestly can relate to how you feel sometimes. Being single, and being someone who has a hard time developing close and meaningful relationships with people, I really envy people who seem to have those things. However, I'm also crazy about giving myself space. The more time I spend with myself, the more I really get to know myself, and I'm starting to really like that. Once you stop distracting yourself, it's easy to really try to get to know you a little better.

Aaron_J · #21 (**permalink**) Dec 11, 04

Quote:

Originally Posted by zarlon

i really need some kind of companionship, i'm starting to get obsessed with shopping and makeup and all kinds of consumerism, this isn't normal for me, i'm not quite sure what the fuck is happening here.

anyone have any ideas, i'm really at a loss here. and no this is not for sympathy, i just need to find a solution.

i guess geting out more would help but i feel like i'm bothering people by asking them to do things sometimes, like my company isn't wanted. anyways.

this is getting a little personal so i'm going to stop right here.

hope some of y'all can identify :(

Hey Im just down the street from ya. Dont be a stanger claire.

ebbomega · #22 (**permalink**) Dec 11, 04

For a long time, I'd be sitting, late at night, looking forlornly at my empty bed, wondering why there wasn't someone in it I could snuggle up with.

This happened many times in my life, most notably when I was "together" with someone. But yet, those comforting nights where I've turned and needed someone just to hold me-and-say-everything-is-gonna-be-okay, that person wasn't there.

Since then, I found companionship.... mainly because I found my friends and realized they were a lot more willing to BE my friends and help me out in my problems than I thought.

I haven't had many moments like that since. Mainly because if I need someone to comfort me, there's SOMEONE, who even if I can't get ahold of anybody, will warm my heart in some cheesetastic way that only that friend can.

Moral of the story: Trust your friends, they do care for you more than you're willing to take for granted.

zarlon · #23 (**permalink**) Dec 11, 04

aaron i dont live close to you anymore.

ebbomega, myra, i hear you guys. :(

blahh i dont even know what to say. sorry ill post later with a better reply.

IntakE · #24 (**permalink**) Dec 11, 04

Quote:

Originally Posted by zarlon

mm, intake i dont think you understand this situation its not so much the fact that they dont like hanging out with me cause i know they do its just the fact that i am actually feeling this way.

because regardless of the fact that i know the truth it does not change my feelings at all and that is kind of unusual.

I didnt mean that they dont like hanging out with you what I ment is that you should feel they way you do, Ihave been in the same situation with many of my friends and it sucks I was just saying you shouldnt feel that way... you need to try and find ways to make yourself feel better whatever works for you.

zarlon · #25 (**permalink**) Dec 11, 04

frustrating you still dont understand the situation its not anything to do with my friends.