Feeling so much betrail that will never go away

[Erin]

It's like a rock that feels like it will never go away. Days go by and I don't think of it. And then there it is hitting me in the face again. I have so much saddness that is holding me down. I don't know what I want with this. I don't know how I feel. And I don't know how to be happy.

[miSsy_chriSsy]

*hugs* :(

[mugsy]

if it doesnt go away, then its something that needs to be dealt with. the past only bites us when we havent accepted that it belongs there. but if it is something that affects our present and future, sometimes it can be rediculously hard to deal with.
that all doesnt really make sense... really what im trying to say is if feelings arise that were created from the past, then whatever it was that created those feelings has not been dealt with. sometimes its important to put some things in life aside while figuring out other important aspects. as cheesey and time comsuming and emotionally draining as it can be, soul searching is at times a neccessity.

you have my number.

[Erin]

That made perfect sence Megan. And you are right it is hard to deal with because it invives the present and the future. If it was just the past and that was it. I could deal and move on. Which I had done (sorta) but I was close. However here I am with this. And sometimes I think it hurts me more then it makes me happy.

[Alex]

Forget your feelings, they only hold you back. Concentrate on the future and what lies ahead rather than what has burdened you in the past. The less you focus on your emotions, the less you will be affected when things go wrong, and the easier you will find it to get back on track.


My philosophy is that I'd never fuck anyone over, and always make an attempt to help other people, however, if feelings for someone or something are hindering my own personal progress, the ties are broken and forgotten and I move on.

[mugsy]

Originally Posted by Alex

Forget your feelings, they only hold you back. Concentrate on the future and what lies ahead rather than what has burdened you in the past. The less you focus on your emotions, the less you will be affected when things go wrong, and the easier you will find it to get back on track.


My philosophy is that I'd never fuck anyone over, and always make an attempt to help other people, however, if feelings for someone or something are hindering my own personal progress, the ties are broken and forgotten and I move on.

no offense dude, but forgetting your feelings and emotions is highly unhealthy. they SHOULD affect you. not dealing with shit is stupid. it will get you ten times worse in the future.

[Alex]

when I focused on my feelings I was depressed, now I feel only excitement and ambition for future accomplishments. because everything negative I ignore. friends come and go, as does everything else in life. You have to focus on what is positive rather than negative. Everytime I find myself caring for someone too much, friend or otherwise, something happens that screws me over. too many feelings can only hurt you

[cinist]

:(..... it right pisses me off that you're saddened erin

reach-

[Bitchin]

your my room mate, best friend, partner in crime, we save each other from bad sex, etc.

you have my number. I hope you know how to use it.

Don't matter where I am, what time it is... I'm always hear for you.


Whatever is it that is bothering you.. and is preventing you from doin what YOU wanna do. should be dealt with. Nothing should slow you down or prevent you from doing what makes you happy. Best thing you can do babe, is face it and get it over with. the sooner the better. Cause I dont wanna miss seeing that shit disturbing smile on your face. You deserve the best... And you know that.
I know it's been a rough year. Heck it's been a rough year for the both of us... but this is why were friends. were 2 really strong girls and we can pull each other through anything... You helped me through my last fall... and I'm here for you if you need to get back up.

Much love.

PS - I'm home.

[cinist]

blamblackadow

[ty_guy]

this is for every single person who "deserves better". we really do deserve better! for all the stuff that we have been through, life owes us a break so we need something to balanced out all this bad-ness. i know a few others who really need a PAUSE button for life's remote controler, even a few who'd like an EJECT button. i've sort of lost my train of thought right there but i think i may have gotten my point through, somehow

[sidekick]

Originally Posted by Alex

when I focused on my feelings I was depressed, now I feel only excitement and ambition for future accomplishments. because everything negative I ignore. friends come and go, as does everything else in life. You have to focus on what is positive rather than negative. Everytime I find myself caring for someone too much, friend or otherwise, something happens that screws me over. too many feelings can only hurt you

that's a really great philosophy is want to waste your life being a semi-emotional robot.

humans are programmed to be emotional. ignoring parts of your emotions is like ignoring the fact that you have a left hand. you're not using all of yourself.

i understand that you're trying to protect yourself from getting hurt, but know you know what? getting hurt is a part of life that we all have to go through. yeah it sucks sometimes, but it always teaches us something in the end. i'll be damned if that lessen is to douse my emotions and try to ignore things that i feel.

sure focussing on the positive more than the negative is a good thing. however, ignoring the negative completely can be disastrous. and although letting yourself go and loving someone unconditionally is a damn scary thing, you'll never experience the full results of what love and life have to offer if you hold yourself back.

as for erin: meghan seems to be right on this one. the past only bitches at us when it hasn't been put to rest yet. maybe there's something else you have to deal with before you can do that? or maybe, like this alex guy, you have tried to ignore feelings that are shouting to be recognized?

either way, you know i'm here for you buddy.

[miss.myra]

Originally Posted by Alex

when I focused on my feelings I was depressed, now I feel only excitement and ambition for future accomplishments. because everything negative I ignore. friends come and go, as does everything else in life. You have to focus on what is positive rather than negative. Everytime I find myself caring for someone too much, friend or otherwise, something happens that screws me over. too many feelings can only hurt you

That sounds like a lovely ideal, but things don't work that way. We're not sand on the shore that just lets waves roll over us, we are human beings with relationships and connections to people. We are shaped by our experiences and the emotions that they create.

Trust me, some of the worst pain ever is when someone betrays you. Although I'm all for focusing on the big picture and the postives, the lessons learned, but there is no denying that this hurts. It's one thing to have something bad happen from an acquantience, or someone you don't know, but being betrayed is completely different.

[Rhianna]

Originally Posted by Alex

when I focused on my feelings I was depressed, now I feel only excitement and ambition for future accomplishments. because everything negative I ignore. friends come and go, as does everything else in life. You have to focus on what is positive rather than negative. Everytime I find myself caring for someone too much, friend or otherwise, something happens that screws me over. too many feelings can only hurt you

Wow, dear god I hope I'm never like that.

You have to have a bit of both. You can't feel the good w/ out the bad.

[mojo]

the sun is going to rise tomorrow. and hopefully then you wont be sad filtrat.

surrey still like you, dont worry : )

[sungoo]

deep rooted tragedies never fade, they only grow stronger.
if we keep running from our past, our past will be a mirror of our future.

I find if you can understand why whoever caused you all this pain had done what they did, figure out their motives and then be able to forgive them for it. It makes moving forward much easier.

This quote has had the most impact on my life by far.
The greatest tragedy is not the end of a life well lived, but in the lives lost while still living. - Sean Philips

[maztraz]

Damn..I know what you mean ''Erin'' I've went through really hard periods and still do, if you have friends that are willing to help you or parents well use it, cause I went through hard periods at the same time of solitude, and you know I had hard times admiting that ''how is it possible to have so many friends around the world and even your own father not wanting to dip in your stories or helping you in those hard moments'' With just more problemes with a baby and a crazy step father at home....You just want to shoot your self sometimes, but I didn't, and thats how somepeople become great personlities, cause life will learn you that ''Faster you face reality, slower will reality be running over you'' and believe me when you have to much to face its just a big indicape for the future...

:)Anyway I don't know why I am telling you all this, maybe cause life made me stronger facing those kind of feelings and It is always a pleger to give advice to others.....Well I hope the pain that you have at the moment will not be to hard of a obsticle and hopefully it won't lasts for ever....

peace and
GOOD LUCK;)

[Erin]

Thanks.

I'm glad I have the friends that I have (mainly some that are in this post) and I'm glad these friends are my friends. I wouldn't be able to breathe without them.

[Gilkayo]

the only thing i can say is deal with thing when they come. dont wait. dont try to lie to yourself. tell someone how you feel and make sure its the truth. if your hurt show it and dont settle for anything less then you know is the best.
yes, i know this is easier said than done...but its what the best.
follow your heart.

[Erin]

^ :) Thaks.