having no motivation,

[penguinabc123]

lately ive found the lack of effort to want to do anything anymore.
i dont see a point in work, all my money goes to school or insurance to get to work, i barley get to spend a dime, and usuall its just on gas and a coffee.

school seems utterly pointless to me, its getting me no were, what the hell am i going to do with a BA? i dont even have it yet, its just sucking up time and money.
my gf is so insecure that shes the one getting all of the attention all of the time,
my friends arent friends anymore there to busy with *insert excuse here* or gf's/bf's to even make time to see me for an hour.
when i want to relax with a drink or a smoke im told i cant do that, its bad for me, people start to think its a problem because i want to have a drink after work etc etc. why cant i enjoy something?
grrrrr, i need some light to keep me running this tunnel,

anyone else been here before? what helped ya do it?

[Sarah...]

music
music
pot
going out
music
drawing
talking
music

it helps me

i feel bad for you... It sounds like you deffinatly need to find some kind of source to releive your stress. schools hard but keep at that BA it'll feel good in the end....
no pain no gain right???
think about people in africa...... they aint got shit

[penguinabc123]

ya my life revolves around music dont worry lol,
and yes, i could be in africa, true true....

[*Jessica*]

Andrew i feel your pain. living in this shitty town doesnt help either since theres aboslutly nothing to do ever. you know i'm always down for goin for coffee or chillin since my friends are lame too and since i dont have a job i am available alllllll the time haha

[IntakE]

Originally Posted by penguinabc123

lately ive found the lack of effort to want to do anything anymore.
i dont see a point in work, all my money goes to school or insurance to get to work, i barley get to spend a dime, and usuall its just on gas and a coffee.

school seems utterly pointless to me, its getting me no were, what the hell am i going to do with a BA? i dont even have it yet, its just sucking up time and money.
my gf is so insecure that shes the one getting all of the attention all of the time,
my friends arent friends anymore there to busy with *insert excuse here* or gf's/bf's to even make time to see me for an hour.
when i want to relax with a drink or a smoke im told i cant do that, its bad for me, people start to think its a problem because i want to have a drink after work etc etc. why cant i enjoy something?
grrrrr, i need some light to keep me running this tunnel,

anyone else been here before? what helped ya do it?

oh Andrew<3
i think we've all been there
not me quite to that extent but I've been in that same kind of situations.
just try and not think about everyone bitching
ignore them do what YOU want
make yourself happy not everyone else
and eventually all the bad things sem to go away.
and the happines just comes back out of no where.

[penguinabc123]

Originally Posted by *Jessica*

Andrew i feel your pain. living in this shitty town doesnt help either since theres aboslutly nothing to do ever. you know i'm always down for goin for coffee or chillin since my friends are lame too and since i dont have a job i am available alllllll the time haha

ya, then i get yelled at cause we all know that im 'fucking you cause were ravers'
honestly,
but i know your there, thank you, this week is mid terms, no time for andrew lol.

ash, thanks, i know youve been there and i hope one day i can once again just 'do what i feel like'

[*Jessica*]

haha tell steph to lighten up!

[Bitchin]

Jessica, andrew... I'm back in maple ridge now.. REMEMBER!

call me anytime.. I donthave ajob and I'm very lazy... n just drink...heh.

if you guys ever wanna hang out.. gimme a ring.

except.. I lack the motivation usually to get off my but n go place.. cause they're toooooo far. but you guys live in the same town.. so I'm sure it shoulnt be a problem.

ugh.. i neeed a job. I need scrilla.

[penguinabc123]

Originally Posted by *Jessica*

haha tell steph to lighten up!

then she crys,

its a bad circle, ill record it one time you can hear lol,

jovi yes lets do it! a twix and a tv set and some orange juice u me n jessi, it shall be a blast!

[*Jessica*]

for a second i thought you meant a twix chocolate bar and i was gonna complain that i dont like that kind, but i understand that we are not talking about chocolate bars now haha

[penguinabc123]

ya jessi!!

[Bitchin]

Jessi, I thought the same hthing.. n was like.. wtf?! put down the crackpipe.

but yes.. we shall do this soon...
but I actually mean it... I'm not just saying it just cuase.. like most ppl do.

n if yer gf goes in cirlce with things.. smack her n tellher tog et a hold of herself.

[SteveO13]

Originally Posted by penguinabc123

lately ive found the lack of effort to want to do anything anymore.
i dont see a point in work, all my money goes to school or insurance to get to work, i barley get to spend a dime, and usuall its just on gas and a coffee.

school seems utterly pointless to me, its getting me no were, what the hell am i going to do with a BA? i dont even have it yet, its just sucking up time and money.
my gf is so insecure that shes the one getting all of the attention all of the time,
my friends arent friends anymore there to busy with *insert excuse here* or gf's/bf's to even make time to see me for an hour.
when i want to relax with a drink or a smoke im told i cant do that, its bad for me, people start to think its a problem because i want to have a drink after work etc etc. why cant i enjoy something?
grrrrr, i need some light to keep me running this tunnel,

anyone else been here before? what helped ya do it?

fuck man I hear ya lol but me jus say fuck it its ur life do what u want man but still listen and consider what ur true friends hafta say

[~god~]

Originally Posted by penguinabc123

lately ive found the lack of effort to want to do anything anymore.
i dont see a point in work, all my money goes to school or insurance to get to work, i barley get to spend a dime, and usuall its just on gas and a coffee.

school seems utterly pointless to me, its getting me no were, what the hell am i going to do with a BA? i dont even have it yet, its just sucking up time and money.
my gf is so insecure that shes the one getting all of the attention all of the time,
my friends arent friends anymore there to busy with *insert excuse here* or gf's/bf's to even make time to see me for an hour.
when i want to relax with a drink or a smoke im told i cant do that, its bad for me, people start to think its a problem because i want to have a drink after work etc etc. why cant i enjoy something?
grrrrr, i need some light to keep me running this tunnel,

anyone else been here before? what helped ya do it?

bitch, get yourself up and stop acting like a fucking raver!
Do whatever you want. why the fuck should you care what other people think?
Im not gonna tell you to keep steady at your school. if you're having absolutely no motivation there, then you are taking the wrong courses, and are wasting your time/money.
If you think its getting you nowhere, talk to a counsellor, or just quit.
If you feel like drinking, fuck what other people think, and drink your ass off.
man.. 5 minutes of thinking could get yourself some decent decisions. I think people are too occupied with scepticism of what other people think.

fuck other people!

[krisamata]

my motivation is finally coming back, i think it has something to do with me being forced to for instance:



i look like ass, i gained a lot of weight in the past 2 years (due to depo among some other things) and I FUCKING HATE the way i look right now... so i've finally gone back to the gym and started eating better...etc


my car is dying (during the snow i hit a car and a curb and my brakes failed) so i was forced to start saving money to buy myself a fun newer one


ummm k thats it for now hahaha


my motivation is spread between work, saving, and the gym haha

[penguinabc123]

i know i shouldnt worry what others think,
its jsut when the things that people think just keep repearting themselves at me and its all ihear, i start to think there right,
but then i listen to myself and think 'why the hell would i listen to them'
its a rough one, ill get through it, i gotta,
ill make saving for a trip to europe sometime my motovation, sounds good.

[*Jessica*]

haha yah cause steph will just LOOOOOOOOOOVE you leaving her to go to europe

[mugsy]

its mid terms. life is supposed to feel like hell right now. thats what mid terms are for.
and i have been feeling like this in some ways for part of this semester. i'm taking 6 course to grad this semester = $2300 in tuition = money i dont have for the 6 courses = not enough time to make money because im at school all the time = stress = anytime i relax i have this feeling i should be out somewhere making money = not relaxing at all.
but i looooooooooooooooove school, so that makes up for 90%, i have someone supporting me 100% which addes up another 10 %, but life stress takes away about 50%..... but i tend to ignore that in a most wonderfully unhealthy way.

none of that makes sense - basically, this will pass. everyone gets into slumps. you just gotta keep slumpin' through it, and one day you'll wake up and have the motivation you need. no one can give it, its just gotta come.

[*K*i*t*t*e*n*]

I think everyone goes through a point like that at some pooint some people more serious and more often then others... like I felt like this a little while ago with school, Im in grade 12 and it just hit me I have so much to get done still and it worries me that I wont and wont grad and i get myself soo stressed out I cant do anything talk to anyone or go anywhere its bad. Im just scared Ill do that and not kick out of it and fail this last semester...