When things seem too hard

[diva]

sometimes i feel like i've taken two steps forward, only to take a step (or ANOTHER TWO OR THREE) backward

it seems like i'm surrounded by two totally different groups of people: those that have way too much confidence in me, and those that are constantly underestimating me

the first group seems to be shrinking daily
i just want to feel like i matter
like someone out there that i'm not genetically related to gives a fuck and wont let me down no matter what

sometimes life is a struggle for me, but i don't think i'm a total write-off...

i recently posted that i was contemplating moving at the end of my schooling, but i've just realized that i'm not restricted to just moving across the border and into oregon

i can go anywhere in the world that i want to!
i can pack up in the fall and move to frickin' australia if i want to, or england or...
hell, they're in desperate need of nurses in Dubai!

i'm 22, the world is my metaphorical oyster, and i'm still down in the fucking dumps

i don't why i'm posting this stupid thread...
i make fun of people who post threads like these

[*Geminiz*]

If you have the option to move around the world - do your research, pick the place that interests you the most and go! If you want to leave that place and go somewhere else - you can! And you're only 22 - you have an amazing opportunity here.

[miss.myra]

Originally Posted by diva

like someone out there that i'm not genetically related to gives a fuck and wont let me down no matter what

Yeah! I've got ONE person in my life that is like this for me. It's too bad they live 1000km+ away. It seems like a really sick joke :(

[Joanne]

there was once a time in my life where I was passionate about school.. and that certainly went to shit! I come to school like a fucking zombie with little motivation to listen to what is being said.

there was a point in my life where I was aiming for a 4.0. Just last summer, I sat in my basement for weeks physically and emotionally preparing myself in case my instructor gave me an unsatisfactory grade in my acute care clinical rotation.

there was a point in my life where I felt confident and intelligent. now I have many days where I'm feeling incompetent and stupid and I'm constantly wondering if others are thinking the same thing of me.

I'm also looking forward to when I finally graduate. but it seems like it's gonna be forever before that finally happens and I know that before it can, I've still got a lot of bullshit to endure.

*sigh*

Esi, if you ever need to talk, I'm here to listen.

--Joanne :P

[diva]

^ about the school thing, we'll all feel like fucking idiots before we get any confidence in our nursing ability. that's just the ways it goes. trust me, you are smart, and you'll figure things out. don't aim to be the best, aim for YOUR best, and you'll feel a lot better.

this is mostly about state of mind and life stuff that's been getting me down lately, not school.

[TrixX]

it's funny reading posts like this 'cause i think there are a lot of people that feel the way you do.......about not having someone to fall on(besides your family).
yes you are young and you can do anything you want..........but i made the mistake of moving away and being all psyched to find something new and exciting.....to find that the same problems arose where i moved to. i think life just hands you these things sometimes to strengthen yourself.
i know i'm not giving you answers to your problem but reading this makes me feel better about the way my life is, involving friends. it's one thing to go out and have fun and party with people.........it's another to have trustworthy, loving, reliable friends. it will come eventually.

[mojo]

are you confident in yourself?
if so, thems other people shouldnt really matter.

i know they do, because they are important to you, but what is the most important is how you feel about yourself.