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Apr 27, 01
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I just don't care anymore
ehhh..... that seems to be my answer to everything lately. I don't give a damn about anything , my grades , sports , freinds and me. I don't know why , i really can't think of anything to care about , i'm not about to kill my self or anything , but i sooooo want to cry sometimes. When i get to skool i really don't know what is going on in class and i really couldn't care less and when lunch comes around , i kinda just space out when everyone talks.When skool is over , it is time for rugby practice i have to force my self to go.Oh finally when i can go home i take shower , eat and take a nap . I wake up look around see my homework don't even bother to look at it . Sit my ass either in front to the t.v or comp until i'm tried agian and go to bed and the day begins again.
I don't know what is wrong w/ me , grrr this isn't me and i'm so freaking scared that i will become BLAH . ewww i don't want to be one of those ppl who just go by life w/o anyone seeing them because they don't seem to make a difference. But i don't give a flying fuck about any one or any thing , i couldn't care less about my self, i don't know what to do. 
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Apr 27, 01
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hey G its all good we will all miss ya round deese parts ya no remember keep it real......wait im talkin like a gangta ne wayz come back soon or else i have to poke u even harder hehe just kiddin will miss u G lord hahaha kiddin peace *pokes* all round hehe peace out G
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Apr 27, 01
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thats my job to make people smile hehehe
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Apr 27, 01
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No worries hun...you WON'T just become blah. I know it feels like that, but you won't. Trust me. I've been feeling the exact same way as you have described for the past 8 months, but I'm finally starting to have hope. It's weird, cuz it's like...I'm finally seeing glimpses of hope, when I'm at the worst I've ever been at...but I'm finally realising that I gotta start somewhere. Also, I know that I have to change my attitude towards things...life as a whole. SO much of how we feel or what we go through is based upon our attitude towards it all. Hang in there tho. The time will pass hun. Maybe summer will come and help lift you up? If you ever need to talk, ICQ me...my number is in my sig. *hugs*
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Apr 27, 01
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oh gawd glenda I know wutcha feel!!
it's crazy.. like I force myself to do my hw.. .but when it comes to studying fer tests I jus can't do it.. nuthin goes thru my head and I'm tired all the time so I usually juss end up sleeping :( and never study for tests now. like I usually juss leave my test paper blank.. gawd this is so depressing. I juss wish I had a goal or sumthin then it'd be worth givin things a try.. glenda I hope ya find sum sort of *goal* in life too, cuz that fer shur, will motivate u to try hard ;) sounds corny but it's true *luf ya* yokO~
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Apr 28, 01
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oh yoko i know i need some kind of goal , but the thing is i really don't care.So i don't even try to find something that could motivate me, it is really sad. mmm maybe i just need to have some "glenda time"but if i do that , i know i will isolate my self from all my freinds.
Anz_sweet_e oh hun plz don't turn into me . oh gurlie what is happening to us. oh i was supposed to go to tokemon yesterday and that was going to make me all happy and at the last moment my 'rents told me that i couldn't go. grrr i was so sad. hee hee we should have our own little BLAH club. I haven't really told anyone how i have been doing , but i know my freinds can't see it , they kind of hint it to me that they know. LIke saying "oh glenda why are u so quiet " and stuff like that , but i really don't want there help .ahhhh wah wah what is wrong w/ me , i really need to deal w/ this.
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Apr 28, 01
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Hey gelda, ha if u ever get down all u need to think about it one thing:
*** me ROMPING ur mom sooooo hard*** hah remember that pic i drew at lunch! hhah what the stickmen? hah good eh? but don't worry bout it too much, if u wanna cry den do it. i do, no 1 cares, and if dey do what can they say? 'HEY U HAVE EMOTIONS!! AAHHH UR A GEEK!!' like no worries k? see u at school.
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Apr 28, 01
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Yeah, I know what you mean Yoko. Time for me to face up to things and deal with it all. I've been putting it off for a while now, and I guess it's just cause I know that going through all my shiznik is going to be very painful for me. Gotta start somewhere tho...I'm here for you if you need to chat. You know where to find me...Let's combat this NINJA STYLE!! :070:
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Apr 28, 01
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ahhh..glenda~!..*hugz*
i know wut ur feeling..i know wut all of u are feeling...i mean..i really dun care bout much nemore.. skool....blah...i mean..hwk..i either don't do it or do a really half ass job outta it...and think..i'll do better later but then later won't be there soon cuz skool's ending and i'm sorta screwed rite?...but then i think..i have another year but then again...it mite not work either cuz i'd proabbyl think the same thing..next time next time...blah..i have no motivation..i feel like there's nothin i wanna do when i grow up...but i dun wanna be blah either~ friends...i realized how i've shut out a ton of my friends...not just sum skool ones but ones i don't see often..i jsut read like 10 notes one of my best buds wrote to me..and gave to my cuz to give to me..and she's been goin thru shit and i wasn['t tehre to help her thru it...i feel like i failed her as a friend...friends are spose to be there for each other rite?? crying..crying is good..it actually makes u feel better~..seriously..at first ur lik shit i dun wanna cry btu then u do and then afterwards ur like..ahhh..i feel a lil better...cuz yeah..u gotta express urself sum way and if crying is the way to go then do it~! u gotta take ur time to figure stuff out and yeah..if u do...usually u will figure sumthing out that'll make life easier..or help guide u...its just the matter fo where to begin is all...once u find ur starting point..ur path is usually rite ahead...good luck to all of u for searching and fighting things head on...its a battle we'll all win rite..i mean..it our life!!..omg that sounded cheesy..haha...*hugz all around* i dunnno wut i've been jabbering about but yeah..glenda..if u ever feel u need to vent or talk or nething..msg me or call me..that number is a 24/7 line...luv ya...:087:*twinz*:087:
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Apr 29, 01
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Oh my god Jen i feel the same way, when u talk about being a failer to your friends. I was just talking to my best friend and she told me that i never call her or make time ( hee hee it is like we are married). But i know that is true because i don't make time , i just don't really care but now i feel bad.
Oh i'm glad to say that i feel way better today , i hope that this means that this stupid stage that i'm going through it passing. Marty i don't know if that we make me feel better or just screw me up more. =) ~* R-O-M-P *~ nope i will never get tired of that. ANZ_SWEET_E . mmmm ninja style i like the way that sounds
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Apr 29, 01
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GLENDA~!!
hey gurl.........what do u mean u don't need our help? we're always here for you and you know that!! that's why we keep on gettin you to go out and veg and bitch bout ne thing! hee hee
u've told me bout this b4 but i didn't know that it was this bad......=( i'm really startin to worry bout u.........sometimes i feel the way that you do and i try to do things to make me forget bout it. i really don't know what to say but talk to us or me about it. please? the only thing i can really say right now is that i'm here for you and i'll listen.......go out and do things........think bout trevor *pokin* us..........hee hee :031: well take care and u can always call me to just talk alright? well see ya at school and hope ya feel better!!
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Apr 30, 01
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awwww hun, I dunno u, but I know all too well how you feel! This soundz like me a lil too much ~really sad 2 hear, but really try to change your perspective of thingz: think about those who care about you, and maybe make a list of thingz that make you happy or what your good at, find a goal for yourself~ where do u want to go in life... and just think if you continue not caring about nething, where that would lead you.... you would get nowhere, be nobody... I'm sure you wouldn't want that! If you have something to work towards it mite be able to help you out~ make a path to follow... baby steps is all it takes.. sumhow find joy in the thingz u do~ and really cherish life! I know it's tough and it can really get u down @ times... but after a close family friend of ours commited suicide, I've realised how precise and wonderful life really is... yet it's so easy to look @ all the negative aspects and we become so easily depressed... but try hard not to let yourself slip and not care about nething! I don't really know what else to say since I don't know you personally! But I wish u all the best of luk~ hope this is just a phase that will quickly pass!!
*hugz* ~breezy
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Apr 30, 01
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if u ever need something call upon us we will be there for u G its all good no worries were your friends man aint nothing gonna change u need to chat icq me u got ma num remember *I am the voice of reasoning* hahaha what its true
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May 01, 01
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Arg Ainslie u found this , oh no now u know tee hee . I wasn't really hiding it but i didn't really want ppl to know. But as i became more lost it became more obvious to ppl that i was changing. I know that u are alway there but i also know that u can't do anything. I don't know how do describe what i wrong w/ me because i really don't know my self.
Breezy i just really don't care , i don't have a reason too, i have a wicked life and i'm so blessed. I'm so confused at times my famly has noticed it too and now they are starting to ask question. I have keep alot from my family and i know that it is all going to come out. I really feel like i'm alone . See i know that ppl want to help me but they can't because i don't know what is wrong . It is really hard to express what i'm feeling i'm so unsure about myself. I can't believe how many ppl have replied to this but thanks trevor , voice of reasoning? i don't think so:051:
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May 02, 01
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yeah glenda i found it alright.....does it really matter that much that i care about a friend? i care about you! and you know i'll be there....but what can i say.......? you told me your family asks questions and how your sis might actually know what your up to right? maybe you should actually tell your sis about everything that goes on and what you do. she might be able to help you keep this kinda from your parents for awhile till you know whats actually going on with yourself......?
just like you told me, sit in your room and just think, don't think about what ppl tell you, think about what YOU want to do and how YOU feel. or write down anything and everything that comes to your head. it actually helps cuz thats what helped me, so take your own advice gurl and try it. that's all i can say right now.........take care ^_^
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May 02, 01
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AHAHAHAHAHAAH
haha marty, that made me laugh so hard. but yah, glenda...it's probably cuz u don't get anough sleep and you're not into anything anymore cuz your body can't handle it..or maybe something is bothering you and u juss don't know it...if u need to talk, u got my icq. i'll be there for u...
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May 03, 01
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I don't know Jon i think it is way more then loss of sleep , but oh well.
Ainslie i think i will take my own adivce, whoa i never though that in the end i would be taken my own advice.*hugs* thanks I'm starting to feel way better which is good hopefully i'm passed this stage of Blah-ness
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May 03, 01
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hi guys hows it goin u go to centennial too!!
u2 guys SUCKA!!!!!!
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May 03, 01
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Tinker bell.. hehe
you can talk to me!!!!! hehe cause I'm TREVORS GIRLFRIEND.. AND I GIVE WAY BETTER ADVICE THAN HE DOES!!!
ahahahahahaha just kidding....:026: sometimes I do.. sometimes I don't just icq me ne time 48012131 what am I doing?? it's in my signature!
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May 14, 01
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glenda for the millionth time... whatever *poke* dont u go to centennial???
u2 glenda hahaha at least i give advise.... some what..... hahaha *poke* hahaha*poke* u2 glenda go to super sweet man everyones going so y dont u go??? *poke* i no u gots moneys *poke* so go to sweet *poke
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May 15, 01
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Glenda
I think because I think I'm one of the Many Girls that the stench of his car doesn't repel... puhahah
(dragon boi) just kidding baby.....*muah* your car is not stinky! hehe maybe you are... JUST KIDDING AGAIN.. love you babes yeah.. Glenda.. my babes is always concerned about others.. what a sweetie eay?
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May 15, 01
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~hey hey~ tinker.......how r u feeling? u feelin ne better bout life? like do u know what was wrong with you? big depression stage? well i think i know how you feel now cuz the past few weeks i've been feeling the same. don't whats wrong with me either....man this is weird eh?
but if you need someone to talk to you know my number right?! ~hee hee~ luv ya hun!! :023:
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