Confused!

[SomeGuy]

Here's my dilemma, I broke up with my GF a while ago, around 7 months ago. I broke up with her even though I did truly love her with all my heart because I felt like even after being her boyfriend for half a year I'd gained nothing, y'know I was just as close to her as a good guy friend and that really hurt me the hole time I was dating her. I feel like now that I made a mistake braking up with her because she wasn't a bad GF, she never cheated on me or did anything to make me jealous which I really appreciated, but at the same time I feel like she was never there for me, whenever I told her thing's it was just like "oh that's so sweet" which was nice but I dunno, it was so meaningless especially considering I told her my deepest darkest secrets. I've heard from friends and stuff that she's interested in this other guy and when my friend told me the other day he saw her with him I almost started to cry cause I miss her so much. The thing I'm most confused about is, she told me she loved me and I never believed it no matter how badly I wanted to because I'm one of those firm believers in the saying "it's not what you say, it's what you do" since I think anyone can say something but not anyone can actually do what they say and yah back to the point. When I broke up with her I was kinda hoping somehow this would prove to me if she truly loved me or not, since I figured if she really did she'd call me and try to get back in my life, or even just call me to see what the hell was going on, but that never happened. I'm just confused about everything, I used to believe in so many thing's that I just can't anymore. I'm confused most about how you can love someone without trusting them, without being able to show affection for them. My friends just tell me I could do so much better and even her best friend while we were dating told me I should breakup with her cause I could do so much better(which surprised the living hell out of me, those are some pretty strong words coming from what is supposed to be HER best friend.) I truly did believe she was the most beautifulll girl in the world and I told her that, I just don't know if I'll ever experience that again. I just needed to get this all out I've kept it all bottled up for a long, long time. I guess shit changes, shit doesn't work out the way it should and that's just life, I've learnt that many times but for once I wan stuff to work out.