how do you...

[diva]

Come to grips with the fact that one of the only truths you've ever believed may have been a complete and utter lie?

How do you choose to simply walk away from that fact and learn from the experience, instead of exacting vegence?

How do you maintain and outward calm when everything in your being is telling you to unleash your ever increasing fury on the person responsible for your disillusionment?

For the most part, i'm an extremely inscrutable person--except for when i'm angry. I have very little control over my anger. I don't want to feel this much anger about this. When i'm angry, I anything and everything to make sure that the person my anger is directed at will eventually feel the same level of negative emotions that i'm experiencing.

This isn't even about turning the other cheek. This is about permanently turning your back and keeping your hands tied together to keep you from strangling someone.

...trying really fucking hard to regain my composure...

[Mr.Wrong]

non-violence never solved anything.

[TrixX]

holy f'in gawd! i couldn't have put any better words together to describe the same feeling! everyone gives me the "TIME WILL SOLVE IT" factor........grrrrrrr

this just made me soooo fucking pissed

thank you, hahaha

[diva]

I think I've gotten over the extreme anger bit, and thankfully, sadness hasn't managed to replace it yet.

So I guess i'm improving, because once upon a time, the level of anger I was feeling last night would have prompted me to leave my house at four am and engage in some heavy duty confrontation. I just slept it off instead.

I'm going to direct my energy into writing about the trials and tribulations my life has undergone over the past few years. A friend of mine is going to try and help me get a short story published.

Maybe i'll post a link to the short story in a few weeks.

[Ragga_Wh0re]

Community services has really awesome FREE anger management coarses,maybe give them a dingle?

:)

[Bitchin]

I dont know how to get over it.
[but when you find out let me know!]

Not trying to be negative, just when something that you've believe to be true all your life and because of it, its been a big part of you.

then to find out its a lie. I dont know.

I still hold a lot of anger for it.

But I'm just a very angree person....

[thechix0r]

*hugs* I know the feeling that you're describing, though it's not exactly to do with anger... different emotion, same feeling though... I haven't quite figured out what to do with myself

[onefour]

well, about dealing with the problem, do whatever makes you feel the best now; the worst that cuold happen is you regretting what you did! :p

and as for the long run effect on this problem; i hope it doesnt jade your trust in people in the long run that would be a bummer :) haha plur or something; ps. ide be able to give better advice but i dont really know what the issue is so this is all i can really say :p

[Goat]

Come to grips with the fact that one of the only truths you've ever believed may have been a complete and utter lie?

Things are going to be tough for a while coming to terms with that. Anger at the world and ones self, resentment, and self pitty are pretty common symptoms. It can lead to a scar'd look at life and the way you interact with people. Then, after much concious and subconcious thought, life is going to be good and you will be a stronger person because of it.
That may seem a little corny, but it's true, you will make it.
:)

Paraphrasing Calvin and Hobbs, "being miserable builds character".

[t-skywalker]

story of my life~ man if i could ever figure it out i would write a book on it..untill then good luck everyone with this issue and if anyone finds out let me know**:(