agrotweety's bitch-o-rama

[Erica]

agrotweety in da house!! *lol @ Dave*

Okay. Time for me to bitch. I need to release some stress, so this thread is for all you who need to do that too, about the things that are going on in your life that piss you RIGHT THE FUCK OFF.

Right now, I want to rip the toenails off of all the shifty people I've been having to deal with lately. Shifty people as in friends, acquintances, people who CLAIM they know me because they think they can benefit off of me...just everyone that seems to be out there to screw me over. RARR YOU is all I have to say.

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Then there's my parents. I know that I'm going to look back on this in the future and be thankful for their tough love, but right now, I don't know what the hell to do. They cut me off completely. I'm just lucky they didn't kick me out. I have zero dollars right now, and so many people owe me money cause I lent it to them to help them out when I actually had bling bling in my account. Why the fuck couldn't they have done this 2 months ago when I had money?!?! Why did they wait until I was broke? I walked into my bathroom two mornings ago and everything was gone. From toothpaste to toilet paper. I'm not allowed to eat the food in the kitchen, even if I pay for it. I have to go to the store and buy my own food with my zero dollars. And they are serious too. I'm lucky that my dad can't cut off the net and tell me to pay for that too, cause he needs it for work. They said that they're not going to support me for the next 6 months, and it has to be 6 months of NO PARTYING, quitting smoking, good grades, blah blah blah and all that good girl stuff.

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh h.

So many of my friends have been pissing me off lately, it's crazy. Everyone seems to unreliable. I feel like I can't trust anyone anymore. Whenever somebody gets close to me, I push them out of my life. I don't want anybody to get close to me anymore, cause I'm afraid of being hurt again...but it just hurts me even more to be this way, cause I'm not like this. I'm usually a very loving person.

I ran out of smokes and I'm bitchy right now.

I don't have a car and even if I did, I wouldn't be able to pay a dime for gas.

School is starting soon and I FUCKING hate school.

The guy I like got with another girl.

Bitch, bitch, bitch...Whine, whine, whine...

Whatever. GO AHEAD AND FLAME THE HELL OUTTA ME FOR BEING AGRO AND FOR WHINING MY ASS OFF.

I could really care less cause I DON'T GIVE A SHIT.

Whatever. Fuck everything.

heh...love you all too.

Erica :AZN:

[Aki]

FUck woman, thats sooo not cool! Do you think maybe after your parents cool down in a couple days or a couple weeks, they'll actually let you eat??
about the friends issue...fuck i'm sorta dealing with that right now! I have no money right now....but if i added up all the money people owe me it's like 100$...it's really pissing me off because i remind them all the time and they just don't say anything! It fucken pisses me off! And now that i know they have money, they still don't pay you..it fucken pisses me off! :016: :016:

And on the subject of friends...i can't even handle being around mine right now! Every FUCKING day, they think it's soo "hardcore" to drink in edgemont village at night and smoke weed at the park...EVERY NIGHT it's the same fucken thing...so hurting.... what the fuck is wrong with them, they have no life! Me and my closest friends were talking about after highschool that we're going to be the first ones out of our houses and live on our own....we're the only ones with jobs, and not wasting every fucken penny on drugs every night.. I even have friends who can't go by past 12:00 every day with out being high, or they say that they can't function or think!! ORRR how about this one (my favorite!!) ---> "I think jib would be a good drug to start getting addicted to..i mean, i could lose so much weight, and i the high is fun too!!" I was like WOW am i ACTUALLY hearing this come out of your mouth right now... you're sucha fucken loser

fuck i jsut want to get away from all these people!! ahhhhh!:021: It makes me fucken sick that they are already wasting they're life away. Plus the fact my friends have friends that have gone through hell getting clean from jib....what ever nothing goes through their minds anymore. i can't even handle them uuuggh if you have gotten this far i'm quite surprised! :029:

[Erica]

Hey sweetie! Thanks for actually reading my post. *hehe* I was in a pretty bitchy mood last night, but my friend was nice enough to bring me food, MC Hammered took me out for BBT, and I found 6 bucks in the couch for smokes. I swear, nicotine deprivation makes me reaaaaalll bitchy.

Naw, my parents are quite serious this time. 6 months, from the time that I stop partying completely, which I can't say is going to happen anytime soon. So I gotta pull my socks up and start working, getting my shizz together, etc., and support myself. I'll definitely have to cut down on partying a lot, but I still need the stress relief factor that the parties bring about for me. Partying is definitely not on my priority list right now.

Yeah, I hate how people don't pay you back when you lend them money. In all, everyone owes me $300 bucks right now. *bleh*

Awwww hun, sorry to hear about your friends. For one, I'm proud of you for keeping your head on straight while being around all of them. I have a few friends too that are sooo lost in "that world", and it's a really tough life to live. In the end though, it's their decision, and they have to learn for themselves. In the meantime, don't ditch them...stay by their sides, give them a piece of your mind, but also have another group of friends that you can just relax with...? One that is more straight so you can spend time with them without having to deal with/hear all that crap. I hear ya, cause that's exactly what I need right now too...

*big squishy hugs* Give me a shout on ICQ and we'll chat there, kay sweetie?

Erica :AZN:

[yoko*]

i'm totally sundazed right now. I have no complaints currently and I'm glad... i should be satisfied with what I have right now and I am.. and I'm glad to be out of BC right now.. it's done a lot for me. I guess it's kind of boring out here but there's just less to think of and for once my mind is at "peace"...

I feel so dazed... but I guess this benefits me in every which was because here I'll be stayin away frum any drugs, here I'll be able to stay away frum everything.. family.... everything... And I'm getting paid to do this too.

The only things I have to complain about right now are the minor things like how the shower sucks n wut not... but the rest is great.. i'm sorrie to post a post like this... it's kinda selfish and mean...

but i just haven't felt this way... in a while. ; )
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I read both of ur posts.. and all I can say or do is to tell ya that I'm real sorrie to hear bout all this.. dang it sucks when the best things you can say are juss the most shallow sounding
*hugs 2 ya both*

[Aki]

i was out of fucken BC, or even out of my school, i cna't handle seeing the same fucken people anymore!! I wish iwas going away this summer, anywhere FUCK~! AWAY from my parents for once..thye are always on my back for everything...now that i got my report card today they are going to shit a brick!
well i totally feel for you erica...we shall talk soon!
laterzzz

[Jabaronie]

I'll bring you sushi from my restaurant....we always have shitloads of leftovers

[Erica]

yoko** i am SO glad that the experience away from home has been a positive one for you so far. *big hugs* when are you coming home again? hopefully when you come home, your mindset and everything will have altered a bit, and that'll help being in van a bit easier. i really really wish i had that chance right now. i think that would help me out so much. school starts for me in less than a week, so maybe that will help me too. at least i'll be doing something productive, for my own good, it'll keep me on the right track (make me cut down on partying and drugs), and i'll meet new people. why can't i just be in australia right now? *drools @ aussie men* (the non-hairy ones)

aki** awww sweetie. i really wish you were going to be at nasty, so i could finally meet you. but you know, we should hook up sometime. msg me when you're online!!!

jabaronie** seriously? hehe...which sushi restaurant do you work at? that would be suh-weet...i swear, i'm getting so ghetto with the food lately. i'm lucky that i have friends that are willing to buy me a meal, but soon i'll have to take care of all my own meals cause i hate moochin' off them.

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Right now, things have calmed down a bit. Nothing really has changed, but I'm just doing a lot of constructive thinking, try to go out once in a while, keep my head on straight and sane...Nasty will be a good release for me.

Erica :AZN:

[mojojojo]

Azn_Sweet_E> Im jabaronie... but found a way to log into my account again... whee.
I work at Tsunami sushi ... so it's pretty good ... I wouldn't pay to eat there cuz it's so damm expensive but the leftovers are saweet.
It won't really be considered mooching since it's free anywayz.... :P~

Personally Im gettin really sushied out... ugh.

[Erica]

Mojo**Do you work at the Tsunami downtown? *has no clue if there's more than one* Anyways, hook it up!! :) ME hungry...feeeeeeeed me.

Erica :AZN:

[mojojojo]

Yeap Tsunami downtown... *bleah* hate that place.

I just brought back 2 boxes of Sushi tonight... heh heh....

I dunno I'll set aside some for you next time b4 my bro eats em all up

[Glendita*]

Oh Azn_Sweet_E , i would go crazy if my 'rents cut me out like that .... i can't even buy my own underwear , i don't know how or where i would get the money to buy my own food and every thing else i need. I really hope that u are ok and everything .... are ur 'rents making u pay rent as well?

Yeah change is really good , alot of ppl are scared of change but i don't understand why they would be ...... everyone needs it , everyone gets sick of seeing the same ppl day in and out and being in the same atmosphere every freaking day can really get to u . Sometimes when u are away from eveything u realize what u have or what u are missing. Erica i would advice u to take sometime for ur self and write some poems , go for a walk and sit by ur self in some really beautiful place and just think or just sit in ur room and do something that u really enjoy.

Life for me has been up and down for a long time ..... but i'm starting to like where i am rite now. I'm still not to sure who i am ..... ehhh i wear to many masks , sometimes i feel like i want to tell my mom everything that has been going on in my life but i always stop myself because i know that she would never approve. oh what can u do ... life goes on and u have to learn to go w/ the flow ..... well Erica i hope that stuff will get better.