Things that don't turn out how you thought they would

[Sammy Skillz]

i know there's that saying "don't count your chickens before they hatch" or whatever...but still...

it was my first year of taking art this year...let alone an AP course. i got my marks back yesterday...and i thought i'd do really well (AP marks are based on a scale of 5...5 being the best, 1 being the worst). Perhaps it was wishful thinking...ignorance perhaps...or the fact that I didn't really know what to expect due to the fact that i was fairly new to the whole thing...

2 weeks ago i got my actual portfolio back and i also got a letter saying that my portfolio had been picked to be on their website. i was stoked to say the least. my photography and art...

so i dunno...stupid little me, had this little feeling inside that i just MIGHT HAVE gotten a 5. well i opened up the little letter i got yesterday and i didn't get a five. i got a 4. i got university credits and stuff but still. i was so depressed yesterday. it lacked. i always seem to do that...build up my confidence and then have it crash down after being slapped with reality.

There's not many things i like about myself...but my photography is one of them. I dunno...it just sucks how something that i feel really good about doesn't meet other people's standards. and no i'm not "begging for sympathy"...i'm just venting.

[Sassy Pants]

4 is REALLY good! Don't be upset. 4 out of 5 is not the end of the world. Sorry. I guess it was really important to you though. Your good at art and I'm sure you'll get better and better. Don't worry.

[Crunch]

I say Congrats


But i took a Physics AP course and im taking the next one up next year but man is it damn hard

I was just hoping to pass but On my Final Exam i got a 78% and i ended up with 75% at the end of the year

so im happy with it so if i were you id be happy with a 4/5 and that maby this Specific person doesn't know jack about good fotography

I say Break the mold and do your best

[~lazee_grrl~]

i hate that..i fucking studied my ass off yesterday for a math test today..i studied..napped..then studied more til like 5am then i slept til skool..BLAH>.i fucking fail that test so badly...she had to come around to me and once again remind me that i can still transfer into the intro class..fuck her..she was a elementary skool teacher just this year..wtf she doin teaching math12...GRRR...~

[c.tard]

ah.. my dear Twig.. i know how ya feel. about building it up.. and you find osmehting out, and you're roud ofwhat you've done and you think yo might get this and this mark.. and then when you get it back it's lower then you expected and it's jsut wtf?? ya.. it happens 2 meeh all the time...

maybe ij sut buld myself up 2 much..but with things like.. even an essay..i mean.. i'll work on it.. and i'll read it over.. and i'll think i did a good job (i don't write much.. just..not my thing..words..don't work good with meeh) and i'm not expecting perfect but i hate it.. teachers and what not always pick out all the lil tinyt higns and just bring em up! totally bums meeh out..but i guess it's their job ro summin??

i dunno..but still 4 outta 5 is good! be proud..altho you may be a lil like.. blah about the mark now.. cuz it's not what you expected.. be proud! you did *very* well.. in AP class to and it's your first year? wow.. just be happy! and it's art.. not everyone likes everything so altho whoever it was that marked it might not think it was the best thing out there.. doesn't mean other ppl won't..

and hey.. if you liek it it's all that really matters!