feeling blue...

[baby-phat]

I dunno why, but this feeling has been coming and going rather often lately. For a few reasons..
I just get so lonely sometimes. I don't really have any good close friends. I have aquaintances and a few friends, but noone that I am extremely close with (like a best friend and at my age everyone's already got their 'best friend'). :(
I really hate living here in Vic, it's so boring and it bums me out. I really can't wait to move to Van. I wouldn't doubt it if part of the reason I get so blue has something to do with me feeling like I am suffocating here and that I am stuck here on this rock.
Also, I seem to have bad luck with guys and dating. I've dated some real class acts. *rolls eyes* And trying to find a guy who is actually interested in dating and meets my standards is so damn hard. I don't go out very much in Vic, since I don't have many girlfriends my age to go out with.
My job is not where I want to be and I am not happy with it at all. But since I need to save up money to leave this hole I don't have much choice. I work at a great place with great people, but housekeeping is just not for me. I don't know what the hell possessed me to even apply for it.
Sometimes I think I think too much. Damnit, why must I reflect on things and be blue. *sigh*
Anyways, that is my 'rant'.. and now I think I really need some snuggles!

[Bitchin]

chin up angel.

:)

[baby-phat]

*sigh* I know.. but this shit sucks. :(

[L0ungeLizarD]

Well if it helps i get very bad luck all the time............well i dont believe in luck but shit happens 2 me for some reason

[ty_guy]

i thought today had a little less energy then the others, some days you can just tell that stuff is going to happen. hun i hope you can sleep off this feeling for now and focus on your big day comin up. i won't be able to make it to your b-day party so i'll have to give you your present at a later time:)

[baby-phat]

Aw thank you Ty. That was very sweet. <3 Brought tears to my eyes.
I hope I can sleep it off.. I have a feeling I will, but I know it's gonna come creeping back up on me. *sigh*

[ty_guy]

well when that time comes back just give me a shout and i'll make it shoo away. but just incase i'm not available when you need me you can always rely on my trusty sidekick .... ice cream:D

[baby-phat]

mmm ice cream.. I have strawberry swirl frozen yogurt in my fridge.

[mapleleaf4ever]

Shit Dear... your Rant sounds a lot like the way I'd rant about my Life at the moment so I totally see where you're coming from on this one. *hugs* Like J'nette said... Chin up. Things can't stay shitty forever.

[baby-phat]

Sometimes I swear me feeling this way is entirely due to living where I do.
*hugz* Yeah, I know things will get better but right now it feels like it won't. Know what I mean?

[mapleleaf4ever]

Bah, you can't blame The Rock for everything. Sure, it is a partial source of your misery but hey, that will be changing. Be patient and good things come to those who wait. :)

[baby-phat]

Oh, and as if things couldn't get any better!!!
My stupid !@#$$% piece of $*%& job is trying to tell me I have to work all weekend now! Way yo tell me 3 days in advance a$$holes! :finger: GRR!! (But I am going to tell them flat out I am, not coming in and let them take it from there, fire me if you want cuz I am already looking for a new job.)
Like WTF, I don't get it you tell me that I'm gonna get my birthday weekend off and then neglect to tell me until today that I can't! And if I hadn't called today I wouldn't have had a clue till tomorrow (if I even got to see the schedule that is). I even told my manager at my interview that I'd be wanting a few days off around my birthday, she said that it was no problem and I filled out the proper paperwork a few weeks ago to ensure that I'd get it off. They've heard me talking about this weekend ever since I was hired. I understand that shit happens, but giving me 2-3 days warning is absolute bullshit! *grumble*
Since I am not happy with my job in the first place this only makes me want to quit even more. But while talking with some aquaintances I made a decision- to just make sure that my work knows I will not be coming in this weekend anyways (and to not quit), and to let them take it from there.
Blah.. yet another rant. :(

[rawb]

STOP DATING HURT DUDES

[baby-phat]

Thanx for the advice! lol
(PS- I have)

[decypher]

I know exactly what you mean. My close buddy got stolen by a crazy obsessive bitch, so i don't have any really good buddies with similiar interests.

Everyone goes through this part of their life every once in awhile. Best thing to do is just stay positive and do something different that you don't normally do. It could have good results for you. Just try and be content and strong. Your a great and very outgoing girl, so i'm sure you'll have no trouble putting yourself in a better position with a little work :)

[baby-phat]

^^ Aw, thanx Kam. <3
Yeah, my only issue with getting another job here is not alot of places wanna hire someone for a month and a half. Maybe I can get a telemarketing job or some shit. *shrug*

[BongMan]

You need 10 ccs of vacation stat

[baby-phat]

Originally Posted by Bongman

You need 10 ccs of vacation stat

Inject her quick or we're gonna loose her man! *er sounds in the background*

[BongMan]

keep ya chin up baby I know there is a Tupac song somewheres in there

[baby-phat]

^^ Oh fuck, please no! NO TUPAC! thanx. lol

[justShell]

Originally Posted by baby-phat

^^ Aw, thanx Kam. <3
Yeah, my only issue with getting another job here is not alot of places wanna hire someone for a month and a half. Maybe I can get a telemarketing job or some shit. *shrug*

trust me.. if u already feeling shitty about almost everything.. telemarketing wont help. i did it for a month. it makes you feekl really bad about yourself and you'll fucking hate it and everyone you have to talk to for hours on the phone. shit will get better though *hugz

[baby-phat]

I've done telemarketing before so I know what it's like, but thanx for the heads up. :) It's only for a month and a half anyways. I applied at a bunch of places today, one being an inbound call center..

[BongMan]

I suggest Prozak hey it works for gloomy gusses the world around

[baby-phat]

haha
What about wellbutrin and celexa? lol

[BongMan]

what are you a fucking drug addict?




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