Manipulator

[junglequeen]

Here we go again...

Waiting for you to forgive me
for something you've done.
Pushing for you to forgive and forget
or at least pretend so we can go on.
Happy in my stagnant pond.

While im spouting off what you want to hear
your arms are crossed, unwilling to admit a sliver of guilt
the onus lies on my shoulders again.

I live in your forgivness
but there is something
about this deju vu
making my apology surreal.
Puppet on a string
still begging at your feet.
Defiance boils within me
and I look away
as if reciting lines
words flow easily
but tonight without emotion

My fairy tale imagry falls lightly around me
as I realize all of my patched bridges
wield charcoal beams
and my rose coloured glasses are past the point of repair
I hear myself telling you that Im wrong
again,
but something in my tone
makes you turn
and slam the door

For the first time since I met you
I dont chase
to yell "Im sorry" to your speeding car,
or grab your sleeve to make you stay
and although I want forgiveness
Im begin to see,
even through the waves of my own insecurity
that alone
may be better

[LeeBrat]

wow,
thats really beautifully written....i know the feeling...amaizing work

[justa~gurl]

awesome work...


i think we've all been there..

[neoh]

.. :)