The memories

[mushmellow]

After making that thread i started to realize how many little traditions i had with my grandfather....i was soooo close to him....like every saturday morning we would go for a walk around Queen Elizabeth Park and then go to Oakridge and have breakfast....we've done this ever since i can remember...and he used to pick me and my brother up from school on fridays and we would go to mcdonalds and stay at my grandparents all weekend....he used to do this ever since my brother was in kindergarden....and walking around chinatown w/ him talking to all his friends and going for dim sum every sunday morning....all the things he's ever given me....or treated me too....everything i took for granted...and now its so hard to live without him...he was the closest person to me other then my brother through out my whole life....every weekend before we went home he would smuggle up 20 dollars for candy....and he'd always make a point of getting us milk and pop tarts at the store on friday morning....i remember the smallest things now that i think of memories and it makes me cry...and when i cry i dont stop....does anybody have any suggestions on how i can over come this barrier and try to live the way i did before...where i could jus go on w/ my life w/o the tears and depression? any ideas at all?

[sungoo]

"There is a Reaper, whose name is Death,
And with his sickle keen,
He reaps the bearded grain at a breath,
And the flowers that grow between."
- Longfellow, The Reaper and the Flower

I don't think there is anything you can do to live the way you did before. If he was a huge part of your life, I doubt you'll forget him.
You should just acknowledge that he probably didn't want to leave you or your brother, it was just his time. You should be happy with the time you spent with him and remember that he wouldn't want you to be sad. Although when something is so wonderful, it's hard to let go... sorry about your grandfather.

"The little toy dog is covered with dust,
But sturdy and staunch he stands;
And the little toy soldier is red with rust,
And his musket moulds in his hands;
Time was when the little toy dog was new,
And the soldier was passing fair;
And that was the time when our Little Boy Blue
Kissed them and put them there."
- Eugene Field, Little Boy Blue

[mushmellow]

ahhhh thanx sweetie...but i just wish i could stop being so emotional all the time....time will tell i guess

[c.tard]

It'll take a while to sort of "get over" it all. You'll never forget him, and whenever you do these things with someone or something, you'll think of them. But be happy they happened. Be happy that you have the memories to take with you. These little things will always remind you of him, but soon enough the tears will stop. It sometimes just takes a while. I know the biggest thing for me, when my grandpa died, was reese's peanut butter cups. It was about 6 years ago that he died, but everytime I see reese's peanut butter cups, i still think of him. and i miss him.

Things will get better in time. So just try and be happy with the memories, be glad you have those memories, and cherish them. Hope things look up soon =)

[mushmellow]

thanx u guys...u r all so sweet....