Waking up.

[Kandyapple]

Ok i'm sure this has happened to a lot of ppl so hopefully everyone can relate on this topic. I've been feeling realy rough lately and just worn out. I was awair that I havent been sleeping proper hours staying up all night then sleeping all day and i thought i was ok untill the last day or so. I came home today and my mom asked me if i was sick and doing lots of drugs. I've been totaly strait is the strange thing. just not sleeping well and just not living I guess healthy. after she said that I looked in the mirror and saw what she was talking about. I was pail in the face but realy puffed up in the cheeks so I kinda understand why she was concerned. I'm just realy hurt right now because I know what I can do to fix this its just that its hard because it involves changing a lifestyle that I enjoy. I dont go out and party all night and i'm totaly cool with going to bed on time its just that my late night habits isnt all about me. it involves other ppl as well which is in some ways out of my hands. I'm just realy frustrated right now because my mom keeps asking if the ppl i'm hanging out with do a lot of drugs and If its hurting me. I dont realy think it is but I guess in some ways it affects me because i'm obviously getting unhealthy and looking sick. I'm just not sure how to deal with this because I dont want my mom to be sad when i come home anymore. but I dont want to give up being with ppl that make me happy even if the lifestyle that i'm living with them is making me exausted and sick. and sometimes very frustrated because deep down i know i cant do it all the time. blah maybe i'm just rambling. its hard to type your feelings out when your still emotional from a sad talk. just had to get that off my chest I guess.

[Moon]

fuck i totally hear ya.... i'm going through the exact same thing as i've been prolly for the past 2 years... i mean we all have things to do during the day like school, work n all that but then sometimes you just wanna go out and have some fun as well... but fitting in time to go out, work, daily chores, sleep, its hard.

in the end you gotta get your prioroties straight and sometimes you have to sacrifice the fun for sleep cuz its your health that should be high up there on the list.... haha i find it hard to get my prioroties in the right order anyways so hahaha i totally know where you're coming from

[Ragga_Wh0re]

sweets pace urself! sumtimes shit gets really hectic but u just gotta be strong enough to withdraw urself from the chaos for a few days to restore and replenish ur body mind& soul :)

take it easy and be honest with ur moms :toasted:

[Kandyapple]

heh thanks yah I know I gota get the whole night and day thing fixed. I figured I was a-ok because I havent been scedualed at work so i've had my days off to sleep. but I found that even when i get those 8 hours durring the day it still leaves me all fucked up feeling after a while. I hate making my mom worry about me and ask harsh questions about my choice of lifestyle.
"are you into drugs?, are your friends all druged up? are you sleeping etc etc?" Its just somtimes hard to ask for some space when youve gotten used to living a certain way. but yah somthing has to change even if its one step at a time. thanks guys/galls :). *thinks about a quiet night and a good rest* :kimmie:

[bebu*funfun]

wow i feel ya. ive developed this no-sleep-just-work-and-play habit... im fine with like 4 hours of sleep..but the reflection from the mirror really shows its bad. im trying really hard to get as much sleep as i can now.. ihaven't slept in for almost a month now..and this morning i did and it felt really good.

and about your mom worrying.. just be honest with her and get ure priorities straight so she doesn't have to worry about you. i was having a casual convo with my mom the other day and i brought up lots of names... mostly unfamiliar names with her and she stopped everything and asked me..."bev are you fooling around with these boys?" oh man i couldn't stop laughing.. tehehehe. she doesn't really know me too well..nor the ppl i encounter. your mom just loves you and have a tendency to worry about you.. make her think ure anti-drugs..tehehe.

[Tux]

dude, thats like me 24/7.. i almost never sleep, too busy, not enough time for anything.. i maybe only sleep on average 3 hours a day if that... hell, im not gonna get any sleep next week, gotta cram for finals! i prolly should sleep more tho 2, sleep just pisses me off cause it takes up like half of your life.

[LDUB]

Lauren, I know -exactly- what you are going through right now, and I know that it isn't exactly just your not sleeping that is worrying you and wearing you out. The best advice I can give you is the set your priorities so that you are living a lifestyle that you are happy and comfortable in, before you try and show the u ppl that you're hanging out with that their lifestyle is not healthy for them.

Plus for me it doesn't help that I have school during the day during the week, and then I work night shifts on the weekends as well..

[Lenny]

Oh man do know what that feels like! I didn't have anyone to really point it out to me though. I felt fine goin on 3-4 hours of sleep on a regular basis cause my body was conditioned to it, but visibly I looked and was tired and it starts to put a lot of stress on life outside of partying. But once you realize you have to take it down a notch, it's no that hard. Unless you like feeling like shit? Chill out, drink some V8, say no to you're friends once in a while. You'll figure out what you're body can take, that and what everyone else said =)

[Kandyapple]

Bebu: yah i had a good talk with her and filled her the best I could i think her mind is a little more at ease now.
Ldub: I'm sure you understand what i'm getting at more so than a lot of ppl. I'm working on it its just been slow going at the moment, kinda still working with healthy boundries I guess. but hopefully things are slowly on the move. fuck i feel bad for you cuz that would just stress me out. work as late as you do then school. lol i feel like a winer hahaha.

[Kandyapple]

Originally posted by (LJF)
Oh man do know what that feels like! I didn't have anyone to really point it out to me though. I felt fine goin on 3-4 hours of sleep on a regular basis cause my body was conditioned to it, but visibly I looked and was tired and it starts to put a lot of stress on life outside of partying. But once you realize you have to take it down a notch, it's no that hard. Unless you like feeling like shit? Chill out, drink some V8, say no to you're friends once in a while. You'll figure out what you're body can take, that and what everyone else said =)

Yah i guess it just takes 'waking up" as i put it to realize that its probably better to take the time to help yourself. you think that your body can handle it because your still getting through your day but suddenly it just hits you and you see how far youve gone in the wrong direction. you just need to get up and change it.

[PHUNK]

some people never see it.

some you think already have, but then you see that they have not yet.

it's sad when partying becomes your life. thats when you should see that your just another form of a junkie.

[miss.myra]

When I was in highschool I used to sleep all the time during the day..I came home from school, slept..was roused into consciousness for dinner, studying..and slept more..and weekends were more of a disaster...

My skin became more and more pale (for people who know me and know how pale i am, I used to be quite a bit more olive..) and we all knew something was wrong.

I got blood tests and it turned out I wasn't depressed or on drugs, I was anemic!

[Kandyapple]

well I know i'm not anemic at least my mom used to think i was because i'm quite pale even during the summer but I ve already been tested so I know its just a change in my normal sleep scedual.

[ice]

Insomnia? Notice how the more busy you are, the less sleep you need? THis weekend, I chose to forego a few club nights with guest djs and such, in favor to stay at home and just rest.

It's Monday morning and I can honestly say that I'm more tired than I was on Friday. What's up with that? So pooped out and my mood isn't the greatest. Meh!

Last night I spent 5 hours floating in and out of consciousness and not even close to sleeping. I HATE that when I have to work super early. I look like Shit this morning. I'm not pale but I'm just GREY in the face. That's worst. The funny thing is that I can't even sleep even if I wanted to.

[tufflove]

do ya know whats even worse then waking up?
waking up with a huge zit like i did this morning........
and im not going ne where till its gone! :finger:

[Kandyapple]

hahaha yah that suxs majorly too man!