I Feel Today

wundergirl · #1 (**permalink**) Jul 12, 01

I FEEL TODAY THAT I AM TRAPPED. TRAPPED IN A STUPID NEVER ENDING POINTLESS BOND WITH SOMEONE I NEVER SEE AND WONT WORK TOWARDS ANYTHING WITH ME AND IS ALWAYS PULLING ME IN THEIR DIRECTION. THEY CLAIM THAT'S NOT WHAT THEY DO. BUT IT IS. AND I FEEL LIKE A BAD PERSON FOR NOT WANTIING FOR MYSELF WHAT THEY WANT FOR THEM. I FEEL TODAY THAT I AM UNDERAPPRECIATED. AND THAT I MAY PURPOSELY UNDERACHIEVE. MOSTLY DUE TO MY OWN LACK OF CONFIDENCE IN MYSELF AND MY OWN SHEER LAZINESS. BUT SOMEWHAT DUE TO THE AMOUNT OF OPPORTUNITY I'VE BEEN GIVEN. I FEEL THAT I CAN BE A GOOD PERSON AND MAKE A DIFFERENCE IN SOEMONES LIFE IF I HAD THE CHANCE. I FEEL THAT MY POINTLESS BOND IS HINDERING ANY CHANCE I HAVE. I FEEL TODAY THAT MY ROOMMATES ARE BULLYING ME INTO MAKING A DECISION I DO NOT WANT TO MAKE. AND IT'S FOR THE GOOD OF EVERYONE THAT I FEEL RESERVATIONS. NOT JUST MYSELF. I FEEL LIKE THEY ARE OVERLOOKING SOME OBVIOUS THINGS THAT NEED TO BE ADDRESSED. I FEEL TODAY LIKE MOVING HOME, TO SASK. AND BEING WITH MY MOM. I MISS MY DAD AND HE'S SICK. I FEEL TODAY THAT I WANT TO GET BACK IN BED AND NEVER SEE DAYLIGHT AGAIN. NOT FACE ANYTHING. NOT FEEL PAIN OF ENDIND ANYTHING OR STARTING SOMETHING NEW THAT DIDN'T TURN OUT. JUST OT FACING ANY OF IT. I'VE NEVER FELT THIS WAY. HOPELESS? MAYBE. I DUNNO. I DON'T CARE REALLY. I WANT TO GO HOME. BE WITH FRIENDS I KNOW RESPECT ME AND MY WISHES AND BE ABLE TO BE MYSELF. I FEEL LIKE I NEED A VACATION. AND THE ONE I'VE GOT COMING CAN'T COME SOON ENOUGH.

FUCK. Sorry for the rant. Had to let some of that out.
Ignore me. Please do not post any pity responses.
THANKYOU

Sassy Pants · #2 (**permalink**) Jul 12, 01

How could I ignore that. I know things many seem sucky now but in no time I'm hoping you will be feeling like your old self. Life has its ups and downs and you're just experiencing a tough time. I just wish I could make things better for you. I hate to see others sad. Don't worry hun. Hang in there. :Kimmie:

~lazee_grrl~ · #3 (**permalink**) Jul 12, 01

ahhh..carla..i sorta get wut u mean by hopeless...i'm not in a relationship..but hindering in sumthing that is obviously goin nowhere...skool..i'm fucking failing and i actually have been working my ass...seems the harder i try..the faster i fall..fuck..everythign i do is hopeless...i put no effort in it no more..no use..cuz its not gonna work neways...i just wanna stay in bed forever...its like the only place where i can still dream of things goin good...this summer is sucking so far..its not even considered summer to me..*sigh*..wutever~

Ms.Tarantula · #4 (**permalink**) Jul 04, 08

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Originally Posted by wundergirl

I FEEL TODAY THAT I AM TRAPPED. TRAPPED IN A STUPID NEVER ENDING POINTLESS BOND WITH SOMEONE I NEVER SEE AND WONT WORK TOWARDS ANYTHING WITH ME AND IS ALWAYS PULLING ME IN THEIR DIRECTION. THEY CLAIM THAT'S NOT WHAT THEY DO. BUT IT IS. AND I FEEL LIKE A BAD PERSON FOR NOT WANTIING FOR MYSELF WHAT THEY WANT FOR THEM. I FEEL TODAY THAT I AM UNDERAPPRECIATED. AND THAT I MAY PURPOSELY UNDERACHIEVE. MOSTLY DUE TO MY OWN LACK OF CONFIDENCE IN MYSELF AND MY OWN SHEER LAZINESS. BUT SOMEWHAT DUE TO THE AMOUNT OF OPPORTUNITY I'VE BEEN GIVEN. I FEEL THAT I CAN BE A GOOD PERSON AND MAKE A DIFFERENCE IN SOEMONES LIFE IF I HAD THE CHANCE. I FEEL THAT MY POINTLESS BOND IS HINDERING ANY CHANCE I HAVE. I FEEL TODAY THAT MY ROOMMATES ARE BULLYING ME INTO MAKING A DECISION I DO NOT WANT TO MAKE. AND IT'S FOR THE GOOD OF EVERYONE THAT I FEEL RESERVATIONS. NOT JUST MYSELF. I FEEL LIKE THEY ARE OVERLOOKING SOME OBVIOUS THINGS THAT NEED TO BE ADDRESSED. I FEEL TODAY LIKE MOVING HOME, TO SASK. AND BEING WITH MY MOM. I MISS MY DAD AND HE'S SICK. I FEEL TODAY THAT I WANT TO GET BACK IN BED AND NEVER SEE DAYLIGHT AGAIN. NOT FACE ANYTHING. NOT FEEL PAIN OF ENDIND ANYTHING OR STARTING SOMETHING NEW THAT DIDN'T TURN OUT. JUST OT FACING ANY OF IT. I'VE NEVER FELT THIS WAY. HOPELESS? MAYBE. I DUNNO. I DON'T CARE REALLY. I WANT TO GO HOME. BE WITH FRIENDS I KNOW RESPECT ME AND MY WISHES AND BE ABLE TO BE MYSELF. I FEEL LIKE I NEED A VACATION. AND THE ONE I'VE GOT COMING CAN'T COME SOON ENOUGH.

FUCK. Sorry for the rant. Had to let some of that out.
Ignore me. Please do not post any pity responses.
THANKYOU

lol stop doing e, take some 5-htp and get some sleep.
problem solved.

matéo · #5 (**permalink**) Jul 04, 08

I was just going to say this one reminds me off the good old form-kaos days.

ebbomega · #6 (**permalink**) Jul 04, 08

7-year necromancy.

Not bad, Leah. Gotta be a record.

mithridate · #7 (**permalink**) Jul 09, 08

NO pitty for YOU

but massive hug :)

jenai · #8 (**permalink**) Jul 09, 08

25 mg benadryl at bedtime

no more insomnia benders, please, for your sanity.

psychosis sucks.

i hope you visit home during your vacation.

Revolver · #9 (**permalink**) Jul 10, 08

Mmrrrrs Taaaarantula.........come On Fnk And Immma Flaaame Ya!

Ms.Tarantula · #10 (**permalink**) Jul 11, 08

aha.. ahahha memories. aha. oh god. thanks for that j.

Pussy*Kat · #11 (**permalink**) Jul 11, 08

I feel if I have to see one more person write the following:

"lulz"
"luls"
"I/he/she/we did it for the Lulz"

IM A FUCKING KILL SOMEONE!

Youre all beyond retarded

NinjaBoy · #12 (**permalink**) Jul 11, 08

what does lulz stand for?

Ms.Tarantula · #13 (**permalink**) Jul 11, 08

Quote:

Originally Posted by Pussy*Kat

IM A FUCKING KILL SOMEONE!

you know you might break a nail doing that right

Pussy*Kat · #14 (**permalink**) Jul 11, 08

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Originally Posted by NinjaBoy

what does lulz stand for?

My point exactly.

Yes, Leah, Im aware. But if it makes that annoying saying a lesser part of my day, its worth it

Ms.Tarantula · #15 (**permalink**) Jul 11, 08

i like how you were the first person to type lul into this thread.

Ms.Tarantula · #16 (**permalink**) Jul 11, 08

... OMG DID YOU DO IT FOR THE LULS!? GOOD PUN KAT! OMFG1!!1!1

Pussy*Kat · #17 (**permalink**) Jul 11, 08

^ har har.

I actually did it because I saw your reply in the Post a picture thread, some wall's on facebook have it and John says it non stop

Gusto · #18 (**permalink**) Jul 11, 08

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Originally Posted by Pussy*Kat

Youre all beyond retarded

lul why don't you tell us how you really feel.

Ms.Tarantula · #19 (**permalink**) Jul 11, 08

Quote:

Originally Posted by Pussy*Kat

^ har har.

I actually did it because I saw your reply in the Post a picture thread, some wall's on facebook have it and John says it non stop

Ms.Tarantula · #20 (**permalink**) Jul 11, 08

wait, is it the spelling you dont like, or the whole laughing thing in general?

Pussy*Kat · #21 (**permalink**) Jul 11, 08

^ howabout the fact its not funny at all

Pussy*Kat · #22 (**permalink**) Jul 11, 08

its the most retarded saying ever

Ms.Tarantula · #23 (**permalink**) Jul 11, 08

and your opinion is totally the only one that matters!

=)

Pussy*Kat · #24 (**permalink**) Jul 11, 08

Dont you have work you should be doing?

Ms.Tarantula · #25 (**permalink**) Jul 11, 08

since my work HERE is done... yes.. yes i do

ciao ;)