im sick of it.

stabmyhead · #1 (**permalink**) Sep 07, 01

i feel like im trapped in the wrong time, i dont belong here, this isnt supposed to be for me... or am i just so disgusted by everything around me that i dont even want to be a part of it, that i deny being a part of it, that i refuse to accept this.

? looks like its gonna be a long night. or something like that.

yoko* · #2 (**permalink**) Sep 07, 01

hmm.. how so leslie??

btw howz school goin. ttyl~

**kiMMie** · #3 (**permalink**) Sep 08, 01

I know what you mean Leslie...I've been through that myself...many many TOO many times, but honestly, I think that's the most important time to think about yourself, who you are, who you want to be. It's a time to figure out some deep shit inside of you. It's depressing, I know, but take advantage of it. Learn about yourself, and become stronger.

A sense of being lost and confusion can sometimes be frustrating, but it can also help you grow...as a person.

Geez, I sound like a Hallmark card, but I hope that helped :Kimmie:

bob · #4 (**permalink**) Sep 08, 01

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Originally posted by stabmyhead

? looks like its gonna be a long night. or something like that.

so was it a long nite ? *ehehe*

i kinda feel the same... except i'm convinced that i'm not really the age my birth certificate/physical being says... i swear i'm at least 25... cuz i can't fuckin' get along with ppl my own age, or ppl younger than me... everyone is either too stupid, or too ditsy, or whatever... the only ppl i can converse with is ppl that are at least 22... and it's kinda hard for me to meet ppl around that age unless i work with them or something... cuz i look like a freaking 16 year old... and no 25 year old wants to be seen walking down the street with a 16 year old... u can go to jail for that shit...

no wonder i have no friends...

T U F F Y · #5 (**permalink**) Sep 09, 01

*Ahem* Cleve..no friends at all eh? not me also eh? *grins*

Erica · #6 (**permalink**) Sep 09, 01

I know how you feel Stabs. I've had that feeling for years on end now. But I think I'm finally starting to pull out of it?? *knocks on wood* I've felt so much happier these past few weeks. I'm not quite sure what made the sudden change, but I think just a normal stable mellow life really helped me out. Being surrounded by a few friends that I spent a lot of time with, always being busy and also doing things that are giving me some direction in my life...things like that. You know I'm always here for you sweetie. We gotta go chillax sometime. *hugs* Holla at me anytime.

Luv Erica :AZN:

stabmyhead · #7 (**permalink**) Sep 10, 01

i dont even know how to reply to my own post.

ever feel like you were living life in your own head and that none of this is real and then you realize that this cant be life in your own head cuz you would never make life to suffer. then again, maybe suffering brings us closer. so FUCKIN' SUFFER.

oh one last thing, PLUR. :027: