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[messejesse]

sumtimes I get the intense feeling of sumthing is gonna happen.....like the final chapters of life, kind of way, like the sky is gonna fall, valleys flooding, and what I listen into what ppl say and where I let myself go, but sumthing pulls me back or sumones else puts years back on my life and its all better. maybe travelling did this to me and it took me a while to realize how homesick I was.......I forgot what I wanted in life, cuz I knew where I was going~does that make sense...is this normal?

I think I already know u know?...I just felt like writing

[ppcock]

maybe smokin some dmt will help you figure it out.

[crookedking]

Originally Posted by messejesse

sumtimes I get the intense feeling of sumthing is gonna happen.....like the final chapters of life, kind of way, like the sky is gonna fall, valleys flooding, and what I listen into what ppl say and where I let myself go, but sumthing pulls me back or sumones else puts years back on my life and its all better. maybe travelling did this to me and it took me a while to realize how homesick I was.......I forgot what I wanted in life, cuz I knew where I was going~does that make sense...is this normal?

I think I already know u know?...I just felt like writing

i don't think it was travelling that did it to me.

[messejesse]

I'm not figuring shit out, maybe I'm trying to find an excuse

[mojo]

travelling is a different world

your away from home, you can be whoever you want....it easy to forget whats actually waiting for you when you get back through customs.
did u just get back?
if so, im gonna guess that your just again realizing that priorities suck to the assmar.

in any case, i think its all normal, you just have to let yourself feel at home again,and tae itfrom there.
where'd ya go?

[messejesse]

I got back a month ago frum being in italy for 2 months and paris for a week, and before that was a full year living in toronto. Pretending was an advantage there(travelling), and it was easy for ppl to see me as permanence in "their home"...again home never really hit me until I got back...I guess because it is such a priority in my life, its somthing I gotta take care of, especially if its something that affects me so much. Not only with that, and to get swallowed up in what I was before, I can still go on and grow as an individual and continue with what path is still in front of me. its funny that my dad says I'm pissing in the wind~~cuz i always thought it was fighting against the tide... I can wait to go to london next and then hopefully go to school in TO, but I guess to never neglect the ppl I love.

thanx for shedding light on this I needed it.
peace

[mojo]

no worries

enjoy your life

[frankie_V]

Originally Posted by ppcock

maybe smokin some dmt will help you figure it out.

i heard smoking that shit is NUTS

[messejesse]

ppcock just turned my heart 2 heart problem to drugs franklin.........wutever happened to MY post huh? who do u think u are talking about how nuts dmt is huh? You dont even know ok.

[ppcock]

The bitch is back
"snaps fingers"

dont go there sister

who gives a shit about your problems.. you're the one who will eventually figure it out.

people's advice will only confuse you because you'll never have the same advice offered twice.

and what happens if you go for one persons advice and it makes things worse?

So yeah.. dmt seems pretty nutty eh franklin?

[messejesse]

I just wanted to see what u would write next....u always do. FAG!

[ppcock]

thanks!

btw: only fags write a topic on top of a topic.

[messejesse]

I really dont feel drugs is always a solution to self discovery... I think more so stirring the mind to think when necessary is valid. nobody is telling anyone what to do.

k I'm done writing....cuz then I'm just more predictable for everyone else

thank-u for the arguement