Think big and prove ppl wrong?!

[bebu*funfun]

i'm so disappointed, mad, sad, confused....u get it.
you know how ppl tell you to think big and act big and if ppl don't believe in you..prove them wrong? well.. i tried and i led to a HUGE disappointment. now i feel like crap and i feel like a disappointment as well.

quick reason: coach told me to join club vball..because its the most "friendly" vball to get skills and lotsa playing time to get better.. there i go "proving ppl wrong" and go tryout for top 2 teams...the only 2 teams i wanna play for and i find out they dont' teach me shitz and they just look at the player i am right now.. and i was feeling sick to my tummy and playing extremly crappy. dude doesnt' even care about me and gave me a talk in how he doesn't want me to waste my money to sit on the bench.. i got a good look at the players that made it to the first tourny tryout..there were at least 3 girls i can kick their ass. their libero (back row specialist) is horrible..and i play libero. grrr that damn girl is favored cuz the coach coaches her at school. yea neways.. he (coach) gave me a really nasty talk about my chances on the team.. told me to skip the tourny but go to second tryouts next week...wtf? yea i'm so mad right now and i feel like a big ass disappointment....first time in my life kinda getting cut from a team. came to this try out expecting to get better to luv the game more... now i just hate it more. i don't wanna play on the damn 3rd team cuz they are sooo horrible.. i know i'm better than who they think i am! GRRR! :snyx:

[bebu*funfun]

i'm so sorry this shouldve been at gripe-a-thon.. but still kinda about life too. goals being shattered and getting hurt by them...fair enough!

[dj4mula]

Its okay bev.

[inkster]

Stop fucking whining.

Swallow your pride and play on the third team. If you're any good you'll get noticed.

Otherwise, you're talking out of your ass.

][nkster

[ty:rone]

i think inkster is the coache's son and he doesn't wanna hear ur shit bev... NONE OF UR SHIT KUZ IF ANYMORE HE'LL GIB U BAD KARMA... OOOOOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHH!!!!


...i talk outta my ass.... that's why people are scared of me :355:

[bebu*funfun]

for the ppl that give a crap.... i surprisingly made the second team. a few of the other setters got cut to the 3rd team.. the coach said even though i have to work on tons of stuff...i have potential.. uhh.. sure i do. the funny thing is that the next tournament comin up is in nanaimo and i can't go...cuz of wett...LOL.. i'm not missing wett.. no way.

[stabmyhead]

if you're letting some rave come inbetween you and the game its obvious you arent devoted to the game enough or as much as you made it sound like you do..

life is a big long road only leading to disappointment.. better get used to it dear.

[AzN_CuTiE]

is obviously important...but wett.....errrrrrrrrrrrr i dunno, tough situation!
that line up doesn't come to vancouver everyday....

[bebu*funfun]

well it IS CLUB volleyball so it's pretty much what i want to do and how much better I wanna get better... but what i know right now.. if i did go to the tourny i won't be making a big diff neways. and i've been lookin forward to wett since the day i found out.. i think wett has already won my vote..
hmmm...what to tell my coach... i'm goin to a wetting? hehehhee

life IS full of disappointments... it's jam packed with them