going back to my roots.....

[Moon]

i'm talking about bananas, eggs, wiggers and all that.


whoever reads this dont be offended.... i have no problem whatsoever with white, asian, black, brown whatever... i'm just saying something thats been bugging me for a while

i've been doing alot of thinking lately since i'm taking a year off at school. just meeting alot of new people and simply observing other people when i'm waiting for the bus for example.... like i'll see an asian guy, with a strong canadian accent, dressing like a canadian, hanging around with white people and just simply acting like a white person... its feels so out of place... like that asian guy just doesnt belong with that group..... hes the sorta bitch of the group cuz hes the minority..... i'll see a white guy hanging out with a chinese thug group.. dressing in his versace all black driving souped up imports and hanging out with all asian people... that guy too looks like the bitch of the group.... forcing himself to be someone else to belong to another group.... and when u see a wigger yur just like oh my lord what a fuckin dork. but it rescently occured to me, after leaving high school and working and meeting people at ubc, i found that as an asian with a canadian accent, and in canadian fashioned clothes, i feel out of place with the new firends i've met... which have been alot of white people. theyre great people and they've never left me out of conversations or group activites and stuff but i just felt out of place.... cuz i'd look at a reflection of us hanging out and i'd see a bunch of white people who grew up in their own separate culture, and me the korean guy trying to fit in with the white crew..... i'm not hanging out with korean people, i dont dress like a korean, i dont speak korean fluently.. its a shitty feeling. and u cant deny that seeing a banana, a wigger, or an egg is a funny thing.

it just feels out of place..... =(

[~lazee_grrl~]

Originally posted by k-pryde
it just feels out of place..... =(

it may feel outta place..but if u went and tried to hang with a buncha koreans and stuff..then u'd just be trying to fit in with them..still probably being the oddball since u can't speak it fluently or wut not..either way..u grew up to be the person u are..maybe u don't really belong anywhere..buts its the place u feel most comfy in that makes u wanna stay there..don't totally drop ur roots..cuz yeah..i dunno..if u do..then u mite feel really shitty..and if ur looking to find ur roots..or try to be more korean..then go for it..just don't lose urself..i think that nationality only goes so far in a multicultural place..its the person u are that puts u with the people ur with..~

[Moon]

Originally posted by ~lazee_grrl~
it may feel outta place..but if u went and tried to hang with a buncha koreans and stuff..then u'd just be trying to fit in with them..still probably being the oddball since u can't speak it fluently or wut not..either way..u grew up to be the person u are..maybe u don't really belong anywhere..buts its the place u feel most comfy in that makes u wanna stay there..don't totally drop ur roots..cuz yeah..i dunno..if u do..then u mite feel really shitty..and if ur looking to find ur roots..or try to be more korean..then go for it..just don't lose urself..i think that nationality only goes so far in a multicultural place..its the person u are that puts u with the people ur with..~

its a shitty feeling doode.... like earllier in high school i felt like i belonged.... but now u know its strange... i get along really well with white people... but ive become very self concious about them seeing me as the intruder to their group

i know i shouldnt be thinking like that cuz i know its not the case but just these thoughts in my head when i'm observing other people like me.... it makes me shake!

[~lazee_grrl~]

Originally posted by k-pryde
its a shitty feeling doode.... like earllier in high school i felt like i belonged.... but now u know its strange... i get along really well with white people... but ive become very self concious about them seeing me as the intruder to their group

i know i shouldnt be thinking like that cuz i know its not the case but just these thoughts in my head when i'm observing other people like me.... it makes me shake!

i dunno...i never really felt like i belonged or didn't belong in any of the groups i'm in..i guess it never really crossed my mind...altho sumtimes it does cross my mind how odd it does seem when u see a group with one person that sticks out..
maybe ur insecure with ur roots..?..maybe u don't wanna lose them..and that's wuts making u notice things now..and yeah..if u were an intruder to a group..i'm sure they'd let u know...no worries buddy..thoughts like this cross everyone's minds at one point or another..~

[Moon]

Originally posted by ~lazee_grrl~
i dunno...i never really felt like i belonged or didn't belong in any of the groups i'm in..i guess it never really crossed my mind...altho sumtimes it does cross my mind how odd it does seem when u see a group with one person that sticks out..
maybe ur insecure with ur roots..?..maybe u don't wanna lose them..and that's wuts making u notice things now..and yeah..if u were an intruder to a group..i'm sure they'd let u know...no worries buddy..thoughts like this cross everyone's minds at one point or another..~

probably cuz i'm outta high skool now and life... oh man life has CHANGED doode

[omega_image]

the classifications u put up there are hillarious.....prob more to me cuz i used to be one, in all of them.........being 1/2 has sorta left me with an identity crisis......am i asian or am i white? for the first part of my life i was completely 100% asian or so i thought......then i went typical preppy white boi......both had me feeling that i was trying to be something that i wasnt.....i'm not saying that any of these friends made me feel like an outsider or anything but its just how i felt......

my advice for you would be......one or all of the following things

have any other kbc friends? i have a few and they're totally fun people

dont just hold urself to being friends with one group of people.....have different groups of friends (not meaning each group is classified by race) like have friends from parties, skool, or just people u've met......and hang with each when u feel like it.....that way u'll have some sort of a variety......altho some groups may feel like ur ditching them....

or let the friends u hang out with now know how u feel.......it may make u feel uncomfortable but once its off ur chest u'll feel better.....and if they're like wtf? then u know that these arent the right type of people for u

hope some of that helped

[stringbeans]

what exactly does race have to do with friendship? i have friends of all different colors: white, black, yellow, brown, green, whatever. never once have i ever felt uncomfortable around them. how can you call them friends if you dont feel comfortable around them? if you're always too busy seeing the difference between you and your friends then that says a lot more about you than it does about society.

i guess im what you'd call a "banana" by the looks of me... but despite what some may say im just being myself! im sorry, but i wear the clothes i wear because i want to, i act the way i act because i want to, i talk the way i talk because i want to... its how i express myself, so who are you to say what category im SUPPOSED to fit in? im sorry if im not obsessed with souping up my car, or wearing kappa pants with a nike hat, or wearing all black versace clothes like the asian im supposed to be.

i have brown hair
i like jungle
i cant speak chinese, but can understand it
i dont have an accent
i like wearing jeans and a hoodie
im a "banana"

..and i love it

john
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[Joanne]

in highschool, my group consisted of a bunch of girls of different races.. and we all got along great.

I'm in college now and I've probably made 3 asian friends in total. I've never felt out of place or awkward. I don't know if it's just me.. but I seem to have the misconception that nobody really cares about race anymore. cuz I don't... I assume everybody else doesn't either.

I'm chinese filipino... I don't have a single chinese filipino (well, close) friend. why?! simply cuz I haven't found any chinese filipinos who I have a lot in common with. I don't consider myself a white or brown (most of my friends are either white or brown)wannabe or anything. I just happened to get along with a lot of people who are NOT asian... so what?

LOL.. the only time I've probably felt awkward around friends was when a friend of mine took me to aberdeen centre to go shopping with her honger friends... holy shit, was that ever weird. that and the time me and my asian friend went to a brown wedding. imagine a hall with 800 brown people and like.. 3 or 4 asian people. you should've seen the looks on the people's faces when they saw two asian girls doing the "open the door, unscrew the lightbulb dance"... gold I tell you.. GOLD...

anyways.. there's a big difference between how you look and who you are... just because you look a certain way doesn't mean you have to change who you are....

--Joanne :P

[*STARFISH*]

you shouldnt feel uncomfortable..
if anything, youd probably feel more uncomfortable with a group of people you cant relate to..

ive never thought being asian and hangin out with white people made me stick out..

im a 1/2 chin., 1/2 jap skater girl who plays in an alt band composed of white guys, none of my close friends are asian.. heck, most of them are guys too.. and if anything, i feel more comfortable there instead of trying to fit in with "my own kind" (eg, black dressy clothes, travelling in packs..etc)

maybe ur worried about how other people percieve you
as being a wannabe or whatever (but they suck, so dont listen.. :D: )
i know it sounds cheezy, but just be proud of who you are,
and be greatful that youve found a good group of friends. =)

:Star:

[c.tard]

i would stop looking so hard at the fact that your the only asian in that group.. why does it matter? the group you're talking about, they're not friends because they're all white, and then you're the ony asian so you stick out.. no.. they're friends cause they get along, they like to hang out with each other, they have fun, y'know.. the friend stuff..

friendship shouldn't have anything to do with race..
i'm kinda like joanne i guess.. i don't even notice things anymore cause what's the point? i've grown up with so many different people i don't care anymore...
i'd say the majourity of my closest friends are asian, but then they're not the all hardcore asian pryde for life kinda asians.. we're not friends cause what race we are..

it shouldn't matter... if you just learn to look at the person for who they are and not what race they are [i'm not saying you look just on race.. but you do notice it..] and just forget about race, i'm sure you'll feel more comfortable..

i dunno.. the only time i've felt uncomfortable was when this girl who used to be a good friend of mine, always pointed out that i was white.. like it was some big deal.. well.. anywayz.. cut to the chase we're majour enemies now, and shit's changed..
but i'd say that was the only real time..

meh.. just be who you are and who you wanna be, despite you're race..