medical tests.

[mugsy]

so i've already been through plenty of small time medical tests lately - ultra sounds, breath tests, copious amounts of blood work.... and problems still are here.

due to some recent advances in symptoms im going in for a more invasive test. and although i feel some reliefe in hoping answers may be found, i also dont want any found. they're mostly looking for very very bad things. things i really dont want to have. im comforted slightly that the only reason i;ve been rushed into this test is from family history, but not comforted that the family history is cancer.

my dad has been the guy he always is in situations like this - making jokes, reassuring that its nothing and just a precautionary thing. until last night. i was dealing a poker game for him and his buddies and drinks were goin round. he got a little stinko. started talking about this young lady who ended up with cancer after months of searching for the reason of her symptoms, same as me, and he gave me this sad, awful look. all i could do was agressively shuffle the cards.

i know, im totally over reacting to this whole thing. i know. but fuck, how can you not worry?
getting a positive nothings wrong result only means further invasive testing. finding something, although it could be a little something thats ok, it could also be a big something thats not ok.

im terrified, excited, worried and tired all at once. all i can do is hope for the best.

the test is on monday, but i have to begin some preparations tomorow.

[veN]

Good luck honey. There isn't really anything to say but that you feelings are perfectly normal, and I hope that the tests can bring you some piece of mind, soon. Take care and I'm hoping for the best. *hugs*

[Liqwid]

*HuG*

[charly]

i can relate on the feelings.. i felt the same way when i was having all my stomach problems.

good luck my dear.. :)

[BrownThug]

hey same thing imn goin thorough
my uncle and grandfather both had problems with their blood and heart and diabetes and they keep makin me do these tests to see if i have it
blood tests, ECGs where u run on treadmills and they stick plastic things to you and all this other shit
it sucks
i jsut kinda try not to think about it and if i get bad results ill deal with it then

[mugsy]

test results are all clear, everything normal in the colon department. they could hear me screaming (apparently) all the way down the hall. usually it doesnt hurt, but fuck did it ever hurt. the nurse actually asked me to let go of her hand cause i was hurting it.
so now im onto some more testing, tests that dont worry me as much or even at all in comparison to this one.
my mom cried she was so relieved. my dad was in chemo at another hospital and when we called all the nurses were cheerin in the background. its sucha bloody reliefe.

thanks all above who posted.

[All!e]

I'm glad to hear the test went well :)

<3

[LeeBrat]

glad to hear that your last test went well :)
i hope all the rest of your tests also go well, and best of luck.