have to let this out..i feel like im about to burst!

[plur_sweetie]

ok so my "friend" rebecca is 23 years old and a total groupie of baseball players...i went to a base ball game with her and afterwards there was a party at the stadium..supposively she knew the baseball players really well, and good friends with them..yes, there was alchohol...and yes the baseball players gave me the drinks..........it was jack daniels.....and well things got out of control, of course she drank some but not enough to get drunk because i was going home that night..the base ball players thought it might be a good idea to bring me back to their apt. and try and sober me up..(i get realllllly flirty when im drunk)........we got to their apt. and things got completely out of control...i was stripping and everything, some is still a little blurry...but i remember one of the baseball players told rebecca to let him go with me into the bathroom so that we could talk...he said he cared about me, held me for a while..and then started to unbutton my pants and they fell to the ground.......he had me do everything possible.....i tried to get out of the bathroom and the door was locked, i was so drunk i couldnt even unlock the door....he slammed me up against the sink, did things i dont want to mention, and then pushed me up against the wall, i tripped and fell into the bathtub hitting my head and got knocked out...i woke up to rebecca knocking on the door, and he was just sitting there with me...i got up and got dressed...and walked out of the bathroom...i started to remember what had happened, bits and pieces of it, and i was screaming "he made me do things i didnt want to do!" and fucking rebecca said "oh ok well we'll get you some milk to make u feel better" WTF is that supposed to do!?? i mean fucking shit, i was raped, and she wants to get me milk???????????????????? god damnit i fucking want to just bash her head in....she took me home and the whole way back i was crying and i told her what happened, and she said "ok honey i'll make sure that they get what they deserve" she wanted me to tell my mom that the reason we were late was because we had to help a friend with car trouble...i did...and then i called my friend Ian on my cell phone, and i was telling him what had happened and i was crying, and choking on my own tears.....he told me when i got home to tell my parents what happened because i really need to get tested.......so when i got home i told my mom and my dad and my sister..they called 911 and took me straight to the police station..they called up rebecca yelling at her because she let them get me drunk...so we took her there also.....we were all there doing questioning until 5 a.m..and then i had to go to Kaiser Hospital in Fontana...2 hours from here...i got blood tests done...and a papsmere (sp?).....yeah that was the most humiliating thing i had to go through.....anyways...they had me take these pills..and i was throwing up from 1 am till 6 am...i missed my first day of school because i could barely walk...i had bruises on my arms and legs..and my head had a huge lump on it........so the detective still keeps in touch with us...and the other day...they said they talked to rebecca and she told them that she only saw ME coming out of the bathroom, and it wasnt the baseball players giving me drinks, it was their wives! WTF EVER...FUCKIN BITCH there was only one guy there who had a wife and she wasnt even near us! fucking bitch doesnt want to hurt her precious baseball players...she was supposed to be like a fuckin sister to me..ive known her since i was a baby!!! my god how could she lie about this??????? and to make things weorse..its around the whole school already and my friends said that they dont believe me and that i wanted it!! i WAS a virgin, and a fuckin raapest took my virginity..how the fuck could i lie about something like that? i was bleeding and i had major bruising down there...i dont get it...what did i do to her to make her lie about such a thing??? i just want to beat the living shit out of that girl...and i swear if i ever see her...then she better run her ass off because im gonna make her pay for what she did to me..i would just love to be able to force some 409 or something down her lying throat.........ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhh im so poissed and so depressed...im sick of crying though..all i ever do is cry...im always sitting in the bathrooom in the corner just curled up and crying here....i just cant wait until im out of this place..which will be soon..............whew..ok i know this is long and im so so sorry...but i really wanted to get this out of my system.........

[Courtney]

thats horrible..im sorry you had to go through that.
and that girl is truley not a good freind...

[*STARFISH*]

omg...
im sorry to hear that :(
you should probably go for councelling if you havent already
yikes..

take care :)

[Moon]

that is one crazy story which you hear all the time but it happens.

that friend of yours needs to get her fuckin priorities straight, is it her baseball players or her friends?! the fact that she chose the baseball players is just ridiculous... shes gonna live an unpleasant life if she keeps that up.

and as for the guy who raped you, do the police know who he is?

[peeches]

that makes me very angry. Im sorry it happened to you. Always carefull where you drink and whom you drink with. Lots a men take advantage.
If you ever get the chance make sure you get him back. Hell her to what a crappy friend. I'd get rid of her dumb ass.........
Milk? stupid, stupid chick.
All about the revenge.


Pay backs a Bitch.:finger:

[LoveKat]

i would go speak with the police and/or a rape relief worker

rape isn't something that is easy to get through on your own :(

*huggles*
nathaniel kristofer

[plur_sweetie]

thanks for the comments guys...yeah i have talked to the police and they know who the guys are...they all got attourneys from the milwaukee brewers and they said for them not to take a pollygraph test..so they might make me take one...so far all i know is we dont have a case...and it's all because of rebecca.....fucking bitch....my life has been turned upside down in so many ways because of this..i cant sleep, i barely eat, and whenever i think about it i end up throwing up...ive gotten an ulcer also...i cant keep track of how many panic attacks ive had...im not the same around guys...i mean, i kind of flirt, but if they get way to close to me, i back off, or am really mean to them....i dont really believe in counceling..because how can i talk to someone who hasnt been in my situation before? sure they might think they know how to talk to rape victims...but they dont know how they really really feel.....

[peeches]

That fucken Sucks. Get me an address I will go there with a Bat and Rape his ass with it. Trust me i know peeps that would hold him down. LOL that would be funny. His bat up his Ass.
Then make rebecca clean the bat.......with her tongue.

Oh my..........:trippin:

[*STARFISH*]

Originally posted by plur_sweetie:
i dont really believe in counceling..because how can i talk to someone who hasnt been in my situation before? sure they might think they know how to talk to rape victims...but they dont know how they really really feel.....

maybe they havent been in the same situation..
but just talking to someone who doesnt know you and has an unbiased opinion
can do wonders.
and im sure a couple of them have been in that situation before..
and thats why they became councellors.. to help people out like them...
i dont know..
i stongly believe in councelling..
if anything, its just a good place to vent.

[Courtney]

dude truuuust me counselling is the way to go!!!!!!!!!
it honestly helps!!!!!!

[plur_sweetie]

well when im ready ill probably go to counceling..right now im just not ready.....thanx