angry.

[mugsy]

they say "take more responsibilty"
i say "ok, i thought i already did and it was obvious but ill do better at showing it"
i get a bad cold.
certain conditions means i have to act fast, i do.
they say "dont touch anything, but clean the house"
i say "ummm... ok"
they say (about 2 years or more ago) "make your own appointments"
i say "ok"
they go and make appointments today for when i am on holidays and say "well you should have done it yourself"
i say " i cancelled and was going to reschedual when i was better"
they say "oh well"
i say "ok, im gonna cancel this one as i am going to my friends cabin"
they say " when i did i give you permission to go?"
i say "last week"
they say "when you were healthy, now the story changed."
i walk out mumbling my age, and my recent house duties, my not having a day off, my needing a break.

this day has gone down to up to down again all so fast, i havent had a chance to sit and enjoy one sense of being, its like i have had to feel 28 things at once on top of all the regular things i feel each day.
wtf?