get off my back

[mugsy]

1.) dont tell me that i woke up in a foul mood when as soon as i came upstairs you started to hassel me about redundant things for the moment like money, school and so forth.
2.) when i finally do point out my expenses for things such as my medical, dont act like you know because you dont. $500 in two weeks due to health reasons, $200 in rent, about $150 in food that everyone else ate, $140 cell phone bill due to rogers fuck up on billing.. thats $990 add on gas money thats an extra $100 .... so thats my month of december. plus random expenses that pop up. didnt really have room to budget. i am trying to save to move out, but can be a little tough when things like your BODY break down.
3.) already have two jobs, gonna get a third... lay off.
4.) the first week of may is far away. i think i can save some money by then.
5.) yes school costs money.... yes its gonna be more then i can probably make, yes its going to be hard and yes im going to do it.
6.) if i leave the room, dont feel the need to follow me. really, i'm just trying to get some space away - dont breathe down my neck, dont force conversation. we were having a great conversation till you hasseled my ass beyond beliefe.
7.) the naturapath is not a waste of time or money. im feeling better, its gonna take awhile to get better. my whole digestive system was fucked up, it doesnt heal over night. i can eat some solids - thats better then no solids.
8.) i'm tired all the time. this is what happens when you dont eat, yes i know. im weak, going up a flight of stairs makes me tired. so i'm sorry if i cant move the firewood outside.
9.) its the holiday's still. can you not try to start an argument? menopause is a bitch yes, and i dont turn on the heater anymore knowing that you'll tear into me if i do, and instead i have a fire because apparently you can handle those. just stop initiating fights\arguments please.
10.) i dont like arguing with you. i feel awful afterwards. but its a neccessity to stand up for myself. i'm not where you probably wanted me to be at this age, but i am happy with what im doing, and am successful in personal matters. i know somewhere inside your as proud as hell about it, just show it sometimes, please.

so tired, sick and just wanted this whole holiday time to roll thorugh without disagreement. oi vey. daughters and mothers - when will we learn?