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Mar 18, 04
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i always was a big *jib is evil...all drugs are evil* kinda partykid when i first started. then about 4 years ago i started doing e again, and wanted to keep up with everyone else. so i did my first rail at apex....2000? and honestly, i didn't see what the big deal was, i felt exactly the same, only faster hahah. then i found the beauty of *faster* and did it regularly (every other weekend or so) cuz i was in school, and i could sleep thru classes if i wanted, and had a big fat student loan. so i did it probably about once a week or so. then i had exams and shit, so i was too busy to think about drugs. i did it again a couple months later, and was up for 3 days for the first time, and holy fuck, did i look rough. those 3 days of dancing and jibbing and fucking and partying seriously made me look ugly-ass, greasy, big eyed, red lipped, yellow and purple skinned, zitty, clammy. after that i was way too self conscious to ever put myself in the position to look like that again. i did wind up doing it a few times since then, maybe every few months. for me the stuff is fun as fuck, and when i get nostalgic about fun times i've had on it it makes me realllly fuckin antsy to do it again, but it passes. the fact that i get so cravey over the memories kinda scares me, so i just take my mind off of it with something that actually fulfills me for real. i try to never bring it into my everyday life. if i'm at a party or afterhours or something then ya, but really, i think the sad (yet fortunate) fact is...i'm too lazy to get addicted to anything. hahah. i can't be bothered to stay out for days. i have shit i need to get done, i've had enough scarring sketchy sunday dinners with mom, and seeing old highschool friends when i'm all fucked up and made the worst impressions. i have some at home from the last time i went to afterhours, i doubt it's still good, and i don't know when i'll have the time or opportunity to do it again. yet, at the same time, if someone came into my life and said "you're never allowed to do jib again" i'd panic. so i find that really bothersome. i guess i just don't have an addictive personality. but from my point of view i'm addicted, just not on a day to day basis. everything is good in moderation. and i'm fortunate enough to have other sources of fulfillment and gratification in my life that i enjoy more.
kim 
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Mar 25, 04
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addiction is my worst fear
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Mar 26, 04
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I was once into it, I think that lasted about 9 months. There'd be weekends at my friends house where we'd all just sit there and trip on drugs, where jib was usually the drug of choice, and the night would be filled with talking and doing art. It wasn't anything spectacular at the time, but thinking back to it makes me want to do the drug again. Then I remember how unhealthy I was. You know that foggy feeling in your head if you don't get enough sleep, well it was that constant feeling, but without the sleepiness. And on day 5 of no-sleep I would just faint. My girlfriend would faint and have a seizure. And all in the meantime your heart would be pounding so fast it feels like it'll explode through your chest. Breathing became difficult through the heart beating, and the smoking (of jib and cigarettes). After I made the decision to stop doing it, it took me awhile to be able to think again. Well think like I used to, and not feel stupid.... My friend still does the drug, and eventhough some of her non-user friends have abandoned her with pity, I still love hanging out with her, though I get the feeling she doesn't like hanging out with me anymore because my life no longer revolves around drugs and how they make me feel.
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Jun 28, 04
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It's got a way better image than meth mainly because the way it works is alot cleaner. It doesn't actually release any dopamine in your brain, it just stops your brain from breaking it down. You do something cool... everyone's like FUCK YEAH... your brain releases dopamine... and it hangs around until the coke wears off. When it wears off, you can actually sleep too, unlike meth :/
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Jul 03, 04
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I've done it. I enjoyed it. I wouldn't recommend it to anyone though. It's one of those things that you need to decide about for yourself. It's addictive as hell, the comedown can be hell (ie. two or more days of not being able to sleep), and when you start hanging in groups where meth-use is accepted, you also start hanging in groups where meth-use is prominent. So few people have the self-control to get out of the horrible meth spiral that you should be prepared to watch most of the people in that group slowly burn out.
It happened to me. I had a tight group of ravers and non-anti-drug people that I regularly hung out with, a lot of whom I knew from school. We did meth among other things, partied lots, and had a good time. Eventually, though, good times stopped being guaranteed. There were money issues, squabbles, and backstabbing. And this was all because my friends couldn't control what they'd unleashed. I seem to have exceptional self-control with drugs though. I use them for self-discovery as much as anything else, and I've yet to be burned. I loathe dependancy so much that if I start noticing I'm developing a tolerance for caffeine I stop until the tolerance disappears. The closest thing I've ever experienced to the MDMA high I'd read about on Erowid and such was on a 60/40 meth/mdma mix. Your mileage may vary. Meth is a very enjoyable and useful tool, but it is also a very dangerous one. Make up your own mind, and recognize you're the person responsible for where you are five or ten years down the road. Ultimately, methamphetamine will at best make your trip down that road more enjoyable, perhaps marginally more enlightened, and will bring many difficulties with it.
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Jul 06, 04
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i tried jib once, wont try it again... opinion = bad.
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