Being an ex- jib user I found meth to be the most "bi-polar" drug ever, more so than its users. Like Ralph once said, "I feel happy & angry!". First of all my sense were hightened, I felt sharper, wittier...almost invinsible. I really never had that much energy until I did jib. It was unbelievable. I liked feeling that way until I started comming down at like 4:30 in the morning, then all of a sudden I didnt feel so witty & on the edge or invinsible for that fact. I felt vunrouble & weak...and doing a nother rail would be the best thing to highten the mood again. That's when the vicious cycle starts. Being awake for hours or even days & all you have on your mind is what ever is happening at the time & avoid coming down. The drug takes complete control of your life, and the people who tell you otherwise are full of shit. The drug is highly addictive and dont believe people when they say the THEY have control over it, because they dont. It really changes the way people think but not in a good way. Your personality will change over time, your mind becomes stressesd from lack of sleep, you body becomes abused by the agressiveness of the drug. You'll lie to someone for the fisrt time if you never have. You'll start to judge the friends around you, and if they're on it aswell, they'll judge you too. It's not worth it.
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