why do things have 2 be so fustrating?!

[~snow*white~]

alright....a friend told me to post what's on my mind, so that's why i'm here to post what's bugging me......here it is: well the past few weeks i haven't been feeling like myself lately and my real friends have noticed it cuz it's not me. i dunno what's going on...have a hit a depression stage or something? i've had so much stress about my skating (my sport that i do) and my school work. i toss and turn at night when i try to go to sleep, about everything. it keeps me up at night and i can't sleep.
i dunno if i should bring this in it but maybe it is something that's bugging me also. i broke up with my bf of 4 1/2 months, not that long but i actually truly cared for him. but he turned is back against me and i somehow lost my trust in him. i still care for him and everything and still want to be back with him but i'm the one who did the breaking up so it seems that i shouldn't be the one to want him back.....?
i'm so confused and fustrated that i don't really know what to do. i hope this makes sense to some of you. what do you guys think? please help me................:047:

[stabmyhead]

welcome to teenage depression! population: every fuckin' teenager! ;] life sucks. then you die and realize that you have wasted your life in your skin. k. enough pessimistic bitch talk from me today.

stress: school -- provincials. bf -- having to deal with break up syndrome, withdrawl, and what not. skating -- something you love to do but dont want to screw up cuz of this stress.

YOUR "CHANGE": perhaps it is cuz you broke up with someone you really cared about. takes a lot to do, even if there is good reason to. when you do that, you mature a lil cuz you were able to do it even if it was against your own hearts desire. letting go is never easy. getting back up wont be as hard once you let go. change isn't easy to accept, but as time goes on you learn to accept it and the "change" will be a part of you. its foolish to think we'll always stay the same..

do you have to see him at school? if so, and you are bitter about things. you can always put bags of day old milk in his locker so when he opens it. STINKY STINKY. er.. but really. since you have so much stress, do what makes you feel happy and reward yourself to a break inbetween studying or "a big bowl of strawberry ice cream."

toodles. if you need to talk. i'm here for you.

*DISCLAIMER: i am not a real psychiatrist so i cant tell you what to do, i am mearly analyzing your situation, pointing things out and making suggestions. if you somehow end up with a 3rd leg. it is your own fault.*

. a "i feel slightly psychotic" stabby .

[ƒORM]

I would say you're not alone on that one. Seems like everywhere I turn these day someone that is not happy with the way their life is going. Some of the situations involve work others involve relationships and the odd one involves family/school. Regardless of what the problem might be the only thing that ever heals this is time. Things can get brutal at times and everything slows down. Eventually the ball gets rolling in the right direction and everything moves along flawlessly until there is a sudden pothole in the road. Then you just have to deal with it. I'm kinda in that spin of things as we speak. My job situation is up in the air because we are in the process of being bought out and I have very little urge to transfer over to the new company. This may mean finding a new job. I'm busy with the site and keeping things in order in my life and it seems like a big game of balance sometimes. As for the relationship thingy I've experienced it myself, watched it happen myself and have seen some couples go their opposite ways. Some of these relationships have even involved kids. Typical got married too early and grew apart. This was honestly the very last couple in the world i thought would ever split up :( . As for letting someone go, it's often the person who does the breaking up that suffers from the post-break up a lot more because they are constantly thinking about whether or not they made the right decision. The that person has to live with that decision and misses what he/she had.

[~snow*white~]

thanks guys......stabmyhead.....mmmmm....strawb erry ice cream!!! =) haha stinky old milk in his locker! good one! i'd love to do that to forget bout him but too bad i don't know his locker combo. but i rarely see him at school. it's usually when little things that i do remind me of him. but now i just don't care bout ne thing.
school's alot of stress cuz i have one more year b4 provincials and all that hectic stuff goin on bout which school i have to get excepted to. my rents pressure me all the time to study hard and if you don't get into this school ur dumb....not in those words that is.
dj form....how are you doing? u said ur in the same boat so i'm wondering if you're doin ok?
i try to move on, maybe i should just forget about everything?! but see that's the problem i don't know what I want to do about ne thing? :(

[dragon boi]

wow i never knew???

[kiMMie]

I know what you're talking about...it totally sux to be in that position...

Letting feelings go that has generated over time ~ memories, goals, dreams ~ are really hard to let go...but sometimes letting go is the best decision to make for "yourself"

I know I've been doing a lot of thinking in the last three months or so...and I don't like some of the things that are happening in my life right now...and honestly I don't know what to do :003:
My career...my family...my love life...are all down in the pits right now and it's totally messing up my life...

[Glendita*]

ok ok here comes glenda to the rescue , okok maybe i'm don't super chick , but i guess i will have to do! Hun i knew there was sumthing wrong w/ u , mmm i guess it is ok , since i never told u what was up w/ me. Well i'm kinda already telling u what i think on icq and i don't want to start becoming like someone we both know *cough*steph*cough*. I honestly don't know what u are going through but when i was really down for those few month wow did i ever get defensive i didn't want any advice from any one, I remember just wanting someone to listening but not pretend to care or suggest anything JUST LISTEN . So i will not become a hypocrite , i will just be there in the back round supporting u in anyway u need me . So if u ever need some one to just listen i'm u gurlie.

I'm sorry but i have to say this (lets pretend it isn't advice) If u want to be sad , moody , happy , pissed off or whatever , DO IT! . Don't let anyone tell u what to feel or act or fucking whatever.U have the rite to feel the way u do even though others don't understand why u do!:051:

Friends forever Glenda....hee hee in threes! on wait IN TWO'S ( u like green don't u ?)

[dragon boi]

ok now glenda u just scaring me now
ainslie go to sweet it will make u feel way better

[~snow*white~]

no trevor i am not goin to sweet even though it'll make me feel a little better (well kinda) i'm not goin! heheh sorry! :057:

kimmie: your in the same boat as i am? what r u doing to get things off of your mind? i am lost in everything that i just get so down in the dumps for nothing?

tinker: i mean super chick! hahaha i know you're listening and also giving me advice that i can take no like that gurl.....? my head hurts from thinkin bout this so much. not cool at all! :097:
but i know ur there to listen...somedays i don't want ur opinion but somedays i might need it.
*hugz*hugz*

[dragon boi]

ahhhh u guys are all mickee not goin to sweet mickee man mickee man :094:

trevor--->:020:<-----glenda and anslie

[powerpuffys*]

life is filled with confusion..fustrating at times.. but you have to do something about it..i have goals and dreams but sometimes i dont even know if i can achieve them.. if i know for sure i cant .. the best thing i do is just let it go..sometimes i go through a phase in life where i just don tknow where im going.. what im doing.. what should i do etc.. being a teenager is when your in the stage of depression and being hella stressed out.from school work. family problems ....work? bf/gf?one of my godsisters good friend commited suicide because she couldnt handle stress..she had so much school work in her hands.. she basically had to study her ass off ..and it really killed her.. she didnt know what to do..so she ran away from it by killing herself.. it was sad =O*(
sometimes you go through a phase in life where you just dont know where your going and what to do...its fustrating..

If you need to talk..Im here for you..

take care


toodles~

[victor h.]

for some reason......
i'm still in my "YOUNG" age..well gr.10...ehehe

but i still feel soo fustrated and depressed most of the time.....
i don't really know why.....
i don't think it's school......
but one thing is...if stanley doesn't stop probing me...
i'm gonna jump out the window ...GrRrR!!

[Erica]

Ainslie**Always good to come here and post what's on your mind. That's what this place is for, and we're all always here to give you our ears, advice, encouragement, and support.

Depression sucks ass, doesn't it? This one hits really close to home, cause it's something that I've been going through for the past 7 years. There is obviously a lot of stuff on your mind sweetie, and that's why you aren't able to go to sleep. What helps me, is just trying to force myself to read a book that I really like. Trust me, I'm not a reader. My best friend told me to do this, and I was sooo stubborn and wouldn't try it, but after I did, voila...I found myself reading until I fell asleep and dropped the book off my bed. *hehe* As for school work, remember, SUMMER'S ALMOST HERE! :029:

As for your boyfriend, you broke up with him for a reason, right? I know you say that you want to be back with him, but say if you do...do you think that he'd actually change? Be very honest and realistic about this. (you don't have to tell anybody but yourself) Because quite often, we can't change the way people are. They have to realise that they have a problem, and really want to put effort into changing that. Cause you don't want to go through the same thing again, and end up breaking up with him again anyways. But all relationships ended take time to heal. *big hugs* Try to get out and be around people. Not necessarily in big environments like raves, but moreso with one or two close friends. People that you can trust, that you can talk to, that are really there for you. You also have us here at F&K to give you support and encouragement hun. :051:

Anyways, if you ever need somebody, ICQ me. *hugs* Just give things a lot of time, and be patient and kind to yourself.

[dragon boi]

then u better come to nasty we all gonna be there so u and glenda should come or else this is what might happen :016:

[~snow*white~]

hey guys.....i haven't really posted alot lately cuz i've been busy with work and skating and all but thanks so much for being there and helping me through this.
i've actually gotten better now cuz i'm off skating for about 2 months and schools almost coming to an end! so i'm a little relaxed but not that much.
Erica thanks so much!! *hugz* i know u'll be there to talk to! i did break up with this guy for a reason and i did go back out with him and no he didn't really change. i just needed a 2nd heartbreak to actually figure that out. so he's over and done with and i'm moving on hopefully...

*hugz* to all of you!

Tinker: i would have told you but then it was over by the time i was going to tell! forgive me?! :027:

[omega_image]

....would be nice if u told me this....instead of readin it on some site.....also if u ended it cuz of that y didnt u say it? instead of using jon as an excuse
-adam

[~snow*white~]

what?! ok no jon wasn't an excuse to end the relationship. seemed to me like that's not what you wanted so to save you the time i ended it for you. not what i wanted at all. it seemed that jon was ur excuse not to go out with me but u never really said it. why am i posting this?

[omega_image]

listen....who brought jon up? who ended it (twice)? i told u i was willin to give it a shot.....and i was the one who DIDNT wanna keep it a secret.....u were the one who didnt want jon/ryan/whoever else to find out....
-adam

[~snow*white~]

fine........i'm not replying on the site
u have my icq and we'll talk ok?

[kiMMie]

Now, now...we don't want any visible "squabbling" here...do we? :329: