where do i go from here?

[Flux]

***WARNING* Sorry, this is so long... a lot of Flux's ranting... i just had to get it out...***

I'm indecisive.

What can i say?

I just finished my grad year... the whole time I agonized about what to do in the fall. I didn't want to go right to school because I feel like I'll get more out of it if I take some time off first to travel and sort of figure myself out. Unfortunatley, my closest friends (and the people who I'd actually want to spend 3 solid months with) are all going to school. I've considered going alone, but, as exciting as the idea is, it also scares the hell out of me. I am an independant person, I guess, but even I have always relied on somebody. The idea of getting off a plane in Thailand, and stumbling out into a place where I don't know the language, culture, or another person... I don't think I'm ready to do that. So I considered going to school for a year, finding some travelling buddies, and then maybe going away after that, but...

apparently my method of making this decision (which was to not really decide and just see what happened) backfired on me... now it's too late to register for school so that escape route is out of the question. Even if I could go to school I wouldn't know which one to choose... I guess it would be either UBC or SFU or UVIC or even Capp collage but I don't know how to decide.

I really don't want to just get a pathetic minimum wage job and work until January...I'd hate myself cause I get all restless and panicky when I think that I'm not doing anything with my life.

I looked into some exchange programs in which they send you to other countries to learn the language and do volunteer work... they seem like they would be perfect for me but of course I missed this year's deadline...

... I guess i've inadvertently made the decision to travel. But where? I would love to go to Thailand but the language barrier would make getting around really difficult. Also, I'm a vegetarian and i worry about what I'm going to eat... (this may seem really stupid to those who eat meat but it can be so frusterating... when I was in Japan in the spring I barely ate anything cause they put a fish base in almost everything so i can't eat it... and the Japanese culture doesn't comprehend the idea of vegetarianism). I'll probably end up going alone... one of my friends says she'll come with me but i honestly don't think she'll come through with the money...

so i'm thinking of getting a work visa and going to Australia or some other English speaking country. still scary on my own but maybe it'll be worth it.

Suggestions? Advice? Has anyone travelled alone in Australia? or worked there? Or been in this position before? Help!

[Glendita*]

*eek* the idea of traveling by myself is kinda scary . I think it would be harder and less fun if u went by ur self. Do u know if ur freinds that are going to school might not be up for taking the next semester off and going traveling w/ u? I would really adivce u not to go traveling on ur own , u never know what might happen.

It really sucks that u have missed all this dead lines ... it just might mean that u are not supposed to be in skool at the moment . I'm so sorry i don't really have to much to say on this issue but i do hope that figure things out. *hugs*

[princess]

the only thing i can tell you is that i've been to australia (well sydney) and it's GORGEOUS there. i went for a month & it's probably been the best experience i've ever had in my life. the people there are so friendly, weather's great. it was so much fun. and i doubt you'd have a big problem trying to find a job. then again i did have some ppl there i knew who i stayed w/. it's gonna be hard if you're starting from scratch there, but i guess it's hard just about anywhere....

if you go, and you don't have a HUGE financial problem after you get there, i can almost guarantee you'll have a great time. specially if you embrace the whole skate/surf and partying culture. skateboarding & surfing are probably the 2 biggest things there. no lie. if i were given the oppurtunity to go back, i'd hop on the plane w/o a thought.

hope i helped.