Do you ever feel bad about...

[Kandyapple]

Do you ever have a night were you think of all the things you have done in your past that hurt someone you used to care about?

I know myself it was never something I intended to do but yet even knowing that, I still feel really bad knowing that I really hurt someone that cared a lot about me. It makes me feel really sad deep down. I know I still talk with a lot of the people that I hurt and they say they have put it behind them and we are cool. But i still feel bad when I think back to it.

I know everyone breaks hearts and makes mistakes. You can't be perfect all the time. But i guess I still have sad nights where i will find an old letter or something and I can't help but feel guilty or sad. It's not like I would want things in my life to be different because i'm happy now. I just don't like feeling like I have caused someone pain at some point.
But I guess you can't go through life worrying about the past all the time. Just learn from it and move on.

[CoSmIc-RaVeR]

ya i get that a lot!!! usually wen im realli bored or depressed....its fukked up LOL but its trippy to think about after blazing a joint hahaha :smoke1: crazy topic....im trippin out rite now Lauren and now im thinkin about my past now THANKS....hahaha just kiddin luv u lauren =)....oh yea this is ELI....im the kandi raver guy that was busting a move with that nammer lady that was suposedly tazix's aunt at N.R.G....LOL good times! can't wait 2 see u at new years if ur going....take care! :kimmie:

~eli~

[Kandyapple]

hahaha sorry if it got you down. I guess its a sad thing but at the same time I guess its just something to reflect on not kick yourself about.

and yah I know its you. hows it going. I dont know if i'll be at plaza for new years its all kinda up in the air. but i'm sure i'll see you around soon. :c-tard:

[MONEY]

^^ Thanx for the talk Lauren. Didn't mean to dig up old memories for u tho. Just depends on the moment or the way I think about it. On one side I think, just b/c something may be perfect in my eyes doesn't mean it's going to be the same in her eyes. Then at other times I think whats wrong with me, or what did I do wrong. The thing i've realized is when you feel that way about a person You forget about yourself and you want that person to be happy. If it's me great, if not it better be with somebody that can take care of her the way I want too. Just as long as it's not a loser meth addict :finger: . She may think it's jealousy, but it's sooooo not, I would still do or give her anything that she would ask for. Maybe thats my problem, i'm just a sucker or a hopeless romantic :soak: (and yes this may be off topic but hey, but i don't give a fuck :finger: )

[Skitzo_Style]

i get that way sometimes too.

but all you can do is make sure you carry this knoledge and apply it to all of your endevors

[MONEY]

^^^^^ WERD

[linds]

i think alot of people beat themselves up alot more than the actual person does.

you learn to get over things, some things are harder, some easier.

the best thing to do in my opinion, is just open the doors of communication, and let them vent if they have to . or just pick up the friendship, as it was before, and see how it goes, it doesnt hurt, and you get it off your chest, and maybe get over it .

ive done alot of shit things.
im trying to fix alot myself.
but you cant get too down about it, cause..well what happens happens ..

good luck!

[CoSmIc-RaVeR]

aww....dun worry lauren ur post didn't realli bring bak old bad mems.....i was just playin around....i do that a lot LOL ;)

take carez!
~eli~ *hug*

[Kandyapple]

Originally posted by JADED_MONEY
^^ Thanx for the talk Lauren. Didn't mean to dig up old memories for u tho.

No worries man. I think I actualy posted this before our convo.
And i'm glad you got the chance to get things off your chest too.
:)