Life: Has it ever felt...

[*addy*]

Neutral to you?

Like, nothing good is happening.
Yet nothing bad.
But you just want change so badly.
I am constantly going through these phases, for example now. I feel almost guilty to complain that life is bad (i'm not a huge fan of complaining) becuase I really don't have anything to complain about. Yet I think about things I wish I had, want, or have wanted for a long time that I haven't gotten yet (or will ever?).
I just feel like "life" is not going anywhere in a way.
I don't feel happy, or sad, just nothing.
I feel nothing.

[~lazee_grrl~]

i've felt like that before addy...like life has formed a plateau..no ups or down..its just straight path forward...soooo absoultely boring...like u want sumthign exciting to happen..either bad or good..just anything rite?...don't worry...life will pick up sooner or later...~

[vesperstina]

That happens to me frequently. That is when I just want to "fuck the whole world up". Usually something wonderful or disasterous comes into my hands to do so. I forget it. But I remember I am usually very depressed when I am in a state of being where it is neither at -1 or +1, but at 0.

stina

[Erica]

I know what you mean Addy. I've been trying to have a somewhat neutral life for a while though. My life has been so dramatic for the past several years, that all I ever wanted was a boring, normal, stable life. I kinda have that now, even though I can't say that my life is really neutral. I think the best thing to do is to engage in more social activities? Like go out with your close friends and just have a kickin' time. (or come out to the car rally and have some INSANE fun) ;) Maybe that's not really the solution though and maybe you have to look deeper into yourself as to why you're feeling the way you are right now...but in my experience, being with friends as often as I can has totally made a world of difference in my life.

Erica :AZN:

[*addy*]

I spend A LOT of my time with my friends...
I'm almost craving to be alone lately?
It's not that my life is boring or dull... I have so much to do, I'm always busy. A few days ago I had the sudden urge to join school activites, I joined 3!!!
-so now I have student gov. (I can see myself pulling outta that one though. Cause if I'm not in charge, I don't like it), publishing/media, and chair of grad committe.
- dance (teaching/classes/shows)
- school etc...
I'm pretty damn booked.
But... I dunno. still feel like my life is lacking.

thanks for your input ladies:) Much appreciated.

[yoko*]

hah. i'm the opposite of you addy ;)

i'm more of a laid back, i like to be alone often, do things on my own type person. I can say that because I find myself in such situatons quite a lot. I guess I'm a lil introverted in a way, and i get energized by doin things on my own..

frum wut i read sounds like you're more on the extroverted side, you get energy from being in social situations n wutnot.. I read somewhere that ppl with such personalities, can feel drained when they are alone for an excessive amount of time, as opposed to those who are introverted....

but hey, that's all I have to say, n well, maybe that's not the case for you either ;) juss meaningless psychobabble...

i want to get out there a lil more this year.. I like alone time but I don't think that it's necessarily healthy to be extremely one sided (intoverted) or extremely the other (extroverted) I think it's a good thing to balance out the two..

So this year I'm involving myself in more social activities or trying to.. by helping out here n there with the school (hoping to).. and getting myself on track... It's a little draining at times, but I get so much satisfaction from it...

maybe all you need is a lil bit of time to yourself. Pull on your pj's, rent a sappy movie n juss have a lil "addy time" hehe...

;)

[bob]

word up yoko...

introverts rock... i got kicked outta school for a week once cuz i was "too introverted"... i guess they had a reason to kick me out, i kinda didn't participate in any group activities, which was 30% of my grade, hehehe...

[*addy*]

Hmmm...
as much as I am extremely social... I always make time for myself. So I'm sure that's not the problem... I think I have a good balance of both. I make lots of time for friends, and time on myself as well.

I think it's just human nature, you always want something more. I don't think anybody in the whole world can say they are satisfied with every aspect of their life. I guess that's just it for me maybe...

who knows even what the hell i'm talkin about. Sometimes I just feel... i dunno... not lonely. but... ehhh asdfkjalskjdfa... can't think of a word.
I just wish it was summer of next year so I can get my life really started, and get out of this high school bullshit. the whole thing is getting old.
the entire education system is fuct...
but i won't even get into that...

thank you again for the advice:)