Something is bothering me...

[miss.myra]

it could be the weather

it could be the anniversary of my father's passing is nearing, and that always makes me sentimental

it could be my non dealing with certain issues because for some reason, I can't do confrontation, and it's more than 1 or 2 things

it could be the fact that I'm sick again with whatever was making me sick like earlier this year which could mean more months of complications and a diet of mush.

orr I could just be exhausted and in dire need of a vacation.

But seriously, it really makes me feel like crap to be sad like this because I have so many things to be thankful for, so many reasons to feel lucky.

[cubed]

I know exactly what's bothering me, it doesn't make it any easier.

[~*faeryfly*~]

Originally Posted by cinist

drink beer ! :)


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oh I have been! mmhmm! :)

[Electroflux]

Oh, I have that strange sad/nostalgic feeling too. Something to do with the light, early evenings, and how it's getting colder. Maybe it doesn't help that furnaces are turning on and blowing air through vents that haven't seen any use since the start of the year...

I used to have a song that evoked this same feeling. But it would also inspire this image of sunlight coming down through trees up above, perhaps late fall and the sky turning orange. Cold and crisp. And the whole image in sepia.

Then I found out the song was just a slowed down version (no idea how) of the Tea Party's 'Dreams of Reason'.

Now that I've heard the normal full version, it just doesn't seem to fit as far as the lyrics go. But the sound itself? Still works.

Along with the nostalgia/sadness there's this feeling that there's something important - not in the normal sense, but more emotional per se.. that has been left undone. And that whatever it is, leaving it undone is holding me back.

And for frustration... Usually you'll find that it's from lots of things adding up, none of them on their own are a big issue at all. NORMALLY when I get that I just try and avoid it all with entertainment. Though now and then I'll actually do something towards it.. And usually it helps until I start to ignore everything again.

Dunno if any of this helps or makes sense to anyone else though.

[decypher]

i know what u mean myra.. today at douglas i was studying and i had this overwhelming feeling of sadness.. like the past memories trying to break through.. just stuff em back down there myra!!!

[tahiti__treat]

i know how u feel.. except u probably deal with things alot better than i do... I been crying myself to sleep everynite for the past 2 weeks bout sum stupid choices i have made months back. If we could tell the future our lives would be perfect..

[Ree Fresh]

Originally Posted by ~*faeryfly*~

it may be the weather change, notice how everyone is sick? I've just felt mildly lethargic lately, & a little nostalgic too. Its a strange time of the year.

Yeah... I find the weather strongly affects my mood somtimes... weird enough I think fake and baking actuly cheers me up somtimes? lol

[bebu*funfun]

grey weathers = glum times. i think the more layers i have to wear the sadder i feel.. why can't it be sunshine lollipops and rainbow in the air all the time. its definately one of those months that everyone shifts into a strange mode.. myra like you said.. try to think of teh things ure happy about, things that your thankful for and hopefully you'll feel better.. and tell ure friends to cheer you up, its their job to. and worst comes to worst..go shopping..temporary happiness.. mmmm.

[Moon]

Originally Posted by miss.myra

But I can't really pinpoint exactly what is really making me so upset...

perhaps it's just an accumulation of things that have irked me but I haven't dealt with properly because of my complete fear of confrontation.

When I think about it though, even with those things, it just still doesn't seem like enough to really really bug me...


but something is! and it's very frustrating :/

i hate that shit so much

but personally in my opinion, just give yourself time to figure it out. it's your subconcious trying to tell you something and it's not something you can really figure out in a snap of a finger. you're a wise woman this kinda stuff makes you even wiser.