Questions

[joce]

Is this the right place for me? Something inside me is screaming, "this is all wrong!" I want to write and walk along beaches. I need to experience and learn. What am I doing here that is going to take me to the next step? Physics, chemistry, matematics; they're never going to take me in my direction. What is my direction?
I am learning skills to become part of a world which i want nothing to do with. I have no passion for business, a fancy life, or pretentious people. I do want to pass school, I do want to please people, and I most certainly want to please myself. I feel as if I am in a crater full of confusion. Is it really a crater when it's full? No, perhaps I am in a void full of black eternity.
Is this the life a normal teenager should lead? Why is the need for good jobs such as doctors and lawyers, or the need for thousands of dollars so persistent. What happened to embracing the world we live in, and growing and chaning? What caused us to switch from hamony to chaos? Whatis this incessant need to out do ourselves time and time again? We have runed what was once a eutopia and left it behind for hell. I wonder if we knew this is where we were heading.
I need my life to slow down to a steady hum. I need a space where I can see my goals clearly. Do places like that still exist? My thoughts are strewn across a million miles of desert, each grain of sand a defferent memento to life.
Where am I going? Who am I going with? Am I going with anyone? Where is this going, does anybody knoe where life leads? Obviously not, otherwise we would stop taking for granted the things we do have. Do we actually possess anything? I want answers that I know I am never going to get.

This was writte on a particularly enjoyable rainy day at boarding school glued to my desk with a thousand meaningless papers and books.

[Lil Jenna]

You are only 15 sweetie you have alot of time to figure out your life. Just go with the flow and see how you feel when you get out of school.

[Psycho_Laughs]

change the focus from your navel to the actual world.
the picture expands and seases to be so bleak.
there never was such a thing as utopia, and we never were harmonious.
the strive to outdo is part of being human.
the need for money is only vile if your reasons for it are vile.
insted of asking question with no meaningful answers, answer other people's questions that will make a difference.
living life for yourself is a false life. true enlightment comes through servitude.
books are knowledge, and knowledge is power, therefore papers and books are never truly meaningless.

[Varney Rae]

Aw joc, break is coming up soon..you'll have time to relax..sleep in ..spend time with your *friends*, and put everything atleast partly into perspective. Keep in mind that right now your direction is just to stay on track..and i think that you'll agree that atleast for another year or two "on-track" isnt in vancouver, and by the time it is would it even be worth leaving and giving up all of the bullshit you put up with?? You'll find direction, you *know* your direction...but knowing you your just too frustrated to see it. love you:love1: