Learning curve in a relationship...

[SomeGuy]

I kinda realized something yesterday, I've been home really sick sleeping and just laying in my bed a lot thinking about things and I got around to thinking about my ex-gf and why I broke up with her. It was my first relationship and I really did care for the girl, loved her personality and everything but I couldn't take her lack of affection and trust, it was like no matter what I did to make her feel good about her self she was alway's down. No matter how much I told her I loved her and tryed to show it, it made no difference. We went out for quite a while and in the end it was no different then when we started dating. Eventualy everything just got to me, my life, family, friends, goals and dreams and I just broke it off. It was a hard thing to do and I regreted it for a long time but eventualy I knew it was the right thing. I learnt the hard way that when someone say's they love you, even though you want to believe it, that doesn't mean it's true. I just hope this girl get's through everything, she's taking the same path I took and I know what it's like, it takes you to the darkest places, the farthest escape, even into insanity and back but I survived thanks to friends and family. I hated my family at the time and it caused me to go through most of this crap as rebelled against there will and society's social pressures. I'm older now just a year or two since then and a lot has changed. I can feel myself growing up and I'm not fighting against it because I've wanted it for so long but I watch my friends struggle with it because they want to stay young. I just wish I could tell them that they can be young and have fun while growing up because it's a slow process. I woke up this morning heartbroken like everyday before, yet I'm hopefull in life and I don't know why. I've been kicked down into the gutter by this world every single time, yet I alway's rise again just to be kicked back down. I learnt a lot from one relationship and I know there will be many more to come. I just wish I could've seen the pain I'd cause this girl from the start, so that way I would've never broken her heart. I just wanted to get all of this out of me so I can have a fresh start.

Love is fiction, Love is fact,
Love is a tale of sensless acts,
Love is something that ensnares the soul,
Love is gripping at you and it'll never let go,
Love is fact in the way's we see it each and everyday,
Love is fiction as it whisks us away.

[Azn_hottie]

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[Manda~Panda]

but i want to say something cause i really like what you wrote.

It's almost relieving to hear someone say this..i don't know why

i think cause it may be signifigant to a personal experience or realization of my own..


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