blast from the past

[gratia]

holy shit. i am kinda speechless right now. i just talked to this person on msn who i haven't seen in months and have barely talked to in months. and just last week i was thinking about him/her. see every once in a while. i get this feeling...that something is up....and i will dream about this person and think about him/her constantly. and then suddenly s/he will enter my life again. or i will hear something about him/her. kinda as if to let me know s/he is still alive. and usually the feeling i have is confirmed....cause i'll hear about shit that has happened recently.....bad shit. it is fucking crazy. wierdest thing ever.....i am talking to my best friend about this person last night (my best friend knows the whole messed up story and has been there since the begining of my relationship with this person) , just randomly discussing things from teh past and what not. and today. this person comes online and tells me this fucking sketchy freaky ass dream that s/he had the other nigth with me in it. i just can't get over the fact that this person is still in my life. like the shit we've been through. and then we don't see each other in a million years. but always seem to "keep in touch". it's like...i duno. it is just wierd. man i put way too much into that relationship and got nothin back. (drugs are bad kids)