ijust dont know anymore...

[dapimpstress]

Originally Posted by ~MoNiQuE~

MMMMMMMMMmmmmmmmmmmmm doobies...........

werdizzle fos hizzle up in hizzle biatchizzilez

[surfacing_X]

Originally Posted by Ashes

u turn 19 in a week?!?!! fo real?!


I TURN 19 IN A WEEK! I ALSO am freaking out about it. at least ur going to school. holla, we must chat. what's ur exact b-date?

well i'm 19 now!! :) dec.3rd is my birthday
add me to msn if u want :)
sh0paholika@hotmail.com

[maple blondie]

you know...

It kind of bothers and disgusts me how many "i dont know what im going to do with my life" posts there have been/will be.

Its terrible how pressured we feel to do the right thing or else we'll be told we are a failure. (not just by the people around us, but by ourselves)

As long as you are happy and healthy, just fucking give'r. Live is for living, not stressing.

[dapimpstress]

i cant talk on msn right now cuz im at the front desk, but i'll add u later this afternoon... my birthday is the 12th~! birthday karma wut!! hehe. and maple girl has a point... life is for living, and thats whats keeping me sane, knowing that why do we do anything? for other people? no.. we should be doing it for ourselves, and because we love/want to do it. not because we are pressured to. i'm stoked on what im doing, promoting, booking, and painting, and dancing. thats what makes me happy and since im stoked, why should i need to justify myself by doing all these other things that other people think i should, when its just adding stress to my life? werd.

[Mo...]

well at this point i dont care what the future holds me....:) but yay i get to go home in 10 min!!

rave on fuckas!!!

[zarlon]

i turned 19 about 2 weeks ago, i've been working and staying with my bf for the past while.. i still haven't finisehd the required credits to 'officially' graduate.

sometimes its really hard, when you feel like you're at a standstill and feel so pressured that you should be doing something- but really the thing is it takes time to pick yourself up, move on, and do what you've been planning to do for a while.

come on eh, you're young. live it up while you can, you have the rest of your life to be confused:)

[Bevvy Swift]

Originally Posted by wet00raver

I woke up this morning so frustrated with myself.

Im turning 19 in a week and i dont even know what the fuck i want to do with my life. Im in school,taking psychology but im not even sure this is what i want. i know i have a long time to figure this out, but it's just bothering me. I have this huge need to figure out what i want RIGHT NOW!

I also have to make the decision weather or not to move back to montreal this summer, and i cant even do that!I'm so torn. I was stayin here in Vic to b with my boyfriend, cuz i thought it was making me happy...but he split...and now im left with nothing... it just feels like everything is falling apart...
i need a hug:(

its just one of those weeks i guess...

hey, at least your in school. things could be alot worse.

[BohNeh]

Really, the mushy stuff is nice, but reality is where it's at. I know it's hard. Sorry to burst your bubble, but it does not get any easier. I think you go through this shock stage when you turn 18/19/20 because you thought you were going to grow up, graduate, be rich and have this awesome life. 19 was crazy for me. I raved my ass off, drank, did all sorts of lovely drugs and just plain partied. I too felt lost.
The thing is, I grew up a little, got a job, went back to University, rocked my GPA through the roof, am close to graduating, bought a house, met the love of my life, I volunteer, I exercise, I eat right, and... I still feel lost.
I think feeling lost is ok, you just need to learn to be comfortable with it. Feeling lost means you want something more, it means you are craving growth in your life - and that's a good thing.
On the bright side, you aren't sitting at home in a trailor, watching Jenny Jones, going to your cashier job and coming home and doing it all over again and being happy with it. You want more, that says something about you.
Relax, go with the flow. I know its hard. But realize this: If you found tomorrow that you wanted to be, say, a graphic designer for a living, you would change your mind soon enough. Nothing is perfect, nothing is all perks. Part of finding what you want is just learning to accept the ups and downs that each thing in life brings.
So, think about what you like, do it. When you change your mind, do something else. Most importantly: Stop comparing yourself to others. Your mom has mega years on you for finding herself - she's supposed to make you feel disorganized! Like MissMyra said, Moms are old school, they have put in their time.
I would never take back the time I spent f#cking around having fun and being irresponsible because it was who I was at that time, and overall it is who I am now.
Don't let boys ever dictate your path. Don't let girls. Don't let anyone but you. We are so lucky to be free in North America. Just relax - 50 is when you should be worrying that maybe you need to do something with your life.
One day, people will die, you will lose friends, you will fall apart and everything will just suck - all at the same time. You will be saying "I wish I was 19 again". No matter where you are, you will always imagine other things to be better than they are. The grass is always seems greener on the other side, even though its the same, and probably has more moss and weeds. Don't forget your values.
Just relax, you are doing fine.


:)

[crookedking]

i thought everybody took one of those tests at a young age that told you what you should be.

i'm going to be a slimy salesman when i grow up!