~*A Fresh Start*~

[kiMMie]

Notice when you feel like you need a fresh start, and you plan, and plan... and when you finally get there, something feels different. :047:

It's nothing to do with happiness or unhappiness, but just something is different about yourself. Maybe it's positive, but then again, maybe it's negative, but you certainly notice the difference.

Maybe the it's the habits that have been settled in for so long, your expectations, or your goals that have been dreamt for what feels like an eternity...

Does anyone understand what I'm talking about? Or am I just babbling? :284:

[yoko*]

hmmm i can't say i really know what ya mean...

but maybe tid bits, but in a different situation...

been plannin to do better in school... cuz i really fucked up last year, and totally slacked off for stupid reasons... drug induced thinking got in the way too.. i remember my posts on f&k bein all kinda pessimistic and LIFE SUCKS... but they're lookin more positive this school year.. hehe.. so i know that it's doin me good...

I worked hard for this, but getting here sort of meant sacrificing a lot of myself and changing small bits of myself... THey weren't major things... I'm still yoko. But yoko with goals...

It feels great though, but i'm probably having a lil bit of an identity crisis. haha.. nahh.
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I dunno, maybe because... you had these big expectations of what reaching your goal would be like.. or... you thought you would feel a certain way, but you just don't feel that way so... it just feels weird?

i'm not so sure ;)
sorrie i couldn't help.. hope ur happy with wherever you are though.

[omega_image]

kinda assuming here.....but what i basically got from ur post was that

u planned to be somewhere.......now ur there and its not quite what u expected? or maybe it is just that along the way u changed?.........

this is where i am.......placing goals and things for myself everyday......yet when i finish them its not what i planned......somethings work out great yet others are total failures.........too bad u cant compinsate (sp?) for all the variables in life....
-adam

[~lazee_grrl~]

yupz..wut adam got from ur post is exactly wut i think u were saying..hopefully thats wut u mean..

but with all the stuff i've planned ahead for..it either screws up along the way..or it doesn't turn out as i expect it to in the end..and sumtimes its just me who doesn't have the same goals cuz i've changed them..but yeah..either way..i've decided to stop planning too far ahead..i hate let downs..just gonna try to take things as they come..~ :035:

[Sean]

In the past few months I've undergone a lot of changes.

First off, I transferred from Langara to UBC, which was a nice change, but a big one. During the spring my brother who's a few years older than me, who I've lived with my entire live, moved to England indefinitely. Mid summer, my dad died. Later summer, my girlfriend of almost 3 years moved to China. Throughout all of this, I was working 70 hours a week at my summer job.

Needless to say, when work ended, and I got back into the school routine, the full brunt of everything that I had undergone hit me hard. It still is hitting me hard. When I keep busy things are cool, but when I'm alone in my room at night, a time when I'd normally either be with, or at least talking to my girlfriend, I have very little to comfort me. My friends and hobbies (tae kwon do, dj'ing) has helped me through it at little, but I'm a bit of a fanatic now; I've also spent over $1500 on records in the past month alone =) Guess this is the way I'm coping with things, it's a pity I'm running out of cash.

Anyways, I know exactly what you're talking about

[kiMMie]

Thanks guys for all your input... it's nice to know I'm not alone here :Kimmie:

u planned to be somewhere.......now ur there and its not quite what u expected? or maybe it is just that along the way u changed?

I totally agree with that Adam... and I think it is me that has changed a bit... and I am "here" and it's not exactly how I anticipated it to be, but who can predict the future, right? :284:

i hate let downs..just gonna try to take things as they come.

Yeah, me too lazee_grrl :014: Pretty much, you're thinking like I'm thinking... One day at a time, cuz within that day, so many things can change :(

[Crunch]

yeah i usually.

just take it by a whim. other than big goals.
i stick to big goals and do what i can for small goals. i never give up though, the goal do change on the way