being sick and tired

[mugsy]

i've been through being sick for a year, and i dont want to fuckin go through it again. i realize that doctors cant figure out whats wrong with you justby asking questions, but i'm tired. i dont want to be this grouchy sleepy person anymore.
i want to be able to wear anything i have in my closet again and not just sweat pants and old jeans that are too big. i want to be able to relax and not have to fidget until i find a postion that doesnt hurt. i want to be able to lie on my tummy, curled up next to the boyfriend.
and food! fuck i want curry, i want cake, i want some pad thai. i think im mostly tired of oatmeal. granted its good for my heart, but its shitty for the tastebuds. i want to be able to have butter on my toast again, and eat mandrain oranges because it seems like everyone and their fucking dogs are eating them right now. and chocolate - i miss you. ceasar salad, pasta, steak..... i miss real food.
i want to wake up and not have the "i cant move so i should just stay in bed all day and moan" feeling. i want to be able to start my first day of work and not feel like a dinosaur is tryin to claw its way out of my stomach.
i want to be able to laugh and yawn and not hold my stomach like santa clause\cringe in pain.
and i want to sleep through the night without waking up from rolling onto my sotmach or from the various noises my stomach is making or from the pain.
and im tired of swallowing various liquids for different tests.

anyone know of a place that i can send in my complaints to that will fix the problems?

[veN]

stay strong champ, cus my goodness that sucks.

[laska]

Boo to barium swallows. Have you had an endoscopy? Sounds like it could be coeliac.

[mugsy]

^no endo yet.

gonna do a ultrasound first and im hoping they find something there. im done with swallowing disgusting shit or having something shoved down my throat.

[nabs]

The thing that helps me always, is prayer, and not just an empty prayer. When you pray you have to have complete faith that God is almighty and he will cure you.

[TipSy]

i had the same thing.. but mine comes and goes usually stays around for a week and a half..then eventually goes away.. the doc jus said the lining around my stomach is thin.. and most foods are hard to digest at times..

but i hope finally they figure out whats going on with you...living with that sort of pain, is tough enough...good luck with the docs!!

[Pennywise]

i get sick all the fucking time.

[Erin]

Awww... We should do a movie night. :( Remember... I didn't move that far away.