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Apr 30, 01
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~the way its supposed to be~
life is such a mystery...we never really fully understand life untill its almost over...and we are just the smallest little peices of a huge puzzle called the universe...its KRAZIE when you think that we all have a reason to be here...as small and seemingly insignificant the reason is to one person...that same reason could make all the difference in the world to someone else...what bugs me is all the pain that people endyre throughout their lives...there is pain all around us...constantly...and this neverending need to be loved...which in turn brings more hurt and pain...isnt love supposed to be a happy thing...so why are so many of my dear friends in pain cause of love...thats one of the mysterys i guess...trying to figure out the little mysterys is kinda fun...but really its a mystery for a reason...so let it be and let life and love work out their oun paths...cause its one of those things that we are powerless over...its just ~the way its supposed to be~
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Apr 30, 01
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I think one of the reasons we don't understand life until it is almost over is for the following reason: We don't appriciate what life is until it is too late.
Think about it, when you are young and full of energy, the last thing you think about is other people, your future, your health and how you spend the precious seconds of life that you can never get back. When you get older, you KNOW that you only have so much time left. You think about it more often, you CHANGE because of this. Unfortunately, it is almost impossible to teach this to the younger generation(s). They will have to live and learn just like everyone before them. I know of people younger than I who have woken up and seen reality and are making something of their life, finding some answers, their potential, living the possibilities. I am happy to say that I have woken this myself in August, 2000. It's taken ten years of my life to get this far, and sometimes I feel that I wasted ten years of my life, other people tell me that I am lucky I woke up so fast. I have always believed I acted WAY older than I physically was, and now I understand. It's tought to explain in such a short post what I went through, but I hope whomever read this gets a glimpse of the picture I am trying to paint. It will help you understand the reality you don't see or do not want to see. Call me the living 'fortune cookie' if you like, but I like Gravity Slave better. :029: Take care.
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May 01, 01
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Right now, I don't understand my life...nor its future...
I was like you mchammered...I thought I finally realized what I needed to do...where I wanted to go...who I wanted to be... But today...I found out...that it was all a dream...a hope that I carried around for a long time... I feel lost...empty...and most of all scared...I feel like I can't trust myself anymore I thought my possibilities were endless at one point...now they just seem hopeless...utterly hopeless :090:
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May 01, 01
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Jess...
You are so right about the "love" thing...it's never ever supposed to hurt...yourself or anyone else...
If it does....that's not love....Love shouldn't trigger hurt, pain, or suffering... I *thought* I knew what love was...I don't think I do anymore... I give up...I give up on everything right now... :040:
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May 01, 01
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*Sigh*
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May 01, 01
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I'm with ya Cec...but you can't give up hope, no matter what. I did for a while, and the only place that that brought me, was deep into and endless dark hole. I just kept on dropping and dropping, and every single day that passed, it just seemed to get worse. I'm still WAY down there, but I started to allow myself to see glimmers of hope. You have to change your mindset towards things...I know it's SO hard when everything in your life is in the shits. Trust me, I understand. But you have to look forwards...try to see things that you could do to set things up so that your future could be better. It's going to take a while to be able to get to a place where you're happy...might take a long time. But you have to realise that you won't get anywhere unless you really try hard. And giving up is definitely not the way to get there, cause ultimately, you won't. *big squishy hugs* Hang in there, and remember to keep your hopes alive...no matter how small they are. No matter how dark/deep in the hole you feel, remember, you have to start somewhere...it's not all going to change and be better tomorrow. It's a long process...but in the end, it'll be worth it.
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May 01, 01
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LIFE
well i'm only 17 and i'm ALREADY scared. it's because i have high goals/standards planned fer myself and if i can't satisfy them in the future, then i dun think i'll be happy. juss take risks in life i guess...as long as u've got people there to support u, it's all good.
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May 01, 01
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haha jon....our "master plan" haha....dont worry IT WILL HAPPEN! haha....and sis u know i'm always here....
-adam
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May 02, 01
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life/death and sex!
k. maybe sex wont be mentioned in this post... but dammit i feel pessimistic tonight.. so blah.
i just turned 18, but i feel so friggin' old... some ppl say i'm philosophical and smart. but i know nothing. and whenever i try to understand something, i wanna understand it fully. love? its not just an emotion, its a decision, it's a choice. but to me, its just a fairy tale of something we want to achieve in our lifetime. when i think it could be there all along.. as for why it hurts? no pain no gain... and i'm not talking about the sexual matter either.. however... s&m is kinda nummy.... ;] we teenage folks think we're invincible, that we cant die, that we cant burn out and fade away... there are so many others just like me probably. what makes me or anyone else so much more fuckin' special then the next. we think nothings going to stop us. that's why teenage deaths are sucha shock... its like a reality pill being shoved down our throats to swallow that, "hey buddy. just cuz you're hitting puberty. it's no fuckin' force field from death bitch!". the way we react to death is funny.... we never value things till they are gone.. dunno what you got till its gone... a true downfall on mankind. a weakness.. we can't appreciate something unless its being threatened, disappearing or already gone. when something is threatend like that. we tend to take things more seriously. i know, if i were to die tommorow.. i'd be content cuz there's nothing here i would really want anyways. i'm not pro life nor am i religious. so i know that even if i die. i'm going nowhere. unless afterlife kicks in. then i'm going to haunt some ppl... ;] everyone talks about going to a certain goal, to a certain field, way of life... but we're all on the same track. in the end..we all end up in the same place. dead. ppl take life too seriously anyways. why bother? no one gets out alive anyways... i'm rambling. i dont wanna rant about life... i already did.... [refer to earliar posts in this section. stabby's cynical rant on life blah blah]. and it makes me sick. cuz even if i'm dying i'd be too worried about other things to worry about what life is. life on earth is expensive. but it comes with a free trip around the sun!
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May 02, 01
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Can I borrow these lines Leslie? I like them:
"In the end ,we all end up in the same place. Dead." "No one gets out alive anyway." When I think of these words, it takes a bit of the edge off the thought of dying and makes me smile.
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May 02, 01
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haha the basement! haha.....just wait!
-adam
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May 02, 01
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steps lil man steps.......haha....dont worry we'll have our great view and everything else....
-adam
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