Sleep, and other rants.

[diva]

I can't sleep.

I've been getting fewer and fewer hours of sleep a night lately, and this is even despite the fact that i've stopped napping during the day.

I fell asleep on the bus and missed my stop a few days ago because I was so frickin tired, but when I tried to nap after I got home, nothing happened!

People go crazy from lack of sleep. They get fat too, because the body produces a hormone that induces hungry when you're not getting enough sleep. I'M STARVING RIGHT NOW

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I bought webspace a few months ago, but can't use it until I install this stupid blogging software that I can't figure out how to use. I keep trying to figure it out, but I suck at computers. I can't even pay the company to install it for me because I have the free version, and only their paying customers can pay to get it installed. It's stupid if you ask me...you'd think this company would want to make more money.

I could use the website creator that comes with my webspace, but i'm stubborn and refuse to start adding real content until everything is set up and I know how to do everything. I think it would be easier to get everything set up just the way I want it now because I don't want to deal with having to change things around in a few months when I get serious about this whole thing.

What i'd really like is a tutorial that I can actually follow and someone who'd have the patience to sit and show me how things work. I'm a smart girl, but I suck at computers!

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I've developed this really f'ed up social phobia thing. I don't even understand it. I'm not afraid of people, i'm just really uncomfortable with being around them at the moment. Even going to school sucks. I think it has to do with my recent weight gain. Like, I wont even really go out on weekends because I don't want to be seen. I'll only go somewhere if I know that I wont be running into people I know.

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I finish school in four months, but i'm worried that i'm not going to make it somehow. I'm doing fine in my courses...so much so that i'm going into two of my finals with A+s. But i've got this paranoid feeling that I wont make it. I think it's because compared to most people in my program I actually don't do that much studying, but still manage to get good grades. I'm paranoid that my luck's going to run out.

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I haven't read a good book in forever!

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I miss my cats.

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I want a subscription to the economist and the lancet and marie claire--in that order.

[mapleleaf4ever]

Sounds like somebody needs a Huuuuuuug!

[diva]

Or a double whopper with cheese from bk.

[ebbomega]

Originally Posted by diva

I can't sleep.

What I'm finding works usually (didn't last night for some strange reason): Lie on your back and actively shut off EVERY nonessential and consciously controlled muscle in your body. Also try taking care of specific areas (arms, fists, legs, face, etc.) by squinting/clenching muscles for about five seconds and releasing.

Usually the mere process of doing this brings to the forefront any problems my body/mind is having at the moment (IE: My dog just died, I need food, I fucking hate cokeheads, etc), so you can put your mind to rest about any of that stuff before you actually go to bed. The number of times I've gotten all ready for bed, finally get relaxed and then all of a sudden get out of bed and go make myself a sandwich (NEVER go to bed on an empty stomach) because suddenly I realized "Hey! My body is HUNGRY! No wonder I can't sleep!"

I bought webspace a few months ago, but can't use it until I install this stupid blogging software that I can't figure out how to use.

How many computer geek friends do you have? Invite one over, offer them beer/weed/hookers/blow/etc. and get them to set up your webspace and teach you how to use your blogging software....

See, I'm good at computers, and there's plenty I can't do without help.

I finish school in four months, but i'm worried that i'm not going to make it somehow.

You're doin' way better than me. YOU CAN DO EET!

(These feelings are perfectly natural... and part of what sucks about school. I wouldn't say they put you behind anybody. You're still going at it and that's what's important.

I haven't read a good book in forever!

I recommend Starship Troopers (Heinlein) or Ender's Game (Card).

I want a subscription to the economist and the lancet and marie claire--in that order.

Where are those annoying kids trying to take a band trip to England when you need them, damnit?

*here's a cheesy internet hug*

Feel fucking better, aiight?

[miss.myra]

I have trouble sleeping. It's not that I can't get to sleep, I can't stay asleep. It's pretty frustrating going off of 3-4 hours of sleep during the week and walking around like a zombie. I try to make up for it on the weekends, it's easier w/ company :)

[Sean]

If you drank as much as I did getting/staying asleep would cease to be a problem.

Waking up on the other hand...

[ty_guy]

Originally Posted by ebbomega

The number of times I've gotten all ready for bed, finally get relaxed and then all of a sudden get out of bed and go make myself a sandwich (NEVER go to bed on an empty stomach) because suddenly I realized "Hey! My body is HUNGRY! No wonder I can't sleep!"

so very true, do it even before you crawl into bed. tho i've been told that cheese give you nightmares if you eat it before you go to sleep. (myth?)

[ebbomega]

Originally Posted by ty_guy

so very true, do it even before you crawl into bed. tho i've been told that cheese give you nightmares if you eat it before you go to sleep. (myth?)

Crawling into bed = part of the process for me. It's not that it's annoying, it's just I do my best relaxing while prostrate and bundled up in blankets, with all kinds of pillows underneath me.

Even better if I have a doobie in my mouth. Granted, though, after having some weed I'm probably not gonna sleep for like an hour. But that's cool, just put on The Faint and relax for a bit.