Gimme a 12 Gauge Shotty...

[cerah]

Please... I need to shoot myself at close range in the chest. See that way I wouldn't be in so much pain. That and I wouldn't feel so lost and all alone.

My boy and I decided to break it off... not because we don't love each other because we do immensely... but because he didn't have time for me and I was bound to get very hurt in the summer (it was an open relationship). So it's for the best really but that doesn't mean it doesn't hurt.

It took me so long to get over my last love and this one has been so special to me and helped me with so many things and has saved my life (seriously). I don't know how I'll be able to move on. I know I will and I know things will get better because I've been through this before... I just wish things were different.

*SIGH* I'm off to mope and be blah... I may or may not return... I've found the internet is starting to look rather hollow. I think I just need time to be alone. If any of you need me you know where to find me and how to get in touch. Love you guys and don't worry I'm not going to do anything foolish.

[Bitchin]

dont worry sawah, u know all ur friends are here to help u out with ne thing. we all care about u dearly and would never want ne thing bad to happen *takes gun away* remember hun, yer a very special lil'leopard that every one loves! and we all want da very best for u, ok? remeber ur lil'inkling shall always be here for u hun, and she'll always be here for u to talk too, otay!

*massive hugz*

luv lil'inkling

[c.tard]

aww.. i'm sorry hun! i know this isn't much but ya...

i kinda know what your going thru...i can't sayi fully do cuz y'know everyone takes things differently. but ya, not that long ago meeh and my boy broke up 2, for same reason.. he didn't have time... and he didn't it because he didn't want out relationship to fall apart because we wouldn't be able to see each other and ya.... and it did hurts, well still.. cuz i love him so much and i still miss him...

but it does get better (you already know that). one thing that helped meeh was we still talked.. do you guys still talk? like are you still friends?? i mean we didn't talk that much right away..it was hard but we're still friends now.. maybe getting back together later when things are better for him... but i mean it hurt sometimes but it helped to talk to him..knowing he sitll cared and what not and that i didn't totally loose him.. that either way i still had him as a friend...

just take some time alone... and it'll help...

there's not much else i can say.... i just hope u feel a bit better soon... =]

[justin]

We love u sarah! I know it hurts now but the pain will go away. meh im so shitty with advice... i wish i could make you feel better :/ just try to relax kay? no 12 gage shotty for you~! we like our leopard gurl ALIVE. feel better soon hunnie.

justin

[option_elle]

I am here, I am always here. But I'm hoping you know that now. I love you, feel free to call if you need anything, I will lieave my pager on sound so I hear it at any point in time. Later hun.

*hugs* (for what it's worth)

[cerah]

Thanx for caring guys... I dunno I'm really hurting right now and fucked in the head I guess you could say. I dunno I'm still kinda in a whole denial thing I think.

Anyways ya... I'll be around guys just maybe not so much... and I know I can call you if I need anything ever... thanx

[galaxie]

Hun, I hate to see you going through this crap.

I just wanna sit here and cry for you and take all your pain away because you don't deserve it at all. You've helped me so much you have no idea...from back when I was really depressed about 'you know who' to now when I need advice about 'you know what'. Thank-you for being you. For being Sarah, for being this amazing friend that I never thought I'd have. You were just this name on a msg board and you've really helped me through a lot of significant shit in my life. Always blunt, always truthful, you never sugar-coated anything because you know that in the long run that will make things worse, and I thank you for that so much.
Like I already said, he doesn't know what he's missing. If he doesn't realize how wonderful and special you are to make time for you, maybe he doesn't deserve you. I don't know. That's just my two-cents. I just want you to be happy because you're the best Sarah out there and you deserve nothing but the best!!

If you ever need anything, anything at all, CALL ME! You know I love you lots and we should get together more often, you're really important to me =0)

*lots and lots of Natalie love!*

call meeh 274-6130 home 783-6631 cell
*muah!*

AND TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF SWEETIE!

[option_elle]

I get it first. Simple as that. But do call if you need to talk, please. Well, if you want to talk to me that is. You know I have my opinions on the matter, if you want to hear them, ask. But I am here, regardless of what is going on in my life. I am always here, my pager is on, and I know one day the right guy will be there. One that never wants you to leave his sight, like Dani and Jay. You will have that one day. I know you will. Don't ask how I know, I just do. One of my many gut feelings. I believe it, you should too. Afterall, you've endured enough for a few lifetimes.

I love you.

[cerah]

Thank you Jen & Nat... I'm always here for you guys too... I'll see you at JJ hopefully...

Jen... hunee yur the bestest and I love you to bits and pieces and I ALWAYS wanna know what's going on in your mind. You're my very favouritest Jen in the whole wide world (sorry other Jen's but it's true... she's a billion times better than any of you). We will talk soon though... love you hunee!