A sappy post of sorts....entitled: fucking up and catching feelings

[yoko*]

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[dabbler]

tell him to come back?

[rawb]

Originally Posted by yoko*

So how do you get over an amazing "fling" without wanting more?

CRIPPLING SELF HATRED, ICE CREAM AND AN EX WHO ISNT DOING ANYTHING

[mojo]

Yikes.

Why can't you tell him, and why can't it continue? I'm sorry to hear Yoko, though you did have the great 3 days. I guess in the end that is better then nothing.

[yoko*]

Originally Posted by rawb

CRIPPLING SELF HATRED, ICE CREAM AND AN EX WHO ISNT DOING ANYTHING

Done,the.icecream.is.replaced.by.copious .amounts.of.chocolate..and.HELLLLLLLFUCK INGNOOOOOOOOTIMESABILLION.to.the.last.su ggestion....I'd.rather.slit.my.wrists,th anks.

Looks.like.obesity.and.self-hatred.is.the.way.

:|

[rawb]

YOKO I WILL STILL LOVE YOU AS A FATTY
EVEN AS A FATTY WITH A BROKEN SPACEBAR

[yoko*]

Originally Posted by mojo

Yikes.

Why can't you tell him, and why can't it continue? I'm sorry to hear Yoko, though you did have the great 3 days. I guess in the end that is better then nothing.

Thanks.mike.

Dabbler.and.Mike,...I.may.possibly.see.h im.again...I.hope...but.it.can't.continu e.in.a.real.way.for.various.reasons....
For.one,he.lives.more.than.3000km.away.. .and.there.are.no.direct.flights.to.wher e.he.lives.

And.let's.be.honest.guys..if.you.had.a.f ling.with.a.chick...and.you.didn't.think .of.her.as.more.than.just.a.friend.
but.SHE.started.to.get.all.head.over.hee ls.over.you...wouldn't.you.feel.kind.of. awkward?
Although.I.have.no.idea.wtf.is.going.on. in.his.head...i.just.don't.want.to.be."t hat.girl"...you.know...
the.one.that.got.a.little.more.attached. than.convenient?
I.don't.want.to.sever.my.chances.of.actu ally.seeing.him.again.by.throwing.myself .out.there...
I.like.him.enough.as.a.friend.and.as.a.p erson.to.not.want.to.lose.him.for.good.

I'm.level-headed.enough.to.act.and.think.rationall y.about.this.and.I'm.not.gonna.treat.him .any.differently.or.expect.
anything.from.him.other.than.a.great.fri endship...

But...It's.just.kind.of.bittersweet:P
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And.rawb,you.must.really.have.a.big.hear t.if.you.can.find.it.within.you.to.still .love.me.even.as.a.fatty.with.a.broken.s pacebar.

I.am.so.touched.

[Cdn_Brdr]

^Don't assume that he might not be thinking the same thing! I mean if you know in your heart that it absolutely can't ever work it might be tough but you'll most likely have top let go.

If you think there's even the tiniest fraction of a chance then what do you have to lose? It's obvious that he digs you so the odds of him just up and running are well past slim to none!

Good luck darlin! I hope it works out for you!

[Filo]

Go for it Yoko. Even if it goes the other way, then at least you know.

I was in the same situation not long ago and it went the other way. It was shitty, but at least I knew and didn't spend forever wondering what if.

Good luck!

[mapleleaf4ever]

Sounds like Haagen Dazs Therapy is needed.

[Carrie]

I've got Breyers chocolate ice cream.. I will share if you need some.

[djmarymac]

better to have loved and lost...

no really though, they're right. what do you have to lose? finding that sort of chemistry isn't a daily occurrance.

one credo: no regrets.

[Kraig]

Awww... very cool you met someone that you were able to connect with at a deeper level -- sometimes it happens when you least expect it.

You referenced him being just a fling and the fact he is never coming back? -- If that's true, then the writing is already on the wall. However, if it's meant to happen, it will. Opportunities will present themselves to make it a reality.

If anything this fling that you had a deep connection with clearly helped you become more self aware... Aware of what you want, what you need/deserve and ultimately that good guys do exist!

[ebbomega]

Originally Posted by Kraig

Awww... very cool you met someone that you were able to connect with at a deeper level -- sometimes it happens when you least expect it.

You referenced him being just a fling and the fact he is never coming back? -- If that's true, then the writing is already on the wall. However, if it's meant to happen, it will. Opportunities will present themselves to make it a reality.

If anything this fling that you had a deep connection with clearly helped you become more self aware... Aware of what you want, what you need/deserve and ultimately that good guys do exist!

"I say hurl. If you blow chunks and she comes back, she's yours. If you spew and she bolts, it was never meant to be."

[yoko*]

I'm.gonna.pass.on.the.haagen.daaz.and.br yers.as.I've.done.a.fair.share.of.bingei ng.
It.needs.to.stop.before.my.fingers.becom e.too.fat.to.even.use.periods.in.place.o f.spacebars.
:|

I.wont.be.throwing.myself.at.him...

He's.a.rationally.thinking.person.with.a .sequence.of.dreams.that.he.is.going.to. pursue.no.matter.what...so.my.feelings.a re.just.feelings.of.my.own.that.should.a nd.will.remain.to.myself.

I.know.the.rational.conclusion.is.for.me .to.suck.it.up,maybe.suffer.for.a.bit,bu t.remain.good.friends.with.him.and.look. forward.to.possibly.seeing.him.
again.whether.in.baltimore.or.in.Vancouv er.

Thanks.all.for.letting.me.vent.in.peace. and.for.all.your.advice/whatnot.
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Edit.for.Kraig:
Those.are.exactly.the.things.I've.gained ...a.little.bittersweet.but.without.doub t,no.regrets.
Thanks.dude:)
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Edit.for.ebbomega:

The.only.thing.I'm.inclined.to.hurl.are. the.chocolates.I.ate.too.much.of..
ohhhh.my.tummy.has.taken.a.severe.beatin g.

Boys.are.so.fattening.
:|

[mekim]

everyone loves to hear that someone has fallen head over heels for them.

tell him.

how can you be so sure he's not thinking the same thing about the time he spent here?

[rawb]

WHAT ABOUT NIHILISTS
NIHILISTS PROBABLY HATE THAT SHIT

YOKO WAS HE A NIHILIST

[mekim]

fuck, you've got me dead to rights on that one.

[miss.myra]

Egghhh

A guy does not come all the way to Vancouver to be with you 24/7 and sleep next to you in your bed if he's not interested in you. Infact, they probably knew and were hoping things would happen this way when they booked their ticket.

Guys aren't always gonna be totally open about how they feel about things because they don't want to scare you either, but I'm going to bet he's pretty stoked on everything too. I'd save the self-hatred and ice cream for when you're actually sure he doesn't feel that way, and you won't be until you talk with them about it.

[veN]

Wow, Yoko. I wish you all the best. I think you know what you want.

[FireWire]

Like most people already said, chances are that he felt the same way (or close to it anyway). If he doesn't seem like the player type then he probably felt something for you on an authentic level...

The thing is, you're either going to see him again (and that's when you're going to tell him how you feel) or you won't see him - ever. And the other thing is that these types of situations (peaks) in your love life will come again, until one of them hooks and stays at its peak. Like myra said, spare the self-hatred and ice cream this time, and have the "oh it's just life" type of attitude about this situation. Don't hate yourself for something that happened in your life because no one told you that you will never meet anyone else in your life, have they? You KNOW you will... so don't waste your feelings on feeling down about something that may (or may not) be out of your control.

I'm not an expert at these things and I can't say I can fully relate to what you felt (I only felt this way vaguely) but I just tried to take my mind of it, and three days later the intensity of those feelings subsided.

[SEAN!]

It probably wouldnt be very difficult to get him to visit you again and then see where it goes.

[lildonkey]

Do you often have sex with friends?

[yoko*]

If.I.could.spread.my.karma.around.I.woul d.

I'm.prob.booking.a.flight.to.baltimore.f or.after.my.final.exam.this.semester.

so.I.guess.it's."to.be.continued"

in.the.meantime,thanks.all

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RAWB.STOP.USING.WORDS.I.HAVE.TO.WIKI!(I. never.said.I.was.smart)

Nihilism (from the Latin nihil, nothing) is a philosophical position which argues that the world, especially past and current human existence, is without objective meaning, purpose, comprehensible truth, or essential value. Nihilists generally assert some or all of the following: there is no reasonable proof of the existence of a higher ruler or creator, a "true morality" is unknown, and secular ethics are impossible; therefore, life has no truth, and no action is known to be preferable to any other.[1]

OH.FUCK...he's.a.nihilist-scientist-rationalist.
Should.I.be.running?
:O

[Cdn_Brdr]

I know you're steadfast in your decision to hold off but I say again.... chances are he feels the same way!!!

However it works out I hope it ends up with you being happy! :)